I'm sorry for the things I've done
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I know
after this
I'll never see you again.
I know you're angry
And full of pain
You think I've ruined your life.

But you need to know it's for the better
I would have caused nothing but heartache in your life
You need someone like you
You deserve that happiness,
That security.

                                                   I'm sorry. I love you.
                                                         I hope you find
                                                             everything you're
                                                                   looking for.

Talk my demons down
Till I can't hear them
How many times have you told me
That you just wanted me to **** him
Whatever game this is we're playing
I'm not sure I know the rules
You tell me the one way to win
Is the way that I lose.

Why am I thrown in this cat and mouse hunt?
I've told you time and again
I would leave if you please
But now my mind's wound up in circles
I'm left on my knees

I've read the instruction manual
         So many times
But the pieces still won't fit

Tell me
I don't know your mind
**You have to tell me

Lucy opens my mind once again,
freeing it from the box it was locked in
She whispers in my ear
The secret of the universe
of everything
But it scares me

I'm on the brink of no reality
Of the fact that the world is a dream
And that everything fits perfectly

Call it to you
Bring it to you
Let me bring you up to speed

reality is all a dream
everything is everything
is nothing
And you'll find this to be true
Once you give up on the grievances
And let the lovin' take a hold of you

Be free
Unlock your mind with this set of keys
figure out how to break past your sanity
Let yourself breathe

Figure out how to turn the key
Make it used to your advantage
Go to the place where nothing makes sense
Embrace the insanity.
Embrace and look past it

Use it
Remember it in every moment
That your world is really just your own
You make it what it is to be
You are the creator
or your own existence
Embrace it

There's so much more for you to understand
But not just with your mind
You must experience
So here
Take this key
And break down that fence

Free your mind from that box
it is trapped in.

Back on the cutting board
Back in the hamster's wheel
nothing works quite as well
As the blissful pain I feel

****, cut, or smoke
I need one or all three
I need to feel the happiness
I need some dopamine

Fill my head with cloudy days
Fill it with that ecstasy
Let me drift away awhile
Give me that ******* free

Start a line
**** the pain away
Light me up that spliff

Then give me pen and paper
And let me write this riff

Why are you here
Laying in my bed
She gave you what you needed
Besides a place to lay your head

Now you come here
Looking for some shut eye

Or is that all you're looking for?

Sit and wait for the world to crumble
Lie in waiting for the sky to fall

I hate anticipation
And I hate not knowing
When it will all be gone.

"I think I'm gone next week."
And darkness is cast upon my day
I need you
I love you
Please don't leave me

This might be the last time I get to be close to you
Might be the last time I see your true face
Before they shower you in lies
And take your true face away.

You think you're the only one who has to worry,
you're the only one
who'll have to pay

But I know for a fact
That they'll give you a mask
And you'll change.

I don't wan to have to go through this again
Look into a friend's eyes
and see a stranger
Look into their heart
and not understand its beating.

I want you to stay.

And ever since that dark Wednesday
Your kiss is flat and empty
Maybe you'll never be coming back
Maybe you'll never come to save me

I am constantly reminded of you sourly-choiced absense
And I will not forget
The feeling I would get with one kiss

And every night
And every day
I dream about our past
Why can't these demons let me go to sleep?
Why can't you come back to save me?