Day 1 Saying goodbye to you was the hardest goodbye I've ever had. Everyone at the airport was staring at the girl who couldn't stop crying. I couldn't get the taste of your lips off of mine, or the way you would grab my hand and play with it so casually in front of everyone.
Day 2 I woke up and couldn't get out of bed because the thought of never seeing you again was ripping a hole in my chest and all I could do was cry and pretend meeting you never happened.
Day 3 I got out of bed but the thought of going to school with fake people and not you made me get right back in. I teared up at everything that day and when I got home I turned on songs that reminded me of you and I cried.
Day 4 I went to school and only teared up a few times but every time you sent me a text it was a blessing but also a constant reminder of the fact that I'm never going to be able to hear your voice or touch your face again.
Day 5 My mom sent me to my therapist because she was worried about how I spent all my time crying and shutting out all the people who pretend to tolerate me here at home. It was hard to say your name aloud and I seriously didn't care about anyone else.
Day 7 The past two days I didn't cry and I laughed for  the first time since I kissed you goodbye.
Day 8 I thought I was doing better but I wanted to cry the whole day because it had been a week since I'd heard your voice and I knew you were going to move on to bigger and better things in life that didn't involve me. Because the only way to get past someone you fall in love with that you will never see again is by moving on. I can't imagine you saying the same things you said to me to some new girl or kissing her the way you kissed me. And it hurts more than anything I've felt before.
Day 14 Its been 2 weeks and it's been easier but my heart still hurts when I think about you
1 Month We've stopped talking and it hurts a lot but I know that it's for the better.
2 Months You have a girlfriend now, I'm not going to lie, it hurts me a little but I know that there's no way we could ever be together since we live 13 states apart.
4 Months You've gone through 5 girls since me and I'm starting to realize that maybe you're not in my life for a reason.
6 Months I still miss you sometimes, but I'm learning that maybe it's just the memory and not you I crave.
7 Months I've met a guy and we're starting to talk, I think I might be moving on
8 Months I still see your face on social media, but it doesn't hurt me anymore
9 Months You texted me today, and all the feelings came back. I cried.
10 Months, I think I've moved on, I'm happy now and even when I see your name somewhere I can't remember why I even liked you in the first place
12 Months I'm healed.

One thing of the most important things I've learned
is that you can't force yourself to love someone for whom you don't yearn.
You'll meet strangers so vibrant that everyone else fades away;
like your favorite grey t shirt when you wore it everyday.

You'll meet people who feel right- like two plus two-
But that doesn't mean they are right for you.

I met a boy who was the same as me
Young, crazy, and uncontrollably free.
He made me happier than rolling sea
So it broke my heart when we weren't meant to be.

You'll meet people who feel right- like two plus two-
But that doesn't mean they are right for you.

I knew a boy who smelled like spring
He made the snow melt when he started to sing.
But sometimes people don't know how to treat right
And it causes them to push others far out of their sight.

You'll meet people who feel right- like two plus two-
But that doesn't mean they are right for you.

I thought I learned the first three times
That loving only leaves scarring war crimes.
You'll meet people who color your world
Brighter than a hundred paints that have been swirled.

But that doesn't mean they are right for you.

We were in a whirl
A vortex
A spiral

A roller coaster i saw going up
But everyone else saw going down

We grew closer
Everything between us shared

When suddenly we took a plunge
His friends took his sense
And he lost respect

For he had dropped me
Drowned me in the hate of the world
Ditched me like a childish dream

Our friendship had ended,
We are yet to talk.
I don't know what he thinks
And vice to his versa.

I have cried over the loss
But the time has come to move on
To gain strength
And hope

For we need to prepare.
Because the vortex of life-
It only goes down my dear