Shattered soul, tattered mind.
The way out is what I hope to find.
Old dreams lost without a trace.
Lately I've been feeling a little out of place.

Broken heart fills me with sorrow.
Please tell me there will be a better tomorrow.
This shiny, silver aid.
Why, when I hold it, am I not afraid?

Look into my eyes; see what they reveal.
What you will find is what these bracelets and sleeves conceal.
The hurt, the pain
As it keeps me somewhat sane.

That voice in my head seems so eager
As it whispers, go a little deeper.

Sometimes I cut myself just to feel the pain
Then I hide my scars
Because of all the shame
The pain is awful
I do it just to feel
Sometimes I have to make sure everything's still real

My life has been bad
I do it to forget
I cut my arms
Then I cry as I sit alone in my room
Hoping for someone
To save me from this
So I can finally say I've won

I want to quit this habit
But I still reach for the blade
I cry out in pain
My arm turns that familiar red shade
I get that adrenalin rush
The blood runs over my hand

I have to stop this ****
I need to become someone new

One minute we were laughing and fine
I was your best friend and you were mine
I loved the way when I was with you my whole world shined
I just didn’t know our moments together were being timed

The next minute you act like you don’t know me at all
I saw you trying to fade away, trying to not be tall
Your eyes so firmly focused on the ground
I tried to talk to you but you didn’t make a sound

I knew our friendship had some issues
I just didn’t think my bin would be filled with all these tissues
It has been the longest 5 days in history
All I have been thinking about is this mystery

What did I do wrong this time?
I’m sorry I am who I am
I tried to change for you but I don’t think I can

Those nights we spent on the phone till midnight
They were just small memories, but I need to forget them now we’re done.
I know your secrets, I have kept them all this time
I know all of your deepest darkest fears
I guess you don’t know mine
My biggest fear is losing you
Guess what?
I’m scared, because it’s true.

People always ask, “why?”

Why do you smoke?
Why do you cut?
Why do you drink?
Why are you sad?
Why do you starve?

The answer is always the same.
It gets me away from the cruel world.
The one that we live in.
Others agree.

This world is so blind
So oblivious
It can’t even see all the pain that it causes.

Leaves pain and sorrow in its hungry path.
The path for money, power, “love”.

Hurting so many,
Just for that one rush.
For that one day,
Hour, minute, second
Was it worth it?
Next time you are hungry,
Look back at that people you leave
They are hungry, cold, crying for love.

I’m one of those people
You didn’t notice,
Did you?

Well,
That’s why I’m how I am.
That’s why.

Everyday around quarter past three,
You burst into the bathroom searching for me,
I get hidden by your mother while you are away,
Hidden, unused for most of the day,
I feel your anger and sorrow as your hand grips me tight,
I'm the one & only thing that helps you sleep at night,
I live to put scars upon your wrist,
I leave my mark I'm proud of this,
I watch as the beautiful red blood pattern drips,
And runs off the ends of your fingertips,
What possesses humans to act like this,
To scream, cry & cut their wrists,
But for now my job is clear
The reason that I was brought here
To relieve the pain
To sit by the window and watch the rain,
Up until around quarter past three
When you burst into the bathroom searching for me..

Rain, rain, go away,
Because of you the pain will stay.
Slit my throat, cut out my heart,
Leave me here, tear it apart.

Poison tears stream down my face,
My heart beats at a steady pace
As I try to stand again;
Alone and standing in the rain.

I don’t need you anymore…
Is what I think while tears pour.
I hate you like I hate my life;
But love is what cuts like a knife.

Love is death and death is you;
Its pain stains like a black tattoo.
Those memories come back again
And bind me in the ropes of pain.

Crimson blood streams down my head
Like a long, silk ribbon, tied by a thread,
To a platinum bullet, a hole in my skull…

...Now just a memory that’s faded and dull.

Actions/Feelings:
I find comfort in you
Even if it's just for a while
You never judge me as I drink you down

You are both my medicine
And my poison
Things are better
When I have you with me

You can be different
Anytime I choose
Powerful and relaxing
Making everything bearable

I feel empty
When you are full
When I have no one else
You are always there to comfort me

Aftermath:
A sip was all it took

A sip to feel good
A sip to feel nice

A sip was all it took

The sip made her dance
The sip made her shout
The sip made her lose it

But a sip was all it took

A sip to block out the doubt
A sip to **** the thought
A sip to drown the pain

A sip was all it took