Sitting in the dark
(And alone)
In the rubble of the church
With broken wings
(And heart)
Stained glass shards
And rotting pews
Surround a lost soul
Searching for peace
In the debris of the past
Looking for answers
In that which did not last
Instead of that which did

She visits in the dark
Sliding between the sheets
Between dreaming and waking
Bringing
Pain and pleasure
Suffering and ecstasy
She comes to me
(or I to her?)
She is starving
(or am I?)
A hunger never to be fulfilled
Never fulfilling
Pleasure and ecstasy
Only for a moment
Pain and suffering
Remain

She sits in the shadows
Of her room and mind
She examines the white scars of her past
And the more recent streaks of crimson
She feels the steel against her wrist again
And prepares herself to feel again
The smooth slide of the blade
And the short sensation of control
She tells herself this will be the final time
The time she allows all her pain to flow out
A quiet voice whispers to her
"You need not bleed"
She begins to weep
The blade falls from her hand
As she falls to her knees
"For I have already bled for you"

The battle rages on
As demons and angels clash
The blows of lightning and thunder
Hail and wind
The darkness is closing in
As the demons gain ground
The cries of the fallen echo in the shadows
Dead and dying
The end is drawing near
As the demons claim their prize
And triumph over the light
Sin and death
Their victory is short lived
As the demons fall into the fire
The King's people rise again
Saved by His sacrifice
Blood and tears

Out of nowhere
She appears
One with the Night
Shadow and Mist
Fire and Blood
Endlessly
She torments me
Three birds missing:
Faith, Hope, and Love
Especially Love
Lost forever in her

You sent me to them
To share Your Message
But they failed to hear
They would not listen
They continued in their sin
Convinced of their own wisdom
They followed their own path
Of self-destruction
Self-consumption and self-interest
Living for the pleasures of now
At the cost of future joys
And future existence
They continue on this path
Into their own damnation

Before me always
Are the sins of my past
Sins against You (only You)
Things evil in Your sight
You are correct when You condemn
Justified when You judge

I have been diseased since birth
Infected since the moment of conception
The cancer of my soul
Growing, consuming, destroying
Threatening to over take all I am

Cleanse me with Your Love
And I shall be clean
Wash me in Your Blood
And I will be whiter than snow
Wash away my impurities
and cleanse me from my sins

Have mercy on me
O GOD
According to Your unfailing Love
According to your limitless Compassion

Create in me a mended heart
Renew in me a strong spirit
Make me a new creature in You
Let me hear joy and gladness

Do not cast me from Your face
Or remove Your Spirit from me
Restore me to Your salvation
Sustain me with a willing spirit

Have mercy on me
O GOD
Save me from the Fires
The Judgment for my deeds

Save me GOD
And I will teach of Your Ways
I shall sing of Your righteousness
Open my lips
And I will declare praises unto You