You didn't love her.
You just didn't want to be alone
Or maybe, maybe she was
just good for your ego
Or maybe she made you feel better
about your miserable life.
But you  didn't love her.
Because you don't destroy people you
**"Love"

2 months.
And now
0 days clean

As i take out,
Take out the silver monster.
Beginning to hurt the soft  skin.
The  droplets of blood rise.
Making a red river.
Leaving a blood red stain.
One of those scars
Again and again.
Trails and trails.

I ******* hate my life.
He likes Nicole. my sister. A so called "lesbian".
that's the reason i don't date
because they always end up liking her
I wanna die. i finally started getting lots feelings for him.
Why am i so ugly? and stupid? why cant i just be everything someone wants.????

i fell for u more then most
the feelings that i have are no longer ghosts
once i confessed my love for u
i  finally found out if u felt it too
u told me u loved me but that was wrong
when i woke up all ur stuff was gone
i cried until i had no tears
and i realized that losing u was my biggest fear
and now there is nothing but darkness in my mind
and all i am now is someone who hides

Don't you,
You hear,
Hear the,
The stuttering,
Stuttering between,
Between the,
The words,
Words when,
When I,
I say,
I am,
Am Fine,
Because I,
I feel,
Feel the,
The pain,
Pain of,
Of the,
The Lie,
As I,
I say,
Say it,
You Didn't know,
Did you,
Because my whole life is a lie,
I'm NOT fine..