ever since i’ve known myself,
i’ve known that i don’t belong.
i belong in a different home,
with a different life,
and different goals,
maybe even a different soul.

you say i look pretty when i cry.
how’d you know i did it all for you?

five minutes is feeling like fifteen,
life is feeling like a broken dream.
i feel as if i can’t go on without you,
but it hurts to be held back too.
i can’t handle being hurt,
but if it’s by you then i’ll make it work,
i can’t go on without you.

you’re gentle
and caring

no cheating
no swearing

just comfort
and kindness

without discord
and blindness

i’ve been wiping tears forever,
nobody to comfort me,
silly little girl.
pillows don’t need comforting.

and at that moment,
every tear,
every all day hatred,
every late night awakened,
was all worth it.