Is a name of the sweetest kind

she threw me up - some old time movie kinda girl

busted some moves like she was a snake on a plane

poisonous i drank her deeply, cooly like whatchamacallit

yep i am feelin that vibe, i tell you

she is beauty perfected, she makes my heart thump

i never met her, never once did i see her face

she catches my breath and holds it, she laughs

at the way i try to breathe her in

she suffocates my soul because she knows i want her,

want her so bad

and i just think that when the wind blows

will it catch me and take me far from here?

i can see her laughing from the corner of my eye

i can spy on her, yet she doesn't know where i am

and still she makes it difficult to breathe

tendrils wrap round my body

cold, it throws me into shock

a swimming pool in the night

i can't catch my breath, i drown in her

she enters my skin and pulls at my legs

i am not grounded, when she is here

smile, she makes me

feel

warm inside, like i can survive this dream

and when i think i can't take anymore

i take some more

i take a deep breath and she is there before me

ready and willin to tear away my thoughts

i had before

come see me she says, come hold my hand

and i will

keep you

in my

arms

Packed away
fr fr from a speeding bullet
a night time bmx ride to the beach and back again
and again
she's in here
too far too fearless for you to survive this warmth
i'm not souless, just a girl in love
i made me own way here
there is no taxi cab awaiting my drunken ramblin
i am good in bed
i am happy for you
i fell apart a long time ago, ago, ago
i hear YOU scream
i am not that person long ago
you all fell in love with me
and it really it was not me
i decieved you with the cut of my jib
with the line of my skin
deep beauty within
ha hahaha hahahaaaaaa
i will have you
i won't want you
i won't want you
you drunk too much
you take far too much speed to be a queen
la la laaaa la alaaaa
you don't know this but it was not me
whisper me sweet nothings
i've been hurt before,
**** it,
they are nothing compared to you
my bittersweet tears were cried when i left you there
i left myself in your bed
and i knew you would hear me
and dream of me calling your name
i am a pill you hate to swallow
some nidnight ****
you begged and borrowed
to be happy....
are you such a thing?
no methinks not
and you know i know this
and i am in love with you
so deep, so hard i have fallen
2 hours was all it took
2 months was all it took
my world exploded in your hands
you couldn;t handle me
you could not handle this....
i am a cyclone of astute proportions
too much for your shallow heart to bear
and yet i am here
too much far gone
i am her shadow
the beat of her drum
the second glance of her dance moves
she looks at me...
and i can not look away
i knew before i met her
i knew when she got in the car
i knew before i met her
and **** me....
thats all i have to say

lost and wandering with out a story

a midnight lampshade stretched out over glory

not tricks or tracks up my sleeve

no more wanting, no more to grieve

a silent not darkness has swallowed my skin

sallowed and sickly the light moves within

and deep in the counscious lying there

is my soul flying naked and bare

never wrote more truer story of romance and sin

and it got thrown out with the cat food in the bin

and now it is different the air smells alive

i can feel her beneath me making me drive

and there are no words, tho i use far to many

for every time i screamed **** i found a new penny

and she was there all along just under my pen

i'd already written about her in everything back then

and oh what is love, i hear the bells cry

it was not those girls who chose you to die

for their misfortunes and weakness and what the **** evers

i am neat, petite, i keep it together

i kept myself for her tho i never knew her before

she was number 3 behind the door

i knew before she was there, she was my wife

i knew that she was an end to my lesbian strife

too many women to **** me around to many times

too many the focus of my love rhymes

what for? whatever...what the ****...?!!

sssshhh...i even tried to write one a book!!

oh i can laugh now, oh i can laugh at myself

who was i back then, what was with the red pen?

and now she is my eyes, my heat, my kiss

every moment is a feelin of bliss

she's everything i searched for without knowing

and every night in the wind its blowing

her name, the air is breathless when she is here

and yes i have cried a salty tear

for all the thousand pieces of my heart i have given out

she is worth a million more, with no doubt

and i am sad for those who cannot feel like i do

i am sorry for telling all those girls 'i love you'

because it was not real, i'm sorry it was something else

maybe something that carried some sort of wealth

they were not even close to how my garden grows

how could i be so blind to what was right under my nose?

oh my sweet sweet girl, oh my sweetest love

there is nothing else i can give you but all of this

and my arms have fallen inside out for you....

Failing to breathe, she eats me whole
my heart explodes like a squashed orange.
She took the words from behind my teeth
hidden for years beneath a different disguise.
She takes me for long walks to teach me
how to skim stones
and still in my dreams my teeth fall apart.
When it snowed i covered myself in sheeps clothing
I stood on the rooftop and screamed every inch
of you out into the silent air,
each word, branded and glowing red, eaten by
snowflakes.
She ties me up and covers my eyes,
I'm led down a merry path of beauty and destruction
I hid for a while
but her words are a labyrinth
I drew the way back on my skin in black ink
Yet she poisoned the air so i couldn't see
anymore.
She threw me away
She dragged me out
I caught her looking att me as she walked away
I had fallen down
and she wasn't there.
A crack in the pavement.
Now i'm more careful when i walk.

i wonder why she ever felt the need to give herself away like that

why she could never look in the mirror

and see what i can see

she doesn't need to be anyone or be anybody

my perfection is met by her alone;

It was me that was dented and bruised

i don't want deceit or lies or breakable promises

i'm lost in a whirlwind of memories

i'm blinded by a beauty unique

its sorry that i am when i feel her there

that she had that and i wasn't there

i wonder where is that person i used to be?

i was poisoned a long time ago

someone made it a game of who can hurt the most

she drew a line in the sand and out poured my blood

everytime she talks its as if she is speaking a different language

she is a stranger from a distant dream

she destroyed my self worth

and i do not know how to come back from that

i'm scared because i was drowned in a previous life

she held my head underwater til i suffocated

and i lost it, that piece of me

she finally punched the wind out of me

and dragged me up to teach me it was my fault

she won, i have no fight anymore

i don't want to fight, she makes it hard to think, to breathe

a noose around my neck, my hands, my mind

i just want to be, to be here and be here with my love

to hold her hand and not to apologise

for every single little thing, because i am not sure of who i am

because, the other one, the one of whom i cannot speak

she took it out of me

and made me nothing more than worthless and pointless

and now i fight, for me, to find myself

she is weak, i am strong and she broke me apart to show me i could be weak

then laughed,

then she spat on my grave as she walked away with another girl

it beats to a different drum

and i thought if i marched then they would come

to love me more than i thought i knew

but they didn't just you

now i know things have been said unkind

you must understand if only i could rewind

i would but i can't and now my heart beats alone



my hair it feels different without you here

words feel different in my ear

my spotlight dims and the world turns

and all my heart begins to burn

i never wanted you to let me go

and i am sure you love me still so

so who i am to hang on to?




Some beautiful angel who slept so sweetly

some girl who fell in love deeply

and she is the one of this i am sure

every heartbeat is an overture

and when i am thinking she is not here

i don;t know which way to steer

i am lost without you



my head is useless

my heartbeat is weak

my dreams are worthless

even as we speak

she turned me inside out and confused my soul

why aren't i whole?




I wish she could only see the marching band

that my heart plays for her by her very hand

but no, alas, alack, i am not worth what she feels

inside outside cart-*******-wheels

i wish she could see her beauty defined

no move made is misaligned

sweet surprise my beautiful




so as i sit here and my heart does weep

i wonder what song does feel its beat

she left me now inside a battle of will

of hurt and pain and yet still

i fight till i am bleeding from the tears in my eyes

i know she hates, i can feel her despise

and who am i to you




my heart it beats to a different tune

one that moves in the beauty of you

tho, i am scared to admit she is long gone by now

she made a pact with her head, a sacred vow

and to whom does her heart march, which soulful song?

and when did i ever feel so out of time, so wrong

my music beats in you....

I have blue eyes and racerback vest

a swallow and black heart tattooed on my chest

a girl in black jeans, and a pierced tongue,

reminds me of a time when i was young

listening to music i know i can never play

because i wasn't built that way

i like takin pictures of my friends and their moves

i like to dance to music in any groove

i wanted it all, now its all right here

and i can expect the unknown without any fear

i am nothing without her there

and my eyes i can feel begin to tear

she is my edge, the one i jump upon

(she is my feelin, the whisper in my ****** song)

and i thought better, i thought i had a clue

no, *******, i knew better than you

i told her straight, she is my all

she txt me back, when will you call?

and i thought, jeez, i am founded, i am gently aground

i am not shipwrecked i am now a new sound

and i write these words because i wanted you all to know

that you have watched me burn, reap and sow

and now i have no words that mean more than i love her

thoughts are colours, my speech a blur

and thinking is not the same

i laugh a lot, i have no shame

we danced on the bed and made love on the table

she is my foundation, my east wing gable

flowers fall where before grew a ****

she talked to me and planted a seed

and i was not scared i am now more stronger than ever

i can face my demons whatever the weather

prouder than **** i am of being with this girl

and she is my life, she is my world

i have a skull tattooed on my back and my hip

and secret swirl which a trace with my finger tip

i am found i am now found, i tell thee

i thought i was before but i was still marooned in the sea

so is it real, this?

no its a mother ******* starblazer of a good triple forever sequel

she is mine forever, transformers in disguise

fix up, look smart

come see me baby and tell me a story

like you did the night you held me till i fell asleep

i love you, i, love, you......