I was hoping you would be
that passionate, sweet, hidden boy
under a blanket of shyness
that a star whispered
"he is"
I run for you
with smiles written well across my face
my heart agape,
I run.
You sit, smirking your triumph - and power
thy hath a name:
tis love.
Love which controls all
which sends my thoughts, racing
leaves me aching
pacing
What is thy name that hast such control over my even-minded manner?
'tis love, 'tis power.
You are my greedy obsession

And he, my greedy non-obsessed

"She's like a broken record.
I can't get her out of my head."

I sit and listen
as you explain your imperfections.
The past is past.
But you're still apologizing
And I still need you to.
I want to be important
to someone
to anyone
I guess your words
will have
to make up for when nobody's here
You loved me
but you left me
you wanted to let go
forget me
forgive me
"I never got over you"

What a fool of a bear
reaching back inside that hive
only to retrieve a drop of honey
for twice such in stings
sweet, seductive honey
smirking, unaware bees
naive, bashful bear
the world is full of these
The only open hive.
Which matters most?
the honey
or the pain?
Only thing that matters is
one day

there will be no more honey.

I love you, my dear
but you impose so much sorrow
my heart cannot take
the weight
of us both.
Twice the emotions
Twice the concern
Duplication the annoyances
but
Splitting
the happiness
the love
now explain, my dear
how is that fair?
can't you ever help lift my weight
I won't stay
if you cannot bear your own soul
because mine is a dry
barren desert
The only oasis
are in moments of forgetfullness

Stand up on top of your castle
Watch all the pretty lights dance
Come down to join in the party
Trip out and dance

Lucy makes everyone happy
But confused
The outside world is  fun one
But inside
There's a whole nother fun you can use

Psychedelics will open your mind
To the world outside
and the one within
Which are both seperate
         and the same

You can't just be focused on the outside,
The pretty things,
The fame

Inside it is beautiful,
Spiritual
Quiet and secluded
With too much outside
Your brain can get deluded

X and acid, TCB
DXM and DMT
**** and *****
All the drugs you use
Can be abused

That bass can make you lose your mind
Go blind
With all the bright lights
Until your mind's not the only thing you can't find

Unwind
Sit inside Zack's truck
And take some down time
Get your mind unstuck

This place is beautiful
These people are trippin
But if I see one more hot ***
I'm gonna lose my loose grip
and
****** is not sexuality
Peace, Love, Unity, Respect
Help you out when you need it
What's given out is given back

Aesthetic
is a beautiful
but
overwhelming
experience.

Here it come around the bend again
Hope it doesn't lead to just another dead end
Something's stuck inside my mind and it needs to come out
Something buzzing in my brain an I gotta get it out

Who knows
When the pen hits the pad
What it will lead
Maybe how I'll wind up alone again
Or
that there's something there that I can see
Much more than you're letting me see

Something's buzzing
And I gotta spill the beans
Cause until I let it out
I'm ripping at the seams
Brain aching like a broken heart
So I gotta let it out

Brain buzzin like mosquitoes inside
Need my only vice to what ills me
Need to let it out before it kills me
Before it tears me apart
Oh my aching heart
Before it tears me apart

Wish from the very start
That nothing happened
You opened up possibilities
And then just closed the door again
It wouldn't have bothered me
If you hadn't struck my attention
But now jealousy
Is my new worst friend
I can see the way you flirt
Don't tell me that's just how it is
But I can't overfeel this
Since we're just
Friends with benefits

Am I looking too hard
When I shouldn't be looking in the first place?
Am I digging around for clues
In a pocket that's not mine?

How do I stop this insane racket in my head
How do I control my emotions
When we're just friends with benefits?