You are the monster
From my childhood nightmares
Except now you lay atop my bed
Rather then under it

You once promised me you’d take me to the moon
Yet here I am
Shivering with the stars
And lighting myself on fire with the sun
To see if I still feel something

The terrible black hole of space
In your heart, it lies there
Dormant, caught forever, not to be set free
You loose your venom, deep and tumultuous upon me
The horrible, poisonous skies of a time after humans looms in your pained eyes
Yet it is in them, dark and formidable, that I see my future

I wanted to be her
Only because she had you
And I never will

The pain manages to get so much scarier
When you’re not afraid anymore
Because nothing can stop you when you lose control

All of my friends
Left me again how
Odd of them to say they’d
Never leave and yet
End things so abruptly.

It’s sound sick
And twisted
And melancholy

But god
I hope you miss me so much when I die

I hope you collapse in agony as my casket is lowered into the ground
I hope you plant new flowers once a week on my headstone
And wear black in mourning
I hope you never take another lover
I hope even the thought of someone touching you the way I do now makes you weep

I hope that
If nothing at all
I meant enough to you that
You break down your walls
And stop guarding your emotions
And let yourself feel the pain of my death

I pray that
Maybe if I can succeed
I’m letting you down slowly
As o fade away into nothingness
Then maybe I had a purpose

Morbid, I know