Loving her
Was so difficult
It was like smoking a cigarette
Because I hated it so much
But craved it every day
Needed her taste on my tongue
I loved the rhythm
The consistency
Hated the mornings after
And the disease in my lungs
Even though she smelled so sweet
It was like she poisoned me every day
Yet I kept coming back for more

I wanted to give you back
All the things you left in my house
After you left me

But the memories
Are persistent
And ever-existing in every crevice
Of the old home

They will not fit inside the box
And rather choose to crawl into my dreams
And remind me of what I’ve lost

If
I
Was
Lower
Functioning
Would you
Still
Love me?

You are the sun

And I am a star

Small and distant

Wishing one day I could shine as brightly as you

In spite of everything
The earth still spins
Baby I need room to breathe
It hurts to think
But the world keeps falling down
It's like
The world doesn't revolve around me
Or something
Maybe I've always been nothing

If I faltered
For just a moment
Standing at the altar
Would you notice
Or would you be
Far too busy
Looking past me
Looking at him