You made those nights
Ones of perfection
But now the devil's knocking at my door
And I'm afraid I have to let him in

He makes this place so miserable
When he hangs around
I wish you were back with here with me
So you would kick him out

Get rid of all this sadness
I carry on my back
Save me from when
The panic attacks.

I can't breathe with you gone
I can't smile, can't live
I am all alone
And I need you

Chase this devil out of my life
He brings nothing but misery.

When did you become
Blank words upon a screen?
When have your three words
Meant less than everything?

I'm lost without you here
Cold and dark and lonely
Untouched,
Ignored by those around me

Where is my knight in shining armor
While I'm wasting away
I am stuck inside this dungeon
Blood on my feet,
Dirt on my face.

They eye me.
Those with their ***** fingernails and chipped teeth.
But even in this hell
I still can fight.

For there is a light
Far up above
That says maybe,
Maybe you'll come back to me.

Your voice is ringing in my ears
Your face embedded in my eyes
I dream about you constantly
Can't sleep without you on my mind
It would not be right for me to touch
To kiss your lips or hold your hand
But your touch gives me electric shocks
And stay away, I know I can't
But impossible this fiddler's game
I cannot trust my heart
I know you'll go see her today
Oh, desire's painful art
My love is not my enemy
But not a closer friend than you
His heart loves me so sweetly
But my heart has not been true
So boy please do move on to her
She's such a better choice
And if I cry, ignore my tears
Or the dire plead in my voice
I love you but I can't have you
I'm chained to my commitments
So friends we'll be but lovers not
-

It is the building up of things overtime
Like the uncontrollable cry
It is the feeling of the overwhelming
Piling on your shoulders.
Life swooping down
And crushing you in its talons.
It is the dark romantic ******
The finish.
The release.
The static and the scurry
The overwhelming
The rush, the pain, the ending.
It starts as only an idea in the beginning
But ends up as something unavoidable
The act that is harm,
Secret,
Told to no one.
It takes away the care.
Makes you numb.
Saves the day
In the day of darkness.
Who ever thought that such an act of pain,
And act of restriction,
Could bring such peace, relief, control.
On one thing to focus.
Not a million.

If I could pause time I would
Pause reality
Pause facts.
Pause jobs, and homework,
And class.
Pause all but me and you.
I would.
If we could live our lives uncensored, unnoticed
Just together
For however long we please
The unpause
And you got to being you
And me back to being me
I would.

Sometimes people come into our lives
At the wrong time
You either make room for them
(No matter how uncomfortable)
Or you push them aside.

I am lost.
I do not know where
You fit
In this hectic life of
Mine.

You come around spreading your magic
But leave her feeling down and worthless
Alone and sad and brokenhearted
And I'm the one left to pick up the pieces

This is all to your blame
But you don't even have to see the pain
In her eyes
This is all your doing
But you don't have to see what's happening
You don't have
To see her cry

You're the one who did this
And I'm the one who's left
Picking up her
Brokenhearted
Pieces.

It hurts
When you don't talk
It hurts
When you don't touch
It hurts
When you're first on my list
But I'm only seventh or such
It hurts
When you don't care
Or even seem to like it
When I'm not there
It hurts
when you give your day away

She says there is always someone
Who loves the most and someone
Who loves the least
And
I believe her

Cause it hurts
When I come second
Or
You don't bother
To think about me
It hurts
That I love the most
And it hurts
That you love the least