This hole to hell
Unable to see it
In dark and shadow
How many fear it
Spilling out in to the world
Screams from its depths
What can come of it
Do you know where to find it
I have seen it
The pit
Reach in and take its power
What does it look like
A frame of flesh
A structure of bone
This living hell
Is in the hearts of man
And know one knows
This is where the hole of hell is

Screaming in the dark
But no one here's
Then a sound
Heart beating fast
Is there hope
Waiting
Watching
Nothing
But the dying echos
Falling Silent
I am alone
In the dark
Waiting
Watching
But nothing
Except dying echos

Crumble
Falling apart
Reaching as the ground falls
From be ninth your feet
I fail they fall
Slipping away in the dark
Reaching out I watch every
Disappear in to the void
Crying for help
Never seen
Unheard the dark took them
Is this my hell
To watch every one I know vanish
Friends fallen away
Family dead
Is this my torment
To stand my ground
To test me
Seeing how long it takes
Before I through my self in too
This pit
Where it all crumbled
Or..
Is it more
Am I the reason
It all fell apart
So here I stand
Alone
Looking in to the pit
Of discard
And wonder
Is this the moment I
Fall

Little flower with petals so pink
Like blushing cheeks

I saw you sprouting
Trampled and broken

Wilting and crushed
Under boots of an uncaring world

I feared for you nightly when the sun fell
Your leaves cut, a ragged sight

I mended you and nurtured you
Encouraged your growth

I have seen you bloom and blossom
So beautiful and demure

But now you have changed
You draw blood with thorns

My flower my rose
Well she is no more

You protect your self from touch
And feeling afraid of the world

Fearing being trampled again
Crushed under foot

An elegant rose sated in loneliness
Pushing away those who admire her so

I can not touch you
Only see you from afar

And remember a time when
we didn't have so many scars

I wanted to reap you
Snatching you from the earth you grew in

But knowing I couldn't
Not yet maybe not ever

But I still stood next to you
Giving all that I could

Wanting to watch you grow
And reach for the sun

I don't regret it
Not a single day

I just wish you know tho I might be gone
My heart will always stay

To this flower
I am proud of you still

A sound
A sound
How can it be
That a sound can be
The drug in my life

A sound
A sound
Making me smile
Makes me feel warm
So soft and soothing

A sound
A sound
So simple
And so pure
And yet I can not find it

A sound
A sound
Filled with light
If that is to be understood
Chasing away the dark

This sound
I am missing right now

Never ment for this to happen
This tangled Web
Lives in a spiral
Leading back in to each other

I will be there

At the very end I will be there
No matter how long it takes
And no matter how much our heart aches
I will be there
I sware I will be there


Never knew my self
The warmth I could feel
Not wanting to slip back
This thing we found is far to real

I will be there

I just want to hold you
Feel you against me your arms so tight
Your whispers of love late at night
Isn't that worth the fight

At the very end I will be there
No matter how long it takes
And no matter how much our heart aches
I will be there
I sware I will be there

When your feeling lost and broken
Heart and soul so weak
You can't move
And your voice can't even speak

I will be there

When the sun seems like it will never rise
The new day seems so far away
And all you need is a hand
Tell you see the new day

At the very end I will be there
No matter how long it takes
And no matter how much our heart aches
I will be there
I sware I will be there

And when we have made it
And you are old and faded
With a life of story's to tell
I will be there
I sware I will be there

I wish  I was home
On my paper I would write a poem
To feed my addiction
Your smile that grin
I wish I wash home
To show you a picture
I drew of you and I
With out your happiness I would die
It's not always been easy
Nor has it been fun
This war it seems can never be won
Depression it holds you
It's grasp confusing
A he'll of the heart
It tears you apart
But I am here
A fighter so true
These blue eyes won't lie to you
I want to tell you
I need you to know
It's going to be ok
Winters over and there is no more snow
The darkness will fade in sunrise
Day burning bright in the sky
So remember my poems
My drawings and this truth
I know it will be ok because I believe in

You...