I seem happy right?
You see no cuts on my wrist.
Only the smile on my lips..
You hear me laugh, you see me smile.

But did you take time to look in my eyes?
Did you see the emptiness, the darkness...
Did you check my hips?
Darling, if you only opened your eyes, you could see.
I was dying inside...

Please don't ask if i'm okay,
I might do something stupid...
Like, Open up to you.
And i'm really tired
Of getting close to
People then watching
Them leave me
Like i'm nothing...

I don't know why I bother to try;
even though I know, you'll never be satisfied.
I'm not what you want, &: I'm not what you need.
but you're twisting &: turning my reality.
I'm lost in the shuffle,
buried with my troubles.
you're killing my emotions, &: losing my trust.
&: you look at me with a sense of disgust.
this is my world, &: you are my fear.
I think things would be better, without you near.
I'm losing myself &: cowarding down to you.
you're words they are permanent to me, just like a tattoo.
you're always right behind me, pushing me way to far.
cut me open, see the pattern of my scars.
all these people that think they're so tough.
try-- being reminded that you're never good enough.
you're killing me slowly, &: I'm almost dead.
I imagine you smile as you drift off to bed.
this isn't right, this isn't fair.
it's nothing, I don't expect you to care.
I'll paint this world, with my list of regrets.
I'll burn this city with my ashes &: I'll forget
that you weren't there.
&: maybe I'll be saved from this horrid despair.
I know whose right &: I know whose wrong.
but you'll figure it out, once I'm finally gone...

Little girl,
loved and cared for,
little girl,
had a good life,
little girl was once happy,
at first,
little girl didn't believe the bullies,
but the death threats and names got to her,
her home was her only escape..
until it became just like her bullies,
she cried everyday,
no one saw her tears,
she screamed,
no one heard her,
she didn't eat,
no one noticed,
she hurt so bad,
she went to the knife..
which was so nice she went back
every night.
No one dared to care,
alone in this world.
Abused and used.
Drugs and drinking.
She dug into her arm
and hit the vein,
she let herself go..
let go of the pain.
But also had the pain let go of her.