I thought I had it all figured out
Then you came along
And changed the rules
My life was in total order
Except for you
You were the gray
In my black and white world
I gave you eight months of my life
You threw them in my face
I gave up everything for you
You never cared
I walked away from everything I believed in
You just mocked me
I tried to be all you wanted
But you always wanted more
I finally left
And made a life again
Now you want back
And I still don't know what to do
When it comes to you

What do I do?
I know I Love you
More than anyone
But things changed
In the month you were gone
I don't think I want to be
With you right now
But I am terrified of hurting you
And I'm scared I'll lose you forever
It doesn't feel right anymore
I'm trying to act like nothing happened
Act like you want me to be
But it's just an act
It's not me
I can't tell you who I am
I don't even know anymore
I was hoping
Being with you
Would bring my feelings back
But when I'm with you all I see
Is what could have been
Not what could be

I remember her eyes
Lonely and sad
Hidden by her smile
And cigarette haze
The pain within them
A hard life revealed
Tears fill them
When she is alone
Away from the sight of others
(or thinks she is)
He cries too
But she doesn't see Him
(or won't)
So their tears fall

Crying in the dark
Cold and hungry
Lonely and scared
Hurt by the past
Fearing the future
Dying in the present
(who cares)

He comes to me in my sleep
Shrouded in darkness
Standing over me
Silent
Always silent
He watches
His face covered
In the shadow of his cloak
Appearing in the mist between
Dream and reality
(and of it)
He is terror
He is terrified

She is a *****
She has opened herself
To perversions uncounted
She has become diseased
From her depravity
Filthy
In her corruption
She shall be made clean
By My Love
In My Love
She shall be permitted
To dress in fine linen
Bright and Pure
To the feast of our union

The dark elf stood alone
As the babe rode off
On the back of the Dragon
The fairies were replaced by demons
(ever present)
And the repentant ghoul wept
His soul shattered for thirty pieces
I remember the wings most
At the end
There were palm trees then
When dreams seemed real
And Love came easy