Holly

Mar 2016

effaced

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im stuck.
between hating you
and
hating myself for loving you.

im stuck.
between wanting to live
and
wanting to die.

im stuck.
between a family religion
and
my own identity.

im stuck.

someone,

please,

help me...

Mar 2016

effaced

what greys anatomy taught me

"You didn't love her! You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love!"

you never loved me.

Holly Mar 2016

:/

My heart cold and you the one
To blame for that ****,
My next relationship i
Promise ill be trained for that ****,
Cause now i'm thinking
Like a ***** so i don't get
Played like a *****.

Holly Mar 2016

:(

They say you dont know
What you got til its gone,
They say that your
Darkest hour comes
Before ya dawn.

Holly Mar 2016

Scars

Here on my arm lies a mark that I made.
When I was so low I cut with a blade
To punish my body for being a mess,
Though here is my testament, I must confess...

That seeing these scars left on my arms, legs and chest
Makes me realize I was in a place of no rest;
I feel guilty inside for leaving this token.
Now I will see and remember that I was so broken.

But seeing these scars helps me see
That I survived so much trauma and now I am free;
So I ask of you now to stand with me and fight,
To show all these demons what they're doing's not right,

You won the battle of good versus bad.
You are still alive and are no longer sad;
Here on my arm lies a mark of survival,
I got through my hate and beat my self-rival.