i tried getting over you the other day.
i told my friend that i thought your friend
was cute.

for some reason i thought that maybe you'd hear
and make a scene professing your love for me
and i'd turn my back in cinematic fashion saying
you missed your chance.

but that didn't happen.

instead
the next day i woke up
and there you were beneath my eyelids
and you were there when i opened them too
and when i actually saw you
there was that familiar ache in my chest
the one that makes it fairly impossible to breathe.

it didn't work either.
that same day i no longer thought your friend
was cute.

it's like you've laid claim on me
without your knowledge.

ever so slowly
winter folds into spring
who stretches its arms in the air
yawning after a much needed sleep.
the first flowers line my sidewalk
the birds sit side by side
on the telephone wire outside my window
and the grass grows
underneath the palms of my hands.
seasons change
and i love the warmth of the new sun
but my darling
i'm still cold without you.

i thought about you today.
i thought about you yesterday.
i'll think about you tomorrow, too,
and when i'm sitting in a crowded restaurant
with voices bouncing off the walls
and forks clinking against plates,
you'll be in my head.
it doesn't matter whether
i'm completely alone
or surrounded by friends,
you're always going to have a special place
there in the back of mind.

                      i hope you don't mind.