I see your broken pieces,
I watch them fall away,
I want you to be okay,
But I can't fix you;

You want me to be your redemption,
You want me to be your saving grace,
You want my all,
But I can't fix you;

You apologize for ever thing you've done,
And I swear I forgive you,
But I know,
I can't fix you.

He swore every monster away,
Checked every closet and bed,
He told me he'd hold this world up,
Never letting it fall,
But I don't see him now;

He held his head high,
Expected better things,
He told me the stories,
That haunt him daily,
But I don't see him now;

He held my hand,
In his rough callused hands,
He walked beside me,
Stride by stride,
But  I don't see him now;

He took me places,
I dreamed about,
He played make-believe,
With a fool like me,
But I don't see him now;

Where is he,
When will be return,
When will my heart be full,
Like it once was,
But although I search,
I don't see him now.

My words sharpened by my tongue,
Reach out and cut you,
With every intention to tear you apart,
I was cold,
You have frost bite,
I didn't think,
I just took everything you had left,
I was cruel,
I meant every word,
But in my best moments I don't,
Now you're mad,
What did I expect,
Why am I hurt,
When I was the one who caused this,
You just got the receiving end,
You have the right to play victim,
I'm the monster tonight.

Shake me like your toy,
Tear me down,
Knock me to the floor,
Leave me looking up,
Hit me with your fists,
Kick me in the side,
Twist and contort my body anyway you want,
Bite me till your tear my flesh,
Break me to pieces,
Oh hate me like you do,
I adore the abuse.

I don't talk to stranger,
but they speak to me,
I tell them to stop it,
but they don't listen to me;

I don't follow strangers,
but they follow me,
I run away from them,
but they keep following me;

I don't believe strangers,
but they still tell me things,
I tell them to leave,
but they argue with me;

I don't live with strangers,
but they live with me,
they're always in my head,
telling me things.

I don't share my head with strangers,
but they're in there still,
I tell them to stop influencing me,
but they won't listen to me.

Failure's a bitter pill to swallow,
Life hits a spore spot,
But if you believe we can do this,
I'll believe in you;

Sometimes I want to call it a day,
I want to go our separate ways,
But then you tell me how we're right,
And I don't want to leave;

We're ****** if we do,
We're ****** if we don't,
That's a part of this game we play,
But I'm the best player you'll ever take.

Let's throw in the towel,
And go on our way,
You know I love you,
But you know I won't stay..

Your chasing a ghost,
Stop beating the horse,
Just let it die,
I respond with;
Trust me I've tried.

I was hopeful,
You were haunting,
Now we stand together,
Somewhere we'd never thought we'd be,
Your calloused hand in mine,
My thigh brushing against yours,
I don't see anyone else in this room,
And my devils are saying give into you.

Calloused hands slid over me then grips desperately;
The skin on my hips cry for mercy when he grabs hold of me,
I feel your head on my bare shoulder;
A beat of sweat drips down from your brow,
A long leg possessively lays over mine,
Your body tenses,
I know you're dying inside,
I feel the shake.
In sleep you're chased by nasty dreams,
Of a war that you remember distinctively.
His teeth set into my shoulder, I start to scream,
In a blink of an eye he was awake;
Panting, sweating, fearful;
His eyes look at me,
See's the destruction that he made,
It makes him feel like less of a man.
Standing to get a cigarette,
I press my cheek to his,
"I'm a monster" He says,
He believes it.
He's disgusted with himself looking at my ****** hips,
That's what a hero looks like I tell him,
He swears for mercy for himself;
I need a cigarette.

I met him at a bad time, it was so cold, and it was so dark, and the worse part was I was just as cold and dark as the world around me was. The streets were all painted black and gray, and I was just a speck of white walking on my way, then out from one of my deepest thoughts I looked up and saw a ray of light, something small that shined, walking straight to me, and that was the moment I thought; that maybe life wasn’t quite what I began to think it was. Everything began to confuse me; every thought, every word; it puzzled me to the point that I couldn’t even speak about it.
I’ve learned through a list of bad things, that everything good must fade. Somewhere in some book that was written by some terrible man says that they must, because if they didn’t then we’d never be grateful for anything, but they didn’t understand that we aren’t going to anyway, we’re  selfish by nature, especially me. The ray of light was right in front of me, I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t even look up; the better parts of me where ashamed of the creature I was slowly becoming. The light reveled himself as Ransom; I didn’t dare look him in the face. Just standing by his side he warmed me, he shifted everything to the point that made me look up, it was such a different experience that sent me to brand new spaces, and for some reason I couldn’t even mutter the word “Thanks”. I was frozen, and he was just smiling and shining, and I didn’t even know how to say “Thanks”.

His arms reached around me,
But mine didn't come around in return,
I just sighed and restrained as he pressed his shoulder to my face,
Once I got free, He just stared,
As though he expected some emotional response,
But no, not I,
With a turn of the heel,
There I go, Down the ***** sidewalk with not even a sigh,
I felt eyes burning through my back,
But I had no need to turn around.
I truly believe some people just aren't meant for other people,
Some people are just suppose to teach certain lessons and move on,
I think I might be one of those people,
I don't desire to stay in one place long,
Maybe that's the lesson I am,
That good things travel,
Or that you can't tame the wild.

My eyes are still burning,
My rigid body is still yearning for you,
A thousand miles apart,
Yet so close in my heart,
Sometimes I fool myself
I think that you're here,
I'm awoken by my own hopeless tears,
When your life leaves,
What is there to wake up to,
Nothing, but these empty bottles of *****,
These months feel like years,
Return to me love,
Make me whole,
Don't let these pieces shatter anymore,
Be where you want to be,
Be here with me.

I'm skeptical of his intentions,
Yet, he's sure about his feelings,
We've done this before,
We've don't this a million times,
His love for me fails,
Or that's what I believe,
But he hangs around,
waiting for me;

He's faster then I am,
I'm smarter then him though,
He treats me like a fool,
But he loves me foolish ways,
I don't believe what he says,
But I trust what he does,
And he sticks around,
Waiting for me;

I wait for the day,
That he turns away from me,
Going into the arms of another woman,
Who can love him tight,
Kiss him goodnight,
Forever to do what I couldn't,
But still he hangs around,
No matter the weather or time,
Waiting for me

Some people you shouldn't have,
And never should you hold them,
Because the thing about those types,
They are the ones that love fast,
The ones that make you fall hard,
The ones you're head over heels about,
But they always slip out in time,
The time before they love you back,
Or even care at all,
It's such a strange design,
You love and hate them,
They consume every inch of your mind,
And you don't even notice,
Cause when you love like that,
Nobody gets out alive.

I'm tired of this back and forth game,
We both fight so hard,
But what for,
I would give anything,
To have you back on my side,
If I begged,
Would you do anything,
Or would you turn back to the door,
I will take all the blame,
Just to see the light back in your eyes,
I don't want to leave,
But if it's really what you want,
I'd do that for you.

I don't know how,
Or why,
But I fell in love with him slow,
It was out of the ordinary for me,
For I am somewhat reckless,
And everything about him felt to close for comfort,
But everything he was is what I wanted,
So I stood back and watched him,
For once I waited,
I made him wait,
All his moves were smooth,
With his every word I felt myself inch towards him,
The anticipation before the fall, was almost as good as the fall itself,
Maybe there's something about what you want but can't have,
To make you want it more,
I don't regret,
A moment I wasted,
All while he was chasing,
Now we're free falling,
Never to touch the ground,
It's a wonderful storm reside in.

My phone rang a few times last night,
Each time I wished it was you,
But every time I check
It was someone else,
That was tough to do;
I closed my eyes last night,
In hopes when I opened them you'd be by my side,
But when I did,
I was faced with the truth
That you were gone;
I weep by your grave,
I weep in our bed,
I just want to be where you are;
Now if you really must know how I am,
I should let you know,
I'm not doing so well,
Since you've been gone,
You told me to be happy,
But I just can't move on,
And it's tough.

Every day's the same,
And when it's not,
The world feels as though,
It would fall apart;

If the tree isn't lit,
If the dogs don't go out,
I turn for a panic,
and start to run about;

If I don't feel sorry for myself,
I don't know what to do,
I'd sit in the corner,
So utterly confused;

So here's the truth,
About my life and all,
If it isn't dramatic,
I don't know what I'd do,
I'd be the most bored little fool.

We'll see him in the news one day,
One way or another,
A feature on business,
Or an obitchuary,
Everybody'll morn,
They'll say they never saw it coming,
But when he pleaded for help;
You were to busy to look his way
Poor kid begging on his knees,
He knew his fait,
When you looked past it,
Now he's gone,
He could of changed the world,
But we all were to busy;
To ever see it coming,
We didn't just lose a number in population,
We lost a child,
We could of done something,
I can't help but think;
We could of done something.

It is said,
that time heals everything,
but time doesn't do anything for me,
my wounds left untouched,
by the ticking of a clock;
My heart still bleeds,
With the same pain from an hour ago,
The days run together,
Every day feels like my last;
Twenty-four hours don't change anything,
Even as they add up,
The event still fresh in my head,
When will it turn to the past.

Contrary to your belief,
And unlike whatever you think,
I don't regret our time,
And if we're making confessions,
I'll go ahead and make mine,
That your the only thing I got right.

I'll admit I think back,
I'll admit I miss you,
And sometimes I wonder,
Pondering my thoughts,
I know the truth,
I couldn't hate you,
Even if I tried to;

I know you regret us,
I know you want to take it all back,
But I'll treasure that time,
That year of my life,
That belonged to you,
The one year,
I got something right.

It's been a few weeks and the feelings haven't faded,
I was so confident that you'd come around;
I'm not holding on to you because I'm scared for you to leave,
I'm holding on because your the only thing I got right;
Don't make me wake up alone again tonight,
Hoping to be warmed by your touch;
Everything we used to argue about,
Everything we used to do,
I can't accept that your love faded like you said it to,
Believe me when I say, I wish I could stop loving you,
But that's something I'll never be able to do;
It's not your love I'm begging for anymore,
It's every part of you;
If you didn't believe I loved you,
I wouldn't be waiting here for you,
People think I'm crazy,
I'm sure that it's true,
I don't care what people think, I only care about you;
Never have I ever felt the way I feel about you.

I haven't traveled a lot,
but as far as I'm concerned,
I've been everywhere
there is in the world;

I've met many people,
I've heard every word,
and people call me foolish,
but as far as I'm concerned,
I've met everyone there is in the world;

I've read many books,
and know every word,
I quote them all,
sing every song,
and some say that's impossible,
but as far as I'm concerned,
I've read every word there is in the world;

I've had the entire world before,
And held one close,
you say it's not possible,
But as far as I'm concerned,
If I loved you,
I've had the whole world.

I'm not good at goodbyes,
I can't handle the pain,
I found someone to love,
Why did I throw it away?
When I walk these streets,
I'm just going to want to be where you are,
When I go by I'll count all the stars,
Making wishes on each one,
But they'll never come true,
Not again,
I wished for you once,
Now you're just like those stars,
Close enough to see,
But to far to reach out and touch,
What kills me more?
To see,
Or to not reach,
Both hurt just the same,
Maybe that's why the hole in my heart bleeds,
It was all because a mistake I made,
I started this war,
I don't want to go back there again,
I don't want to go home alone.
What's home without you there?
It's just a house,
These are just walls,
Walls that I built up tall,
Because I was scared to tumble and fall,
Now I'm just a being,
Without you there's no living,
So I'm walking alone,
On a cold, paved road,
Looking for my home,
But I can't find you.

I miss you,
To bad to even explain,
I try to fill my time with new guys,
The whole time thinking about the one that got away,
And I'll admit this is all new for me,
Loving you always came so easy,
Losing you wasn't the same for me.
I learned quick that you play for keeps,
You taught me slow and steady wins the race,
and how I loved the chase,
You kept my interest,
Kept me close,
I thought you were all I needed to stay afloat,
I learned from my mistakes,
and I can honestly say,
I miss you a little to much to be comfortable with anyone else,
I don't want to love you like this,
I just want you to come back home.

You're going to do great things, You're going to love hard,
You're going to have people screaming your name,
You're going to drink beer and shoot the bull with your friends,
They're going to ask about the girl in your songs,
And for the first time in a long time you'll feel something,
You'll think about me.
Every night after a few drinks, You'll stumble on stage with your cigarette,
Telling your fans, this one goes out to the one who got away,
The one that I should of chased,
The one that has my heart every day,
The one that I fall asleep in the memories,
And on that stage you'll feel the pain,
Of missing me.

If I could stomach the sound,
If I could recognize the words;
Maybe I wouldn't be so broke,
Maybe I could move to
Bigger and better things;
On the ground here I'm nothing,
I can hardly breathe;
In out, in out;
I find it hard to see,
What happen to me;
I become the hate
I told myself wasn't there;
Yell out for help,
I get blank stares
To save me from the nothing,
To teach me to feel,
I shout "save me",
Nobodies there

The delusion of our relationship,
No need to believe it,
We fit no mold,
Even we tried to say we were different,
But we were the same,
Denying the facts,
We'd never be able to stay;

Some couples say they'll last forever,
No false ideas about it,
At the end we'll have played a good game,
Either way, we both lost it,
Now we can wave,
Then apart we can leave,
With no gain, not much loss,
Together we'll never be.

I love you,
I've been up hours thinking,
Thinking about how much I love you.
You see, we're having problems,
Sometimes I swear I hate you,
Everything you do makes me mad,
We argue all the time,
Sometimes you really do disgust me,
But when it comes to you,
I know we're right,
Everytime I hate you,
Everytime I'm mad,
I stop being mad,
And I just love you,
Because I love you,
And there's no getting around that.

The halls were dark,
The walls were dry,
And I went alone;
The windows were fogged,
And I couldn't see anything clearly;
Then out of the corner of my eye I saw you.
Everything path I  ever walked down,
Every empty face I  ever passed,
Nothing ever stood out to me,
Then I saw something new,
Something I never knew,
And it was you.
The love you gave me,
The way you saved me,
I've never loved anyone like you before.
Like a new sight,
You were my light,
You lead my way.

Smoke on the mirrors,
Wish I could see you clearer,
But there's something between us,
I should of seen the lies,
I should of caught you in the web,
But when your in it,
You can't see a thing,
So here I am begging,
Let me see what's inside,
Instead of believing these lies.

I don't know what to say,
I guess it's just an age,
Everyone cares but us,
They say the gap is insane,
I don't care what they say,
I just know how you make me feel,
How my heart skips beats,
I want your hands with mine,
I'm not running away,
Let the people speak,
Let's show them the truth,
How mad in love I am with you,
Everyone can see.

Some things have to happen,
Some days have to be terrible,
Not because you deserve them,
Or want them,
Because those days lead you
to the days that you do deserve,
and you do want,
They teach,
You learn,
And most importantly..
You appreciate.

My fingers brush over the piano keys,
Over the top,
Along the side,
I breathe,
Looking around the room,
I can't help but think:
*I know this place,
I know this feeling,
I know this house,
This is home.
That little back bedroom used to be a fortress,
The prince always came right to the door,
My barbies vacationed in that bathroom down the hall,
My sister and I used to play until the water went cold in the tub,
My mom cooked many Christmas dinners in that kitchen,
I used to watch her all the time.
I don't know when it happened,
My siblings got older,
My parents divorced,
Everyone left,
And I..
I just want to go home.

I hear your back in town,
Right down the street,
I wonder when we'll meet,
If when you see me you'll speak,
Our love ran deep,
But now we just weep,
At the thought of the past,
We thought it would last,
I was sure of it,
cause you were the benefit.

I saw you at the club tonight,
Dancing with girls that everyone knows well,
You seemed to be enjoying yourself,
Drinks in your hands,
Turning them back like no tomorrow,
Stumbling into guys twice your size,
Hitting on girls who look just like me,
You kept yelling out my name over the music,
Everybody just ignored you like they always do,
For a moment you stopped,
The crowd just danced around you,
You fell to the ground,
Nobody stopped to see if you were okay,
Or even noticed you at all,
If it would of been a few months back I would of been at your side,
Helping your drunk *** to the truck,
However you picked the drinks over me,
But they aren't helping you get home.

Would you think of me as weak..
If I cried for a moment,
and through those tears tried
my best to smile;
if I bit my lip,
and tried to keep my eyes open,
even if every memory was killing me;
Would you think any less of me..
If I covered my eyes with these bruised hands,
and wiped away the tears;
or if I just walked off,
and tried to pretend like it didn't happen.
I'll tell you the truth,
I'm trying really hard,
but the tears find there way down my cheek,
I can only imagine what you think,
please don't think any less of me,
I'm just trying to get through.
What would you rather me do?

Where are the lines drawn in the sand,
All these boundaries were washed away with the tide,
And we're paddling out at sea,
Just trying to stay a float,
We're to afraid to go to the shore,
We're to afraid to stop kicking our feet,
The waves pull us back and forth,
We think we can handle it,
But in our minds somewhere,
We know we can't,
We know we're going to drown,
All because we couldn't make up our minds.

I wonder what it would be like,
What if you changed all those times you said you would,
What if you kept those promises you made to me,
I guess I shouldn't think so hard,
I shouldn't dwell on the past,
I just can't help but feel like I'm living a lie,
All the dreams you built in my head,
I have so many things I've left unsaid,
Out of fear of hurting you,
I wish I wouldn't of bit my tongue,
You aren't even around,
I wish I could of left just like you,
I thought the same things that kept me here saved you,
It was easy when things got rough,
When the bills were due and problems popped up,
You didn't think twice,
I wish you would of cared,
I guess I should of believed the truth, instead of ignoring the lies.

The love I was searching for,
The hands I wanted to hold,
Every moment that passed by,
Every comment I made,
It didn't mean anything,
After the day that you found me.

I don't know why you matter,
I don't know why I care,
When I pull my hair up,
I can't help but wonder if you'll like it when I see you there,
I don't know why I bother,
Playing around with you,
You're the one that broke my heart,
But I keep running back to you,
I don't know why my arms curl around your neck,
I don't know why the taste of lips stay on my breath,
And after all this time of loving and hating,
I don't know why I stay with you.