As I sit
To the right, I see a flaming ball continue its journey.
To the left, I see the darkness ready to put us to sleep.
In front, I see humans going about their lives.
From behind, I hear the call.

As I walk.
To the right, I see contraptions with wheels buzz on by.
To the left, I structures of behemoth size.
In front, I see my love with open hands.
From behind, I hear my lover's man.

I step onto this path of broken glass and broken dreams.
Only to show the way for others.
The crackling cold words of utter failure at my back.
Leaving marks like a slave's disobedient back.
The cracks and pain push my every stride.
The laughter and sounds of defeat are milk to my bones.
This broken world will not cement me to its unchanging ways.

Baby Girl
Whats your name?
You come to the club
With your own man
Just ditch him for me
We can dance the night away
Her body so nice
She grinds on me so gracefully
Her man looks at us
With his mouth wide open.
He says "God ******"
She Pops, Locks and Drops it
All on me
We walk it out
To the bedroom
We make sweeeeeeeet love
She was so tight
She screams just right
As I bust a nut
All over her face

I woke up early
To see her face
Baby girl you awake?
She raises her face
My face in horror
*******
*******
This ******* girl
Was a ******* man
**** shots, never again.

Was fun though ;)

As I sit down remembering the past.
As I sit here I break a tear.
A past full of lies from love ones.
A past full of regrets and remorseful actions.
A past I wouldn't want anyone to endure.
But it was the past that
Shaped and molded
Who I am to this date.
But if it wasn't for my one and only angel.
I
May not be among everyone today.

I extend my hand toward you.
The first few notes of the song begins.
You repeat the action.
I take hold of your hand,
Spin you towards me and the middle of it all.
Your eyes gleaming.
Your dress sparkling in the moonlight.
Your hair moving with grace through the wind.

Our eyes yet to unlock.
We begin our dance.
We entangle, we untangle.
We twist, we straighten.
We live.

Our legs become blurs in the night.
I, the moon setting the motions.
You, the ocean setting the rhythm and pace.
The music seems to fade all around us.
People stop dancing to watch.

The world was watching this gracefully dance.
Yin and Yang split between us.
Water and fire,
Co-existing together in motions.
The music slowly bled back in.

I pull you towards me one last time.
The moon shining the way
As you come.
Our exhausted bodies,
breathe in rhythm.
Our dance was done.

None know the dangers of war
None know feeling of combat
Only ones that do are soldiers of war
Citizens that join the military know the risk
A lot accept the risk
Some even want to die fighting for their country
Or has that glory for fighting for one's country gone?
No it hasn't
It will forever be in a soldier's heart
Some don't believe in their country's action
But they still do the job without asking questions
Soldiers stand tall
Soldiers stand proud
Soldiers let your voices be heard
Because you are the heroes and heroines
Of the so called greatest country in the world
Many will look up to you
Many will follow your lead

Screams of insanity pierced his mind,
And rivets through his body.
The handgun, which he held with a death grip, Found the floor.
The mirror.
Did not reflect him.
It showed the chairs, tables, even the gun.
But the person who stood inches away,
Could not be seen.

Panic and uncertainty moved him.
He needed to flee.
He wanted to flee.
To escape this hellhole called home.
Without realization, he picked up the rose he loathed.
Grabbed his spring coat and fled.
He wanted to know.
He needed to know.

The screams of insanity still raged in him.

Contrary to popular belief,
My mouth does not,
Speak to what my mind,
Suggests in a whim.

It rolls around,
Among the many thoughts.
Takes its numbered ticket,
And waits among the others.

Only to be pushed back,
By other thoughts,
More important.
Until I saw you again.

Lost of breath.
Speechless.
Others egg me on,
To speak what I feel.

I cautiously take steps,
Towards you and your beauty.
Nervous.
Shy.

To speak to you,
Was a dream come true.
We laugh.
We kiss.

To speak to you,
That all it takes.

There are dreams that grow stronger as time passes instead of disappearing.          
With the long lost smiles and the far away laughs.            
The tears that were shed and the fears that were faced.        
I remember when I didn't second guess myself when I said I love you.
I remember the taste of your kiss and the glow in your smile.
The way you looked at me when I walked in a room as if you never wanted me to leave.           
The way I could see your heart drop when I told you what I did.
The sound of the door slamming as mine did the same.                      
The fear in my reflection deciding what to do.
The crunching of the frozen snow under my feet as I ran from my reality.      
The fear in her voice when she finally heard mine over the phone
'where the hell are you?!'
The uncertainty in mine as I explained my plan and why I did it.                          
The embarrassment as I collapsed on the ground from the pain of my decision.

He sits with the rose in hand.

Death.

He ponders.
He dwells.

Death

To be with Ember once again.
To feel her in his arms.
He could see her again.
The rose floats to the floor.
He walks to the mirror.
He stands with the gun in hand.

Death.

He stares into the mirror.
Horror fills his eyes.

Death.

The mirror reflects the room.

Standing on the porch,
Hand in hand.
We looked out onto the World.
Realizing how much time is left.
Her touch began to feel distance.
Her eyes gazed from afar.
Her body drifted from me.
Her kiss felt icy.
Her smile.
Ah her smile,
How could I forget?
I guess that too has deserted me.

Days passed by,
I tried to survive.
My life is in turmoil.
I just want to lay down and die.
The fights got worse.
My father left,
I got in a deeply depressed.
The role model in my life.
Gone
Gone
Gone
Left never to come back.
My mom downstairs down poured with tears.
I stand there eating up my tears.
I go to school trying to work with my peers.
But it was so hard.
I go outside looking up in the sky.
Dreaming about soaring away with my mom.
I've grown up, became more wise
I promised my mom
That I would never grow up
and be like my dad.

This Girl is amazing
This Girl is awesome
This Girl is strong
This Girl is funny
I could go on forever
But she already knows all this
There is something about her
I cant write it
I cant even grasp it
But its there and its strong
Because I can feel it when we touch
She knows I care about her
Because she is dear to me
If she is dear to me why hurt her?
I provoked something I shouldn't of
Now will I lose This Girl?
How would I get This Girl back?
All I can do is HOPE
That our friendship is still intact.
To me a friendship is stronger then a relationship
To risk such a friendship can be the hardest
A relationship can end in tears
A friendship never ends
My last and final plead
Can you still be my friend?

She was the only girl that could make a gray day turn bright
Only girl that could reach your soul
Only girl that could affect all
Only girl that could play Dawn of War good :)
Only girl that couldnt see another human crying without helping
Only girl that could walk up to you and become your best friend
Only girl that could change who I was
Only girl that could love all humans
Only girl that I could change
Only girl that lead a GRAW 2 clan
Only girl that stare in death's eyes and laugh
Only girl that could of been an angel.

From family to friends to co-workers.
I'm always asked the infamous questions.
Why help?
Why volunteer?
Why not finish your degree?
I don't do it out of pity, or
To add to my resumé.
To see the smile on their faces.
To let them know the world is not filled with evil.
To allow the children the so called
"American Dream"
That is the happiness I get.

They say I have never been homeless,
Or that poor.
And yet I have ridden that line.
I have even dipped my toes,
In that icy water.
I do not except to change the world
I do not except them to remember me
I just want people to know,
Some of us actually care.
Will I finish my degree?
Or will I keep roaming this world,
Doing what little I can?

Love is pure
Love is from the soul
Love is felt by two
Love can't be broken

None have seen it
Many have felt it
Same don't believe in it
A few can describe it

Soaring far above the clouds

The wind in front guides our wings

Spinning, twirling, and twisting

Around each other

Escaping the abyss to journey

To the place we both longed to be

Excitement blossoming in the eyes

As we grow ever so near

Our nostrils filled with the many

Scents from below.

Floating on a cloud to adjust

to the new found freedom.

Hands interlocked, eyes locked in a stare

as we made our final descent

We gently floated down to the earth

Just like a leaf would glide down to the earth

sigh*
Unease to see the sun setting
Darkness rears
Oh so near
The day was full of sunlight
Sustaining the life all around us.
Oh what a glorious day it was.
Birds were flying high in the sky
Singing songs of freedom and love.
Cooling breezes pass by
As we can continue to run, jump, and swim.
Emotions are high;
Couples love,
Friends laugh, and
Families share.
Sun continues to set
The world slows down
For us to rest.
Can't wait for the world to blossom once again.

He stares silently up,
At starlit sky.
Taking in the twilight and arctic cold.
He looks past,
The king crowned lake.

Over the mountain range.
The Moon peaks above it.
Letting its power be known.
It sways the king crowned lake.

The Stranger in awe,
At the power and beauty.
The moon rose ever higher.
Dwarfing over the stars.

A tingling feeling swept over him.
A eerie blue light encompassed him.
He began to rise towards the moon
He floated above the king crowned lake.

Fright and the dreaded,
Feeling of heights
Were the initial feeling.
Now freedom swallowed each.

Was the Moon showing its true power?
Was the Moon giving him freedom?
Was the Moon guiding him?
Was he merely just dreaming?

He's body began to rotate.
To the south of the king crowned lake,
Another light shined brightly, on the Door.
A smile etched onto his face.

His freedom.
His mission.

Burning away
Eating at the soul
Day by Day
We get wrinkled and old

Some get stronger
Some get Bolder
Some appreciate
Some start to hate

Far apart we all are
But drawn together we also are
Before disaster strikes we are apart
After disaster strikes we are together

The emptiness in some's soul
Can turn out so cold
But some' soul are open and gold
Ready to help the needy and the old
We try to prevent it
We try to stop it
But all we can do
Is stand there and watch it
watching the world blaze

Thoughts on paper,
Emotions in ink.
Verse that shows
What the artist may think.

Not just words
That rhyme or not.
It's a writer's emotion,
Their deepest thought.

To write great poetry
So deep and true,
It must come from emotions
Deep inside of you.

What you feel is what you write.
It helps to let it all out.
It's the perfect outlet
For those who don't scream and shout.

Do not be afraid
To let the world know.
Say what you think,
And let your emotions go

So divided
Some fight for freedom
Some fight for their lifes
Some fight because they can
One World
So divided
Choose your side
Left?
Right?
Or become one
One World
So divided
Out of place
Confused
Dying
Angry
Hurt
Needs healing

Pressing GO,
will make it move.
Pushing STOP,
will make it pause.
Pressing AT WAR,
will make it swing.
Pushing PEACE,
will make it negotiate.

But make it LOVE,
it will ****.

Weeks gone by.
I couldn’t survive.
She was not by my side.
I was about to die.
Her love for me
Was going away.
While my love for her
Was growing strong.
My life was falling apart.
The road in front was breaking apart.
My guardian angel.
Flew away.
I tried to grasp onto her,
But she pulled away.
My mortal body,
Couldn’t take the pain.
I fell into the deepest,
And darkest part of the world
The Abyss
I saw her with another man
My heart sank deep down
Like quicksand
She said she loved me
But it was all false
I couldn’t cope with the pain
So I ran lost
I felt disabled
Without my angel.

Come journey with me.
Come see how my life has been.
Come see what my eyes behold.
Come see what people haven't seen about about me.
Grow up with two parents.
Leaving the earth loving one.
I have seen the misfits, the fights and agreements.
I end up going to my room misguided and crying.
Its my chance to go away forever.
To sleep forever.
It's a chance for me to take my life.
Then I realized my thoughts were insane.
But then what if I go it all changes.
So confused, so afraid.
I shut my eyes to think.
I think long and hard.
Then open my eyes.
Realizing that I have people that care about me.
I rearrange all my thoughts.
And start to breathe again.
Refreshed.
I stand up, stand tall.
Wiping the tears from my innocent face.
I approach the closed door.

I count the days until i see your smiling face
and wrap my hand around your waist.
You arent very far in distance,
but in time your an eternity away.
The memories of us seem so real and current, but im constantly proven they are a fallacy.
I talk to people about the way we used to be, and its always the same "why arent you together?"
As i tell them the truth i appear to remain unphased.
While i walk up the stairs holding myself up, that single tear that falls reveals it all.
My decisions and mistakes of the past haunt my present life.
The times i hear your voice brings a smile to my face even if only for a second.
Then the smile fades as i realize what i have given up.
You hear it in my voice and tell me not to lose hope.
I say i havent when in reality i know the hands of fate have already decided for us.
What i would give if i could see you even just for a short time as friends.
Every now and then your face haunts my dreams showing what i could have had.
You were my first love that i know.
Forever remember me...

Shattering before you,
One million lights.
Lights that contain life and death.
Lights that hold the keys to happiness.
Lights that shield away the darkness,
When no one else knows you exist.
You stand before one million lights.
All shattering before your feet.
Howling ghostly sounds when they hit.
Releasing white substances into the air.
A reflection is seen in one of the lights.
The truth has been revealed within.

The Earth may sþop spinning...
The Sun may burn out...
The Seas may go dry...
But your name will never leave my heart.

We laugh
We cry
We hug
We sigh
We look for reason why we walk this earth.

They sing
They dance
They kiss
They mate
They look for a connection instead of love.

You wonder
You drift
You speak
You rabble
You look for a way to be heard.