It's days like today that I enjoy the bitter taste of coffee.
It's raining and melancholy and I can't quite figure out how I feel...
Everything just seems more real.

I don't know where to start,
Where to begin.
I am kind of lost,
But I have a map.
But,
I can't read it.
I have a light in the dark,
But I still can't see where I am going.
All I know is I am already in too deep to back out.
So there is nothing left for me to do.
Other than push on and find my way to an end.

This is it.
I'm done.
I refuse to live my life in fear of anything or anyone.
I will not cower in the dark corners of life and watch everything go by me.
So I challenge you Life,
Give my your worst.

Falling tears have stained my cheeks. Makeup covers it up.
Bruises covered my body. Clothes covered those up.
Rumors have destroyed my image. A smile covers it up.
Hatred has grown where you were. Nothing covers that up

So can we now?
Can we cuddle up on the couch?
And just watch hours of BBC on Nexflix?
(Because we do that all the time anyway)
Can we lay in bed, yours or mine, for a whole day?
And talk about anything that comes to mind?
Can we hold hands?
And go ice skating in the park downtown?
I know I don't usually like that romantic stuff,
But I feel like it would be amazing.
Can I show you how happy you make me?
The fact that you can make me smile over things I used to cry about?
I can.
Well, I can now.
Too bad I am afraid to show you all this just yet.
One day I will.
And I think I will tell you that I love you on that day.
That day is so far away,
But,
I'm okay with that.

My best friend,
Well other than you,
Brought something to light to me the other day.
I have the story book relationship.
Well,
Kinda.
I am dating my best friend.
We have been though some things.
Things I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
But now,
I have you.
And God am I lucky.
I am just having a hard time understanding.
I guess..
It is just weird to think about....

I like looking back on pictures.
They tell of things that happened.
But the one thing I like the most,
Pictures don't lie.
You can't hid you emotions in a picture.
And you can't like to the camera.