I sit there
Teacher talking
The people around me talking
But me I am not joining and I am still not listening to the teacher;
Like I should!

Instead of listening to the teacher I listen to the girls on my left
They are talking about a crush that one on of them have.
To my left boys talking about some girl they say in the hallway
Apparently, she is their friend’s girlfriend and she is cheating on him
The couple in front of me to awkward to actually talk
Randomly say random every now and then.
The girl sitting behind me tapping her pencil.
The mower outside the window. The kids in the hall running around making a scene.
I think about what I wanna do when I get home.
I think about so many things I lose myself.
I think about everything except what I should be doing.
I constantly move cause I can't sit still. I tap my pencil
everyone give me looks because of all of it

I want to focus I really do. That all I want to do.
I don't want to be distracted by everything around me that when that bell rings
I won't have a clue what the homework is or what we learned.
I don't want to go home and call up my friend
that has the same teacher two class periods before me and ask what we learned.

Everyone just says take medicine,
Just try harder.
But I don't want to take that medicine.
I don't want to alter my mind because I am to weak to control my own thoughts,
How do you think that makes me feel.

What causes me to do all this?
It isn't because I am dumb or stupid, or unable to learn.
It's because of my ADHD.