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Rachel Cloud Jul 2013
What does it make you?
When misery is relief?
Maybe it's just me
Who finds joy
when they know
someone hates them.
One less person to love
One less person to ruin
to cry for
to apologize to
to ****.

I don't search out hate, though
I have loved,
perhaps more purely than
you could imagine.
When one fears love,
has never known it
... Well,
Who can deny
ignorance breeds
the purest of emotion?

And yet,
there comes a time
when purity runs dry
once a bubbling brook
becomes a struggling trickle
weariness replaces what
once was feeling
fleeting.

But do not weep for me
no second thoughts
no regrets
Whilst my sentiments fade
and a slumber nears
know I lived,
And how very sorry
I am
for the things
I have done
Rachel Cloud Jul 2013
Kiss of ice
and kiss of frost,
who remembers what was lost?
Fading light,
fading sight,
who ran off
into the night?

Whispers,
mutters,
something gone
who will live
when comes the dawn?

With,
without,
live,
or die
How can such variables
to this apply?

Can one live
without the other?
Or must one leave
with fear to smother

Words
no one
will ever hear,
But if they had
would they endear?

Quiet, quiet
no more words
With them
emotion comes in herds

Mocking,
haunting,
ghostly face,
weaving love
and thoughts like lace

Cold as frost
and cold as ice
And yet your lips
will still entice...
Opening of a story of a similar name.
Rachel Cloud Jun 2013
You are what? They ask.
what doesn't matter. I answer.
I am. That's what is important.
What can be added later,
If later is ever needed
But I am anything
I am happy
I am alone
I am forgotten
I am unwanted
but I still am
still happy
still dreaming
still cherished
If only by myself
You see?
I know what I am
Everything
and
Nothing
Powerful
and
Whispered
Cautious
but

*am
Rachel Cloud May 2013
Hush the silence my dear
its cruelty screams loud
your loneliness couldn't
compare to mine

Don't you worry, my dear
The pain won't last long
I won't let you suffer
this night

Memories twirl
throughout my mind
hated reflections of loss that I faced
and the warmth I once felt
In my heart and my soul
I fear it is lost to me now

Oh, the darkness consumes me
as I watch the leaf die
and the hell I've been living
ends abruptly tonight

The shadows are swirling
under the moon's watchful eye
so as the whistling winds
tell me secrets so low
I whisper my quiet goodbye…

Just as the heartbeat of war
tore my love from my arms
so the silence that follows
drives me closer to her

tears fell from their eyes
knowing both of us gone
How could they not notice
my obmutescence of late?

Did they even ever care?

Oh, the darkness consumes me
as I watch the leaf die
and the hell I've been living
ends abruptly tonight

The cold shadows are swirling
under the moon's watchful eye
so as the whistling winds
tell me secrets so low
I whisper my quiet goodbye…
Lyrics for a song a character sings in a story I'm writing, (depressed male, has mild DID)
Criticism welcome/wanted, I've never written lyrics before.
Rachel Cloud Dec 2012
When you look in the mirror
And sorrow looks back
The sobs of unworthy
Your body will rack
As tears of regret
Fall through the air
Weight of consequence
More than you can bear
The hate inside you
Ripping out
The distress that blinds you
Fills you with doubt
Doubt in the world
that left you to rot
Doubt in the people
Who love you or not

Tragedy turns you
Cold as stone
And tragedies plural
Will leave you alone
As dark overshadows
All light in your soul
It makes you abandon
Your greatest goal
All hope that you find
Will seem dark and demeaning
Life, in itself
Will lose all its meaning
It'll mock you today
And will mock you tomorrow
The mirror that showed you
All of your sorrow...

— The End —