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Oct 2012 Rajgovind Srivastav

Am I blue?

Oct 2012 Rajgovind Srivastav

Francisco DH

Am I blue? That's the question I ask
Any shade of Blue? Navy, sea, sky blue
You won't know behind my mask
I hide the shameful truth from you

I walk around, act like i have not hint of that color
act according to the social norms
you might ask but search no further
cause in time i will be reformed

Time goes on and the stink of the color still lingers
Am I ready for the truth to come out
For some to show support while others anger
For some to to run while others are spout

I am Blue, all shades of blue
i will wear them proudly as I can
No more hiding this beautiful color from you
Blue, All shades of Blue I am

Adapted from the short story "Am I Blue?" by Bruce Coville On homosexuality.
The story is hilarious as well as serious and this poem is basically about my homosexuality.

Oct 2012 Rajgovind Srivastav

Shawl

Oct 2012 Rajgovind Srivastav

chrissy who

Shawl

You wonder why I cover my heart
With a shawl so heavy and thick.
You don’t even understand how impenetrable
It is.

You wish I’d take off this mask
So you could see my soul.
See the pain
The hurt
The anger
The shame.

If I removed my veil
What would you do with what you saw?
Would you laugh?
Would you sigh?
Would you try to help?
I didn’t want to find out
What reaction you would have.
I held everything in.
You thought you knew how to bottle things up.
Honey I invented the cork.
You thought you knew how to hide.
Sorry to break it to you dearest,
But blackout shades?
That idea was mine.
You weren’t about to get in.
I had it all on lock.
Held tight like Fort Knox.

Until

I didn’t.

The windshield cracked
There was a slit in my shades.
A leak in the cork.
The mask
It fell.

I broke down.
You broke in.

And now I no longer wonder
What you would say if I spilled.

And I know for sure,
Thanks to you,
That I’ll never slip up again.

— The End —