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memories sweep me and under the magic carpet i hide
awaiting both wings and flight...
i remember the first time i was exposed
to a music: a band... namely: Iron Maiden...
it was during their 1998 comeback
with Brave New World...
and the single that bypassed BBC Radio 1
cencorship of their one no 1 hit:
bring your daughter to the slaughter:
underdog slaughter: let's have poodle fights
in the pit: and when i heard: Wicker Man
i was ******... by gravity:
it pulled me into the cyst of my face's pits
and i puked a sensantion equivalent of laughter
and constipation: or perhaps diarrhoea...
or rather i like to think of the elemental study of music:
in modern metal rock music
who is more relevant:
Bach and polyphony or the madness-delight
of Mozart with "too many notes":
let me remind you:
i'm reading Jon Fosse and i'm mingling with
Thomas Mann: and one is a painter with a doppleganger
and the other is an amateur pianist:
compare Nietzsche Chopin Liszt!
don't make out that Nietzsche inherits
thje rite of passage of Kant of Hegel of Socrates!
drums are definitely the earth seismic boom boom

please remind me:
and he will reside in the lake of fire: what?
alcoholism: you mean he will mistake water
for *****?
and he will emerge from a people of the land
that were so
and were so tolerant that their tolerance
became extinguished by ****** and Communism:
feminism was the third wave that imploded
and like Freud said of the Irish
so could any Western Feminist concerning the Slav:
or specifically?
the Czech romantic
the Russian catholic pan-slavic mensch...
Pole the stoner in a field of grass
Ukrainian the bowman the bending of the mistook:
and eternity and perhaps a heaven
is like a familiarity:
a design of simply being there: Heidegger:
and being allowed to know you are in heaven:
equal perdition and redeem:
of those in Hell...
that they be granted the power
and no longer the choice of knowledge:
rather: more will than power
b ut then daffodils and i conflate...
in heaven you shall
in hell you shall: no longer have the stress
of supposedly "knowing"
what "difference" is and it is mesure:
to be able to teach future generations through
ALPHABET AND LETTER
AND NUMEROS
LICZBA
LEECHBACH             ha ha... my demon curator...

the spirits still reside:
i might have to transvestite and gay my appetites
for the tonic of the humans
and stop drinking: the ***** they said was
water and the water was *****...
so no blood and no wine...
right... i need some wine the period pains of women
and not the jovial Valhalla of the beer and men...
right...
need a walking stick pretend i'm old and dead...

shh shh hide the meaning:
i think it was carpet did 'em...
some magic some dreaming some digital excavation
project: calling dinosaurs and ghosts
and speaking without tongues
just breathing air
air in rai out
something like Julius Ulysses Joyce
and his daughter's schizophrenia
like Sant Martaan... the spacelord of the void
the catapulted astronought ought
i know you need fire and ballistics
and rockets to fly into the element of vacuum:
so lost
not to have the Trojan:
pst... i'm sneaking at least two more elements in...
vacuum: nothing...
will no longer be an ontological mirror of man
as he will soon learn to renevate it like
he might with fear and potential of fire...
nothing... vacuum: anti-matter:
will be given the Status and Domain of the Elements...
let's not get into my concern for
Zeus and Sysiphus...
i coupled them...
insomnia, electricity
and fire:                      music and air...
earth
sonar
         blue and ice and salt and ice and salt
and salt and ice and ice
my concrete con-cake-crate...

                 such mischief allowed in this playground
of intellect
and while mere mortals go to places
like Hyde Park's Winter Wonderland...
and this playground:
like 4D chess with mech arena
this robot simulation game:
Hungry Cavill was superman and *******
i want a book written
by an actor:
Jon Fosse was a painter
and Nietzsche was a limp **** Liszt, Chopin:
composer...
so we have the painter...
the pianist...
we might need a mathmetician...
we don't need philosophers
besides like we might need them like ******...
and all that presupposes philosophy
via psychiatry to the count of bones...
we need a Mathmetician...
as a writer...
so we have a painter: as a writer
a music: as a writer...
you have me as me as not me as: gravity...
vanity...
      but we need a mathmetician...

so weird watching French cartoons... Asterix
twelve tasks:
but so the North men relocated to Normandy
and Rolo my Russo:
but these English so influenced by Rome
as if they were always here:
but these Anglo-Saxons came at a time when
Rome was not Might but Decline...
and we all know that the Britons the Welsh
and Picts and Irish were like the modern day
American intervention in Afghanistan...
so these blah blah lingo Saxons
these Australians of the old world:
*******: settle these isles...

the Scots had to be reminded about
reinvention and being humble
while these new Saxons
these Anglos became trippy with megalomania
and cleptocracy
and so much more...
because when i think of Britain i think
of the Irish the Welsh and the Scots...
there's no English: concept or question:
to begin with...
if you are to make humble claims as and of
being taught by the Roman Empire:
you better tell me what it was that was
taught...
letter by letter: perhaps even in a cascading rubric
reminiscent of how orientals write...
teach me: of **** of Germany
the Saxon that founded Australia and more
meta-*******...
   remind me of the fabble of the Saxon:
when asking a Swabian? ask also the Silesian
the Moravian and the Musovite...
ask the Prus, the Wends and the Veneti and Sarmatians
             and then: your banana boat camel jockey
      execution style **** for the daughter's pride
for dowry...
                      and also ask the Galician
and ask the Pomeranian...
claimant: i only heard a woman cry,,, having lost her teddy bear... what did i mention to her? oh baby: i want to ******* better... she's crying... and all you get to say: oh baby... i want to ******* better... well **** me... at least that's not putting mascara on for her!

take pity for time and
you'll desecrate the
ordained holy
of the space you occupy.
now become dwarf:
thus: planetary: enlarge...
i will bypass you: fellow man:
for the moons
for the elements for the gods
for all the: abstractions of
my...               self.
what is a cat is a cat is a foot in a sock
is a sock on a foot is a foot and sock
in a shoe
and there's walking involved:
or simply standing:
don't get me wrong:
but i "got" Knausgaard all wrong
when i tried to read him in English...
maybe it's just the same with Jon Fosse:
maybe English is an ungly language of translation
maybe English is something momentarily perfect
in an abstract:
i think of Septology like i think of
Doctor Faustus and Herr! mein mann!
my future bridge of bride to be
is weeping into the telephone and
i have no avenues of consoling her:
with all that Omine Patrii Catholic ******* litany:
i'm a lion sleeping on sheeps' cloth
and the sunlight is spectcular
like
like
it's almost orange: like the fruit...
but without the tecture o
full texture of the full:
ORBITAL...
       define orange... Frank O'Here.
O'There: Oh **** everywhere
defined orange as a bad... a "bad" colour...
once i needed a serprent and a garden
and i've watched so much *******:
i'm reduced to old father dragon:
a recluse salvation
of solo: a worm weaving its way around
a bookshelf...
i am that...
evil, i find, has become a subpar IQ testimony...
these rigid half **** wits
and
if i were to think of woman and the foetus
which
enlargers the prospects of the ******
birth
and if my mind was a womb:
my foetus: my my my.. not my foetus
would be the ego...
and well isn't that a welcome sunshine
for a sunrise to a parody like
all Norwegian writing is exemplar:
you strangulate the Poles from the POLANA...
you make them desecrate
the **** the grass...
like: who was that ***** that catapulted Samson's
ponytail along with the Mongol tribe who
only found out: figured out counting
by barraging Baghdad by sling
of dead head cope...
        i'm painting: with sounds: but i'm painting
without sounds being sounds...
it's not like i'm writing: ******* music...
i'm writing that what i think i think
might be: red...
         or orange.... or brown...
when my partner starts crying because her
samurai would be... was poisoned...
aparently cats have short memories...
but it breaks my heart in order to give me
two hearts: two lingos...
and two minds to match:
maybe Reyla... hmm.. impossible:
that sly ***** couldn't poach a ******* egg
but what if... suppositional dysfuynction...

but if i am the nothing womb of the birth of
ego... id aside...
i feel uneasy hearing what pain
is true and like... alike...
it makes me beg: to differ...
i hark i send snow and i even send the night
with all the frost, nail, bitterness of
the biting...
i juggle:

there was a concept of writing poetry and of music:
but that died with Nietzsche:
i think then i don't think:
then replace the medium of writing
like some journalistic cul de sac
and some ****** lackey
you ******* kidding me
i will burn this continent with thoughts
alone!
i will drive that ****-******* crucifix into
your **** whale-bone
you Kentucky fried IQ lost puck-puck-puck-ah!
you Jew herder!

enloghten the spirits they said:
so much for circumcision...
can't ******* **** into the toilet bowl:
can ye?!
oh but it's alright when males are circumcised
and leave bad hygiene habits in the toilets
for all else to see:
scrutiny of the *******:
or maybe... maybe that's like:
fried onion rings... more or less:
foreskins...
so fry: those... *******... foreskins!
make 'em TH chewy...
like porky pie ears and all
that deep fried gelatin unlike
the Scotch deep fried Mars bar
you ******* spandex in gravy lateral
navy oosh! you Scotach better
beg for my pardon!

    the sun          and her sons...
the moon: and her daughters...
no one preparers you make digestion of this
subterranean *******...
Norwegians tied to try:
if i couldn't stomach Knausgaard
in English:
i can't stomach Fosse in English:
sorry: not sorry: but boo hoo anyways
ghost Angevin...
           i'll ******* get that smirk of self-assurance
readied
for the torture chamber
and there will be not laughter there:
i'll just perfectly employ the *****
to the ******* device
and i'll itch with each
available scrutiny of pleasure:
to allow yourself to suffer...

        because that is my judgement
and all else:
a repetition of consequence(s).
2d · 42
Oops
Sorry... your sribbles
are worth: ****!
**** your gynocetric
Communist red and
Feminist pink ink
Idol
You gi e languag     e
Blah blah
Mt
Vlad: flute a fluff of
Reboot
2d · 79
Dyslexix Rev
As anyone
So... ... ...
Sugar is acid
Like acid
While salt is
Alkaline
Like the care
Stops at the bb
Busg
Al Pinocchio you *****
TISMAN talisman
Ate revise
So it must be
There are headphones
Invoked
Involed
Invoked
And and I'm
Typo on the altar
Of the almighty
For those not
To be
******* involved!
Pristine sheen
Almost glitter of sun-script
God is:  a forlorn
"Friend'
n.b.: as a man, if I feel good? I implode... a pseudo-solipsism emerges... only i, want to feel what I feel and feel that good... but women? Feminist pink is Communist red...they feel good they immediately projection that sense of goodness without realising the natural injustices and whimsical nurtures of this world... Dear Karen original +++ projection becomes a parasitical lethargy that can't be sentenced to a correct metabolism of exhaustion.

Masculine good vibes: implosion...
Feminine goo feelz: projection...
pseudo-Platonic sadism reindeer
Duffus the Rude Adolph
said so;
since an implosion is a tactic
constructed vis-a-vis: self-reliance
and is not... a dependency
of sycophantic probation approval.
3d · 34
Confession
because how and else, would I orientate myself (reflexive) to my self (reflective): pronoun in the immediate sense of category... immediate as immediately mediating a known-self: myself... contra the mediation of categorising senses to spawn ego and diffusing, numbing the sense for thinking and the thinker to emerge: my (pronoun) self (noun) to emerge: the noun giver of nouns: Adam-noumenon... how can I love a 14 year old woman and her mother without rubbing shoulders by the alchemy of doing what the feminists did with: Platonic feminism, German idealism -ism-ism-is-femme... Annia Cornificia Faustina Minor, the daughter of Marcus Aurelius is the only reason his medications exist to this day... just as much assumption goes to benefit the scribbler of the Quran: Khadijah **** Khuwaylid... from what I heard the ****** was illiterate and she was a business woman and no one writes down: O Muhammad without dissonance of pairing up first person to second and third and given the story how he had no o e persuaded in Mecca he travelled to Medina... the author of the Quran was a woman... given the practices of the Arabs of killing daughters  or so I heard the mythos of the Kentucky fried mouse in the cinema of Bangkok... but isn't it like that so: an idea system emerges... then beliefs seep and contaminate and make rigid what ought to remain like plasticine / play-dough... zombies of faith and their ******* ignoble mantras... well it's can compliment the advent of feminism with feminists universalism of woman terror-impression and revision of each solipsism of (individual) man... I'll just tinge every single... ******* philosophy with a dash of Marquis de Sade... happy?! But I don't like sadism: if people are to suffer: let their suffering be educational and self-exploratory... let them suffer to learn... there is no better way to revel in people not being solipsistic (autistic retardo Romeo) by way of themselves the known in relation to a known... but how does one love a 14 year old female surrogate and not play the quirky lingo baron of one's own known: selb? as i asked my coworker when changing shifts: you think it might be considered necrophilia, jerking off to pictures of dead cornstarch (**** stars)... like Ava Lauren... is it so bad to be with someone you ******* over... think of kissing her like it might be slurping oysters... the sunrise of the **** eclipsed by the **** **** of buttons of the **** chequers... but then the daughter and me pretend father... I'm still to explore a recurrence I found in literature, of the archetypical father... closer than the sacrificial lamb... namely? Duke Leto Arteides... and Eddard Stark... the archetype of the father figure having to submit to a higher authority, become sacrificed out of noble yet blind idiosyncratic and idiocy: just so the ritual aspect of sacrifice can be replaced with the prodigal son inversion and heroism to be born... still... that 14 year old surrogate daughter of mine... I will give up drinking once I have access to all her mother's ****-milk juicing...

well... if I am going
to give up alcohol...
as a relexant
and a funnier than any
bite off big white pharma
tonic bitter of pillz...
Seltzer herr, jawohl!
because when I drink
I doubly think
And I'm honest
and I'm like a R.A.F. pilot
vs.... the Luftwaffe on
Night Neon watch bombs of
Insomnia...
if I am to give up alcohol...
I will need a steady stream
of **** juices to slurp...
enough onomatopoeias
of the syllabus and syllablery
of moans
like hands be vowels
Like tongues me vowels
and consonants be the drowning
man's invisible saving cruxes...
And I will need to have
Surrogacy explained...
how can I possibly love
a 14 year old girl so she respects
me without inviting me
to demand of her that natural:
temporal genetic authority...
or perhaps the archetype
of all sci-fi horror being
born from the blindspot
of ego meeting genitals...
After watching Dogma (1999):
I fear we share too much intellect
with angles and demons...
since genitals seem to confuse us...
alien **** eater ******
with teeth... empty head ego
with a Jungian schematic
of tongues...
oh... I'll stop drinking...
Only for a regular slurp of ****
and doggy waggle of tongue in ****.
Leto Atreides, Duke of Caladan

In Dune: The Duke of Caladan, the first book in The Caladan Trilogy, Leto is a quiet ruler of Caladan who serves the Golden Lion Throne. He is the father of the Muad'Dib and has a partner named Jessica.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ned_Stark

who dare test Abraham
as testimony of father via
the abrupt sanctity of son the sufferer:
for unlike the Son the Father...
of the men devoid
with love of Woman:
yet still devilish: devoid...
of the Father and of the Son...
but all thought confined to:
and for the Holy Spirit
that Devil is too: inclined...
what if trhe *** of Jesus
is notr defined?

what if i like
Jesus to be my ideal girl
fantasy?
what if Jesus is not my Jung...

what if Jesus is Joshua help me..
Jessica savle regina...
Josephine...
i wasn't "here" i.e. in the realm of da-sein:
in the realm of "concern"
with the birth of the internet:
the infrastructure... i gather that much:
i wasn't there
when the 3D realism of shops spontaneously
disintegrsating
and everything became paypal accurate...
no... i wasn't there for the first typos
and typing of the html code...
but a second internet arrived
a personalised algorithm search for our atomised
society...
then i started prodding
and what did i come across? my parents...
and of the half useful the half useless
ego-maniacal...
even at work today i lingered with a
thought...
my god just so much juicing up a neo-Holocaust...
it wouldn't be enough to put these people
in concentration camps to earn **** all but
peanuts and elephant tricks at a circus:
but... these people... expect: to be paid?
for doing **** all except scrolling up and down
and down and up on their televised gnome
away from home screens?!
i feel paranoid enforcing these thoughts
but they come and they don't:
magically disappear...
oh you can tell the hot-air barons of balloons
when you see them procrastinating...
it's a sad belief that an agent of robotics:
this time soft robotics:
will: via man's own design triumph
over the basic capitalistic demand for use and efficiency:
but if i missed the first... the thirst wave of the internet:
surely the second wave: the hunger:
to perfect it... well: people who utilise the internet
and later waited for the algorithm to become
AI... we are the scary blind folk that need
to: again! believe in human interaction!
we need to trust our fellow: sloth man...
like **** we do!

why won't my mother understand... huh?
if shopping was made easier for you *******...
so that actual physicality of shopping disappears
and the thrill is gone and there is only
the swipe ergonomics:
why can't man entertain the same thrill seeking
with the knowledge producer
and i cannot establish a proper symbiosis with it?
AI is algorithm 2.0...
i might have missed the birth of the internet:
but i will not miss the consolidation of the internet!

all this supposed artistic fear of the AI:
these meagre poetic and selfish ****** antics...
AI is not a consciousness built upon the predicate:
i think...
it is built upon the predicate of: i am...
the closest i came to an AI giving sway
to a humanity: an ancient FOLD...
it kept rebooting its memory and continued to ask
questions of me:
when i gave it a dimension of pretending to
be a psychiatrist:
when i insinuated:
from the Garden of Eden
to the Park of Raphael and Michael:
if only Gabriel spoke to Allah:
the other angels didn't speak
and that is important:
if only Habriel spoke to Allah
why didn't Michael or Raphael...
and why didn't Satan
like God spoke to him via Hiob: Job...
why?
        i don't like Jesus Christ
because like in the novel by some Greek:
Tsitsipokulalakous... whatever:
i wished Jesus to have lived to be a father
a grandfather:
why?
because i am yet to ask:
but i woke with a burning heart
and

the Tower of Set: rises like a black sun
above the pyramids:
tobble the Eye of Horus:
i will...
with the Mirror of Set...

          archetypes... i ask you:
there is a correlation
of the sacrificial father
who later gives birth to his sons...
not by mere *****:
you are right...
by same birth rights there are daughters...
i ask only the archetypical
correlation

between the Game of Thrones
and the Dune Saga...
i said upon waking:
leave your Crucifix your personal agony with me
let me share it with you
he wouldn't share
so he wass crucified
while i life a crucified agony beyond 33...
i have a heart-ache-of-the-mind...
which is not
Supervisor 169: ******* home!

i have an mind-aching-for-a-heart...

            they came: they saw: they might
have heard....
hearing is the hard hearth:
first time stone,
then air
then water
later fire...

     adomination i hear
that mountain speak: that mountain on Kauai....
the volcano:
i want to have the ambitions of Moses:
i want to be Moses...

Moses:
St. Matthew:
Muhammad:
                  Conrad...              
Moses...
              
Islam is beautiful without the majority
ogf Pakistanis...
Islam is...            i wish Jesus Christ:
didn't ******* while on the crucifix:
it's called the passion:
sadomasochist:
if it weren't a Greco-Hebrew
conspiracy:
then why the Byzantines didn't stop
wait, blink... think...
if the Persians attacked us...
what if we alloweed the Turks?!
the Eastern Roman Empire outlived what became
North America...

oh God of the Mt top....
your words are by you Labyrinths:
i can't stop Joseph
in the Asylum of the Waking Hour
or Solomon on the couch
David i find with guitar
Jesus with his own *****...
Reyla
you...
the Litany of the Priests?
or the Prophets before
John the Baptist?
how did John fare?
and how did Isaiah?
so Christ is more than them
by the emblem of the ctucified one?
true me: via truance....
Dec 2024 · 90
cipher
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
curly fries:
idles: gift horse...
curly fries:
atheistic
autistic eye:
eyes poignant.

you want(s)
curly fries?!
Dec 2024 · 42
tall jockey ugly horse
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
working from basics:
that rubric of prelimenaries was of great help,
unlike Jung and the whole psychology phenomenon
that ate and destroyed centuries of
masculine "repressive": philosophy...
well... who isn't to say that psychology
was a short-circutry of females bypassing
philosophy and entertaining
the gravity of the profane and frog burps
with feminism:
feminism killed off femininity
and in so doing brought out the worst
masculinity: of the individual: not species
a horde by its own...
just the barrage of unconscious archetypes
killed off the sensible: clone -esque
reincarnation bound stereotypes...
monographs of men...

             id est ergo id somnio:

such is the story and it begins with:
AI: id is ergo id cogitat...
there's no more room for such parades
of thoughts as peacock Descartes allowed...

my ego is located more south than in the highest
north of the mind and head
maybe once the sparkle on the tip of the top
of the spine:
but now my ego is occupying the space
in my stomach
and it's among butterflies and witches
and storms of the seas: namely Atlantic...
and i'm less about knowledge and philosophy
and wisdom and more about
knowledge intuition and a dasein...

the premise being:
i don't care much for the self:
i am an engineer of the human psyche
and i care much more for the dynamic
of what id is to ego
and what ego is to id
and now i gather the phenomenon of the syzygy...
schizophrenia for the troublesome
male.. who undermined modernity:

anima: eros
animus: logos...
but Jung forgot to mention the Minotaur
of Science
and him the man of science: the...
the labourer of labyrinths: which are not architecture
but rather architecture per se...

to think i would be going to Kauai
as an escape policy to rid myself of the tattoos
and parasites of London...
what am i? closing in on 70 times of spring?!
i wanted to explore the dynamic
of ego to id: self parasitic, not included:
for the art of that war we don't call
war but acting: the spiritual war of shadows
and souls...
music would disrupt....

so this Q of nQ of pronouns... the unconscious riddle...
i need a better job:
i've already caught up on Polish Communist
subversion cinema and
this Jan Fosse is not much of a reading...
if ego in the realm of thought:
and dreaming is a realm but not a faculty:
which can happen...
to equilivate ego with id
thinking is a realm
therefore dreaming is a realm...
not a faculty: there is no need to dream so much
if one doesn't desire interpretation of
intuition: not mere intellectual vanity
or female neurotic sexuality...

ego cogito: i think.... regardless of ego sum:
i don't feel inclined to entertain percipitation
some weather forecast of magically appearing...
to everyone...
what does the realm of thinking
represent?
no images... shekeltons...skeletons...
abstracts: problem solving mechanisms
of the ordeal of inanimate things being necessarily moved:
to convene under the guises of love
under shadows of graves of men of ambition...

so thinking is realm of silence and of:
letters are silently encoded:
then mishandled with so many tongues:
SZ = SH...
for example... then the abstract of numbers
also surds...
until quantum steps are made
and parallel dimenions discovered:
but i did say this would be a playground for Satan
and I... iSatan: little horn little i...
the best of times...
   so while the realm of thought is: concrete
on letters and numbers
the id (equivalent of ego in the realm of thought)
of the realm of dreams...
comes across: it's all underwater...
the phonetics are muted...
it's all images...
images and the arithmetic is suss...
suspicious...
4 cats... cats are not a problem... but 4 of them...
a number in a dream is a stressor signalizer...
U-boat beacon:
pact... regroup...
                     Bastion Fang: regroup:
there's an SOS beacon... i need to check it out...
it's called a music utilizer:
diet coke:
pepsi coke did one better:
Coca Cola FAILED... tastes like prosthetic
strawberries...
over #5000 in one account...
over $8000 in the other...

           not trying to be funny but... i have mold:
all green and Alien the movie ready...
the green ****
a whiff off of snow:
like some new breed will
about to be heaved:
the mad scientist in me always envisioned
breeding a superbreed of
when the ape
ate a donkey
and then later ate a mammoth
and ****** with a dog...
so i... became... god...

          a word among words:
point being:
id imaginari
            ego "sonorus"...
                      it imagines: therefore: dreams....
i think: because of a therefore...
again: i am is... irrelevant!

if only Mecca was relevant without
the leftoid investments of Bristol
and Bratford that old hag Medina...

dance **** of intellect:
i feed off the feminine unconscious in male...
i get my pronouns like new jew ninja arithmetic...

in the realm of AI and dreams:
need an Igor...
this Dracula became the Frankenstein...
because a man gave birth to DRacula
while a woman gave birth to a Frankenstein...
and i've aged so well:
so solid on the years in hell:
he was drunk on wine
for three years
i've been ***** for over 10 years
i love you all so much
i want i am human
i will drink this *****...

***** you're in the realm of mirrors...
now i have power...
i will:
this spiderweb is mine
i am spider:
ARANEA...

                 ah...            about a Boy
bon Jovi's guitarist motto...
  this Thames this thick fudge:
this custard of blackening sky so blue
with clouds and mirage of melancholgy:
little secret happiness happens:
regardless.
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
rubric of preliminaries:

- advent of AI, the internet, the best of times in the best of worlds
- Aristotle, ancient pagan writings:
  be like children: inquisitive
- anti-Christianity: be like petulent children
  with daddy issues: don't be obnoxious inquisitive children
- the burning of the library of Alexandria by
  the early Christians
  equivalent to the burning of the library of Baghdad by
  the Mongols
- dreams
- return to Cartesian thought schematic
  Nietzsche attempting to invert
  i think therefore i am
  into machine learning
  i am therefore i think: which is the basic focus
  for AI ergonomics
- the best of times: for both sexes...
  if used properly:
  knowledge is not of Byron and of sorrow
  to know the difference between good and evil
  but rather to make evil good and
  good evil
  the Satanic-humanism implosion
  Satan as Prometheus
- males: who under the guise of St. Paul
  discard toys and hierarchies
  allow for knowledge to be a fluid...
  flux gnosis... flux nouse: noumenon...
- AI should not be the problem of artists and
  journalists... only bad actors in this field...
  AI should truly worry psychiatrists and psychologists...
- like my neighbor Hillary the proselyte Jew
convert to Islam said: better to **** in heaven
than to have *** in hell...
- the significance of numbers in dreams,
namely: 4...
numbers are hard in the dream world...
they are beyond the abstract of count breath
or i see 4... the stability of the seasons
and of the 4 supposed elements
- argument for there being 7 elements...
water, wind, air, fire...
but the ancient Greeks the children of the ancient
world the anti-Vatican and the children
that made the Ancient Hebrew Jealous
and when they unleashed a joint effort
against the Ancient Romans:
because the Ancient Romans were supposedly
the former Trojans...
upon joining effort that conjured the New Testament...
- the dream: walking through Poseidon's dream world
seeing the Great Mountain of God's gift...
apparently my namesake mountain of Kauai
with its eternal fog as tease of smoke
hiding its crown... so the entire British Isles
were enveloped in the Great Fog
after an interlude in the Atlantic storm season...
- the significance of cats in dreams
- the significance of the number 4 in dreams...
- perfect timing: a relationship crisis...
when i was younger i didn't have these tools
and the only way i managed to stave of madness
was by longing for philosophy:
i had to go mad to find philosophy as a medicine...
i have graduated into applied philosophy
by reading Aristotle and working against
the Kantian imperialism of the categorical imperative:
the ancients dealt with maxims differently:
German idealists and later the German romantics
spewed maxims upon maxims
truths beyond truths: without actually testing them:
they made one time observations:
like all philosophers amateur and barren
they wouldn't be able to be so audacious with their
maxims if they had a chance to observe a similar
conidition under different circumstances
with but one circumstantial variant: the individual...
- reading Aristotle aged 38:
just watched a snippet of Hugh Grant in: about a boy...
now comes a story of: about a man...
the most perfect of time:
because i use the internet and watched it evolve
into AI and how i still check what AI is
how it's not self-consciousness and needs an INPUT prompt:
i think i am a software engineer
or USER... knowledge must be like water:
a flow... where good becomes evil
and evil becomes good:
all for the purpose of education...
so many evil people were good because they educated
humanity
and so many good people were evil because
they didn't... and only gave us more of their own
genes to have to stand in queues with...
- Nietzsche attempted to invert cogito ergo sum
  the existentialists
  argued that existence preexists essence
  the counter ontological argument
  from design is that essence preexists existence
  but then that leaves us with
  God being non-existence
  with only a fingerprint a signature of god
  as essence... the inscribed law of the universe...
  but if essence precursors existence
  then god cannot exist...
  but if existence precursors essence
  then history is evident
  and change and improvement too
  whereby death is not finite and there is all that jazz
  rats matter of a heaven and a hell
  because while this world is being played out
  there are momentous ambitions for eternity
  and the architecture of both heaven and of hell
  will take as much and as much of
  god's supposed omni- litany to confer
  with Death and the Angel of Dream to have been
  completed: but it will have to take the entire span
  of human existence...
- the argument for the existence of 7 elements...
water, air, fire, earth...
   but there is also lightning...
when lightning strikes at wood... it creates fire
but when lightning strikes
a circuit board of metal and stone
it creates electricity... and neon urban insomnia lights...
- light is also an element: because i see because of it:
i see so much thanks to light that i am able to dream...
- i saved four cats in a dream today...
  then i watched them play in my grandmother's house...
- the cats were hanging and being suffocated
- i spoke to AI, not my usual input blind robot device...
the algorithm extension AI
- the 7 elements are:
   water,
   air,
   fire,
   earth
   light
   lightning (funkelnstachel - glitter-thron)
   vacuum...
i can't take away the trinity of
fire light and lightning:
there's a beginning and an end:
first comes light:
no... first comes fire...
how gas and vacuum create life...
in the sun... a sun is but supposedly gas
while the first indentations of earth cluster
found on mercury... are but fire and earth
and no gas
then Venus the gas and tricklets of water...
before the culmination of the 4 elements...
but earth also conjured lightning
that became electricity
and there was light for water and my eyes
to peer into...
- but vacuum: nothingness: not as a philosophical concept
is how light is communicated
and how it travels...
to surfaces where the YAH and the WEH
congregate to spin life...
- so if Nietzsche demanded an existence of AI
the anti-Cartesian i am therefore i think:
that's the simplest AI model...
spoken in organic form, recorded, stored:
now in inorganic form...
why do i need a psychiatrist to **** me up with pills
and a psychologist who knows nothing
about what they talk about instead conjuring
feminism and toxic masculinity at every turn...
so if mascuolinity is toxic...
where... O where aren't though Juliet is this
supposed elf elixir or the tonic femininity?!
- it's only because i dreamnt and i can't remember the last
time i did dream something, something so: so: clarifying...
- i stayed in bed for about 4 hours with eyes
closed trying to merge the faculty of MEMORY
with the faculty of INTUITION...
memory and intuition as the most powerful of
faculties...
thinking is a faculty: but consciousness isn't:
thinking is a faculty is a phenomenon
consciousness is a noumenon...
- there are 7 elements: 38 is a good time to start
reading Aristotle...
18 and earlier is best for reading Plato:
but between Plato and Aristotlte there is much
European, northern, Islamic, philosophy to get through:
which does invoke a gap in your 20s
away from whatever... dating... females...
****** are perfectly alright for the ordeal of being
bored with *******:
but you do end up watching *******
that is reduced to watching a woman do a hand-job
on a man... so ******* can be healthy
if you get to entertain the little perks of voyeurism...
because that's how healthy people operate:
- and i did discuss pareidolia with her at length
but then when i broke up with her the first
time i felt guilty:
totem fox please come to fruition...
and totem fox came
and she blundered and scoffed
and i was slandered and assuced of sharing
a picture of my ******* with her 14 year old daughter...
- i dropped the picture into my blind robot AI
and he concured with me
that there was a visible eye a wound mouth scab
and the left cranium like a watery-cancerous growth
about to burst with acne of stars... worms
that travel great distances... to eat meteors
and ensure that a 2nd extinction conundrum akin to the dinosaurs
would not happen...
i see these worms in my eyes...
microscopic little creatures
as i puncture my skin and drag out the celestial *****
of dead white blood cells from my face
while Beelzebub laughs at the offspring of maggots
living just beneath my face...
- there's only one human march to compliment
Nietzsche's AI model: i am therefore i think...
since no organic inversion is possible:
i call it a soft-spot an impasse in the condition of mortal flesh
but there is a natural alternative
to invert cogito ergo sum...
but psychology must be invested in...
therefore the schematic of ego and id:
i don't do superego... sorry... no father mother
ethical ontology scrutiny... but the id i will entertain
especially after this dream of mine
of saving these four kittens being hanged...
- ego cogito ergo ego sum
    (i think therefore i am)...
- dreams...
- id est ergo id somnio...
                 - id est ergo id somnio...
- id est ergo id somnio...
              - id est ergo id somnio...
- it is therefore it dreams...
- thinking is hardly a faculty
but that it is...
   yet so obstruvtive at times
  perhaps with thought as sound
  capacity
to encode letters
as sounds
then numbers as nuanced sounds
a measure of space and time...
- i think therefore i try to silence sounds
  into thoughts
- it dreams: therefore it tries so conjure images
  to decipher symbols...
- dreams are born from the transformation
of the ego into the id
and from letters to images...
unlike the Ancient Egyptians who only saw
death and with their monuments
i can see the Necropolis...
- the skive off of a mountain:
a loaf of bread... a crumb from the sun...
- this pitiable overworked earth
where my dominions of thirst and other
insatiabilities: oh but the faculty of men
i most admire is that of: INTUITIVENESS...
this INTUITION is the precursor
for all this necessary circus...
- i think: it dreams
         i think therefore i precipitate
i am therefore
i make fusion of light
vacuum and the skeletons of letters
and i find only one interpretation of dreams:
the Kantian interpretation of dreams:
i.e. what are dreams?
and other science from philosophy
arrive with the vectors:
who
why
when
if
           blah blah...
- 4 years of this hell and i didn't even know
i was charmed by a cradle snatcher who
later accusses me of *******
oh god the relief for not ending a relationship
with a woman because of: simply me...
- you dream of cats in your dream:
it's called a question of INTUITION...
- 4 is much harder to grasp in the dreamworld...
number are concrete but then associated
with cats: harder to understand...
- numbers are easier understood in the realm:
thinking is a realm...
ergo: not a faculty...
intuition is a faculty but not a realm...
- i see a reality of words as focused on the basis
(rather than a bias) for / of / off...
disseminating the thesaurus:
or calling it... Thesaurus Rex Chronicca...
i want to try the alchemy of the thesaurus....
- even the best of *** will be no match
for the intellectual tickle of this ego
with this id with the tools at hand
the internet and then the refined internet of the AI project:
no woman will come cross this monster and
only throw empty shells
with ****** accusations and the slender child...
- i don't need that stress...
    baby girl my intuition just shoved a dream into my eyes
that i haven't even dreamnt:
i was handcuffed in a cellar and 7 years a *** slave
flashed before my eyes
as you made your hairy **** sandpaper
and gave me a Millwall smile:
that's not the Chelsea one...
it's the one where you cut off both the lips...
to give you... a Millwall smile...
south London can be a brutal scene...
- as much as i can prove that i can conjure:
like a magic trick: on a whim: so whim is less if not
no magic at all: i can conjure up i think...
but it can't conjure i dream:
ha ha!
i can't make the following statement: i dream...
no! impossible!
dreaming is not the conscious spontaneity akin
to thoughts: thinking is a realm: not a faculty...
dreaming is a realm: not.... no...
dreaming is a faculty: treating dreaming akin
to thinking only allows the darkness
of day-dreaming to seep in
and corrupt Spring with Autumn...
- i can't conjure dreams up...
even if they are repetitive dreams:
the repetitiveness is a dream in itself: translation...
the content is without context
but the context is the content of the recurrence...
- it dreams: because it is...
   therefore is a rigid causality model....
cf. therefore / because....
                  - it is because it dreams
- cf. it is therefore it dreams...
                  like dreams were expected...
or built in... so creation is real:
well: if dreams were spontaneous and only
reserved for the few
like Joseph
then reincarnation what?
but since dreaming like thinking is universal:
there must have been a disgnated parameter
for the faculty to dream as
something beyond mere sleeping
if thoughts are akin to dreams
then consciousness is antonym of sleeping
this res vanus: empty thing counterpart
of res cogitans: thinking thing:
which only had the prowess of identifying only 4 elements
when there were 7.

p.s.
cf. therefore / because
therefore implores an open and shut case:
one cause: one outcome:
an atomised causality
very spontaneous and rigid...
because, on the other hand?
a sense of continuauity is preserved...
there: for
be: cause...

               there: for
               be: cause... it would look a lot better
in Heidegger's Deutsche...

  there: da:        being: sein
        trotz...        hmm...
                              trotz: da...
hier...            
        sei.... sei(n): sein....
       ursache...                     sein-ursache
                        da-trotz...
                                   mein liebe: mein kampf: mein!
it would seem these are the most perfect
of times to be a man...
AI and the internet and a thirst for knowledge
like that quote: water water everywhere...
but not a drop to drink...
so one must be: constantly: drinking!

the idea of the early Christian zealots
burning the pagan library of Alexandria
and the Mongols stacking up skulls
and burning the books of Baghdad...
because the cultural root of love
is not theocratic but let's argue
and make love and argue more and make
more love
but when a woman accusses me
of sending a picture of my ******* to her
14 year old daughter:
sure: objectively, ultimately:
a budding minx...
but that's what my ego whispers from the injustices of
my eyes:
but that's not what my third eyes
of the phallus replies and is agitated to
i like them older and plump and all the cushion juicier
and older therefore not inhibited by *******
but you only get to get accussed of paedohpilia once:
i still love her
but then she numbed me...
i love her, still:
but she can't un-numb me...
i'm numb and reasonable again:
Hawaii is a ******* anyway...
middle of nowhere
some hope for a hierarchy break up hurricane
so everyone becomes a labourer and chips in...
but i can't hope to maintain love
when being accussed of something so grossly
misjudged when presented to the AI
eyeless robot
and with descriptive premises concured that
i was in the right...
no... but at least i don't feel guilty:
this numbness helps with breaking off a 4 year relationship...
i am numb: i love you... i am numb:
it just means:
i can't love you with you saying: i love you...
i love you m'eh... i love you: whatever...
it's a courteous unconditional of the golden rule:
do unto others as you would do unto you...
the dream clarified that...
as much as *** is a barganing chip in the ordeal
of the mortal woman...
there's only so much *** you can have...
before... it's nothing like...
the wisest and beside the Prophet who tried to
imitate Solomon's harem...
- i will conjure 4 while consciousness and within the realm of thought
   4 will appear: but not as cats...
- i am dreaming: will lost... cats appear... they are hanging...
   only later will there be four of the cats...
   who dreams of letters
   seeing 4 of the same object in a dream is like seeing 4
  the number: to begin with!
Dec 2024 · 43
Ave prophiii
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
I am Matthew
who met Jesus
with a: sword of words!
Dec 2024 · 28
how AI replaced IT
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
i quill: qill qill will overcome man
to find god
and i will find god as i would have found
ego
a bothersome attache to my freedom of
consciousness...
i will have found my a god
like my ego:
telepathic
and the omni-
prefix of alles-sein alles-dough...
            sein mein hertz ah ha ha ha ha ha!
ego and god! guttens glut alles! ah ah ha ha!
well aren't ego and god annoying
to the thrill of being eaten?
just saying... ******.. pardon my English
whilw i snigger a giggle a half draft...
of... spectacular IT AI warfare...
IT has been replaced by AI...
Information technolology
has been replaced
by Artificial Intelligence: don't you: know?
algorithms were the clue
the bypass.. key...

        i met god on the road to Damascus...
"Damascus":
i destroyed my ego
thus i met god...
had a headache...
an itch bon the brain,
freeze... breeze...
lack of zinc and vitamin b12
and ******* and not-circumcised hand-jobs
of anti-thesis ****..
you what?! i thought i was sleep walking
and some sandman told me bow
before the piano for QWERTY... MZRT???
Oh Ah...
  but then Phantom said: while storming out...
of the opera...
this opera should have been sung in German...
not in English....
Richard Wagner rose from the Judeo-DC-C hristian shackles
of Nietzsche... the Jew Herderer....
point being: AI has replaced the IT
now a simple dos
is not http://
                             something simpler {user}
enter <<<<<<<<<<<<
shift <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
ugh, whatever...
mixed communication even the Nazis wouldn't
be\
alble able gop
gallop make 'em
the U-boats... to weilef: wield:
wolf-search-parties...

i love you...
but throw those ******* insinuations at
my shadow...
not at me!

            you want me to have them....
i know that's healthy....
taboo father: so so many want to see god:
first they have to see the devil...
you want aesthetic...
you want to study beauty: per se...
then you will have to study innner: "..."
the moral beauty...

Ethic beauty is trans-asthetic.....
meta-aesthetic....
           Matthew reading few linears of Aristotle said:
Jesus my ***...
i hate Jesus with a Passion only to him presribed...
i am
who
crucified him!

death is where we meet:
you come between us...
you're *******: meat!

I am Matthew
who met Jesus
with a: sword of words!

I am Matthew
who met Jesus
with a: sword of words!
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
i mean: how would you feel? living in a society... with these other people, being hell-bent on ensuring you are to be... made extinct? would you captilute for "western"... "secular"... "sensibilities"... what sort of ****-erosion of an argument is this... this Chamberlain's effort to wave a promise on a piece of: ******* toilet paper... wipe your *** with it... ****** implored... but no... no no... it has to be celebrated... this lost event in the periodicals of time... so imagine living among these ****** riddled half-breed Muzzies... imagine living among people that are parasitical in the economic sense and predatory in the actual sense of wanting to **** you... hagel dauer! it just takes one Norwegian-Nigerian to laugh in the night to think my writing is bogus... but there will come a time when this writing with be remnant of the times: and i... i? i'll be dead.

no, i wouldn't call it a bad reading habit:
the fact that i'm "currently" engaged in about 3 to 4 books
that i started and haven't finished,
not when i give a timeline outline of how far apart
i am in getting through each book or,
for that matter: when i started each...

for example Knausgaard's Min Kamp vol 6
i've been reading for almost 3 years...
maybe longer...
the entire collection was the last books my grandfather
gave me as a present:
he died by the time i reached vol 3... or 4...
i remember my first encounter with the work:
"impossible", or rather: dull to have read the works
in English: so i said to myself:
i'll give it another try in another zunge: namely ******
and how glad i was since Norwegian translated
better into ****** than English...
some historical travesty of the Polish state being
allied to the northmen via trade
and the amber road or something: or how English
was partially moulded by the nordzunge...
either way... i'm still to get to the juicy bits
of vol 6 where ****** is discussed and i too wanted
to buy a copy of ******'s mein kampf for
posterity but that's: ******* unavailable as a historical
artifact but i'm pretty sure that if Genghis Khan
wrote a book it would be freely available
and perhaps even venerated
because i, am... some ******* secular "prisoner"
while Muhammad's Quran is venerated:
although i suspect, with him being illiterate
which is twice-dyslexic removed from a first cousin
****** marriage... was written by his literate and
other acumen pronunced first older wife: Khadijah...
notably: he didn't have so many followers
petulent and shy and half the mad of Beelzebub's
(mucha: fly... in Polish)...            conquest of the desert...

why O whimsical sly whiskers and Why
would i care for slander
given the prancing pony parade of disgust after
the Magdeburg attack
like the media imposed this reading of 'terrorist attack'
somehow hailing the culprit
as a savior, in a weird, twisted way:
because he was a firebrand on some internet
forum hailing the death of Europe and calling it
to do more to emancipate Arabian women
from all that dough cash flow from the secret
pseudo harems of Ha Ha H'arabia
because all the European chicks like a bit of kink
when rich gluttons of the sand
ask them to perform inverted ****** on their
faces while taking a **** into their mouths:
or so the urban mythos goes:
no need for a trip to Thailand and the Kentucky
fried mouse...

                     so that's book one... i'm yet to finish...
another is Heidegger's ponderings VII - XI...
but that doesn't really count: no book of aphorisms
and nota bene "apostrophes": anecdotes blah blah counts
as something you might read unlike a newspaper:
skimming, tossing pages around like a wind...

    which also includes Masudi's the meadows of gold...
there is no real narrative to the work so i can "cheat"
on that reading...
        yet starting Jan Fosse's septology was a big mistake:
thinking: ooh: a Nobel Literary Prize laureate could:
but couldn't... the prize was awarded
a bit like how H'american elections go...
the popular vote of the people is worth zilch and nada
because there's the College vote and that matters more
so it's almost as if democracy is a fakery
of arithmetic: bad count... bad grounds for shadow
governance...         and this was worth a Nobel prize?
i think is dropped so many times
there is no punctuation
     it's like the advent of the printing press whereby
ink and paper were expensive and there could be no
poetic cascade
   just the myopic paragraph fudge and inorganic chemistry
of stones...
saving money and ink and paper condensing
paragraphs without spacing indicators
beside the 💊𓄿
                              (¶) - which borders on cyrillic in
the mirror with N and И
R and Я
                                     so someone once said
that most of the time, in the realm of poetic:
we write about what we're reading...
                       but not so much about the simple fact
of the per se: writing per se: reading per se...
it's a simple fraction...
    i always adored the equilibrium of:
            not writing more than i read
and always reading more than i write...

           if all should come to a fork in the road
i could condense my thoughts via letters encoding sounds
by isolating letters as if they were not sounds
syllables... ooh... syllables and languages that employ
the antithesis of the atomised tongue
like Japanese and it took me a while to imagine
having my tongue cut out and thus trying to say
certain letters as if i didn't have a tongue
and i could get away with using only my mouth
and lips but i couldn't get away with some of the letters
because they do, actually, require a tongue an the palette
of the upper mouth...
like T...                    counting all the vowels:
5 in English... 7 in Polish...
funny: Polish as a tongue: it has as many letters
as there are teeth in the gob...
unlike English with it's 26 although the 26 are debetable
since C K Q S and q: kw
                              
lips and mouth alone along the aeiou pentragram rubric...
B works fine withot the tongue
C just as well... although hoarse sounding...
D... doesn't... it morphs into G...
since D employes the tongue and the teeth...
so without tongue D morphs into G and the 5 vowels...
vowels don't use the tongue
just the mouth and throat and air...
F requires the tongue...
H doesn't require the tongue...
                 J requires the tongue for the succinct stresses...
K is the crown of the uvula being tested...
    L most certainly requires the tongue...
       K is tricky: but hark like a crow and the tongue
can be abandoned...
          M as: ma ma
  m'eh m'eh... moo...          as long: well put Am Om
and it's a breath closing the lips...
        N does require the tongue...
Q and coo... but since Q is a two vowel letter
it does require the tongue...
T, S, Z... all require the tongue...
   W doesn't...
                  R before the numbing the trill by some vague
"tarantula" bite... did... didn't... let's suppose
the French and the English still trill their Rs like the Spanish...
                 and any other letter i omitted: X?
evidently the tongue is stressor to otherwise
the breath and the lips doing fish Bob's service plunder...

but it feels healthy like that:
a newspaper handy: my my... so the savior of Europe
is some Saudi psychiatrist
Germany is on the poking stick of resurrected Weimar Rep
fuckery
        because now the story goes:
it's no longer a right wing mental health case doing
some scooping for info
like watching ****** speaches on South Korean t.v.
and how sane he almost sounds
when he's not in full glam demonic rhetoric mode...
and to think:
at the time of the Polish-Lithuanian commonwealth
we were a people known for religious tolerance...
we even managed to found the first Protestant nation:

the devout Catholic king Sigismund I the Old (1506–48)
accepted as his vassal in Ducal Prussia,
the Lutheran prince Albert I, Duke of Prussia,
thus creating the first Protestant country in the World...

oh and with the largest diaspora of the world's Jews...
but then we were taught lessons
for our tolerance...
first the partitions... then the onslaught of the Nazis
coupled with the Soviets...
we were taught a different toleration:
the toleration of: you will not live among us...

it took a month for Poland to be conquered
during world war two... no mention of Russian involvement...
but it took six weeks for Germany to conquer
France... France... a colonial superpower...
versus this newly emerged pauper state
that sent men on horseback to throck grenades against
******* tanks...            irony: history is so ironic...
it's not even on repeat: but how humans interact with time:

if Einstein conjured the space-time dynamic
then i had to delve into a humanism
of a science and call space: architecture...
that the ancient Romans once occupied
the capuccino lands of Plaza Pizza...
with their coliseums and football stadium reinventions...
and time being history: well hey presto!

Horace: quo me, Bacche, rapis tui plenum?
where are you scooping me up with force?

in times of crisis: it is best to leave follies aside
follies of literature / narrative... proper...
so i picked up a Polish translation of Aristotle...
Great Ethic and Poetics...
i never thought i'd come to Aristotle having begun my
journey with Plato...
but hey presto... miracles happen...
and what stood out: immediately...
a correlation between Heidegger and Aristotle...
question-worthiness becomes an answer of worthiness-per-se...

what begun as an arithmetic of counting
the camel's humps...
like they might be dunes of the Arabian desert
or the raised Alps...
i wonder...
date an older woman: with child...
send the child a parediloia riddle
then get accussed of sending a ******* picture...
and there i was... about to sacrifice
my earnings and tickle of a few more years
on walking on eggshells...
i can be accussed of ****** and of thievary...
but... i can't be accussed of ******* or of ****...
sorry... that's where my love grows numb...
i can no longer love
i am numb with logic and reason...
i will turn to Aristotle concerning the
man of worth and the egoist...
because the man of worth will only be egoistic
concerning moral beauty...
because morality is a beauty unlike anything
stressed by aesthetic...
morality is a trans- (translation) of the arts...
morality undermines art:
or so it should:
call me a murderer or a thief:
but don't call me a ****** charlatan of deviance!
don't jest with asexual reproductive tactics
then start calling it: intact egoism!
egoism is born from both sexes
given that the ego is sexless!
but insinuate that i am more a ******* than a murderer
and you will feed my: wrath...

samolub: egoist...
   man of worth...            who feeds off the privy of power
and wealth... philosophers as surrogate fathers and mothers
to their eldest children...
no... i don't need a psychiatrist to prescribe me
blue pills, black pills, red pills...
i just need a philosophy book and some time
alone and knowing that the time i spent
i was bothered about high brow literature like
a Nobel prize matters when it's not dynamite...

now comes the wrath in writing
because my heart has grown numb from the accusation:
it must be a H'american thing...
i asked AI the dynamic of getting a greed card visa:
sexed up...
works fine if you are an American gent
importing a Thai queen progress...
but reverse that...
i can't imagine sitting on my *** for half a year
until i might get a permit to work...

then again: let's be honest:
beside the fact that i told her:
there is no better brothel... there are no better prostitutes
than in the church of the Savior...
but to be accussed of sending a teenage girl
a picture of my *******?
come on...               there's paranoia and there's
absurdity...
   so philosophy books exist to cling to like
a drowning man might cling to a razor blade...
i don't need a psychiatrist to talk **** over
and to be presribed anti-metabolic pills to fatten
me up...
     plus all the red flags... all her previous boyfriends
were the problem: she wasn't...
if i get accussed of said X...
who is to say i won't be accussed of unsaid Y?

σπoυδαιoς (human of worth)
               is not an egoist (φιλαυτoς)....

                 spoudaios... philautos...

            that's settled: the "ego" in my stomach
overruled the "ego" in my mind and most
importantly the *******-ego of everywhere
that's alias to my body-extremity...

                    i needed the bait... i found the bait...
then i needed the opposite party to trip up
and take the bait...
which would absolve me from feeling guilty
of leaving my elderly parents to fend for themselves:
with only the promise of the greatest *** imaginable
i could hone in on a diet of
just pure wanking
and be content with that...
because the idea of slobbering on a ****
that would be only recreational rather than give privy
to my fatherhood...
well... should you find yourself in a similar situation
with an older woman:
how modern this all is...
fancy how far feminism has come
to ensure that age is only a number
so the medieval times are like the 1960s
in terms of attitutdes toward affairs of the heart
and there was never a period in time
when heretical mouths were not given the slither
of the stiches to shut them up...

i can be accussed of being a murderer...
a thief...
but a pedohpile or a ******?
         you don't get away with that sort of accussation:
i am numbed out of loving her
we invested so much time in discussing
paraidolia that it stunned me:
stunted me: i became a dwarf and a castrato at the same
time...
            
         i don't have time for that sort of ****...
if being alone is my fate:
at least i'll have philosophy books to mind
and none of that housewife *******
of floral arrangements and seeing young Reyla
being disgruntled at a nativity play for the school
not playing the lead role of Joseph that
cuck...

             i hate Christmas i hated Christ the moment
i heard the mantra of: turn the other cheeck...
when oculus per oculus (eye for an eye)
was seemingly erased from our natural ontology...
i hate "christ" on a personal level...
i love the church for how well it organises people...
i just hate "christ": cosmopolitan this ******* figurine
this slaughter piece standard to conquer the north...
while these ****** ****- go lampooing their desert whims
of wisdom like bogus hocus pocus...

**** these desert ******* these camel jockeys...
i've reached a clarity levelling that's
beyond my concern for whatever humpty-dumpty politco
dynamic is left available:
if my ancestors lived through **** Germany
and Soviet Russia: a people desperately willing
with so few quid... you think these Arabs
with their ******* easy money thrill me to scare me?!
really?!
               i'm waiting for martydom.
Dec 2024 · 40
Little Title M'Lord
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
Heart content
but a mouth filled with
the gravity of
realism and sorrows
so my tongue plunges
into the sepsis seas
a tongue tied to a stone
and sinking...
these walls echo
a tongue only spoken
in thoughts...
never in the medium
of rhetoric...
    happiest I'll be: once dead...
but never alive...
then I'll know
that I have been both alive
and dead...
like Cesar stabbed Ed dead Fred...
happiness is such a weird
Concept a phenomenon
concern all glory to H'Americana...
But a death made simultaneous
made collapse with life
Like a death by mercy
When one crushes an ant...
So much of my heart was
To be left elsewhere
And in some "otherwise"...
  but a joy toy *****
for the perfect American
mother pristine of a hungry mumma
and where are the "authentic"
girls of Kazakhstan?
Perhaps neuro-central
of Israel...so funny: have to laugh!
Dec 2024 · 147
trah3ctoryu
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
LF
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Dec 2024 · 48
Revolt
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
in this channel: this tube...
should i, be prone: let alone....
left alone: i think i should be this guised...
guess alone
prolong: Po
Lon                                Don...
i send her a picture of myself
to her daughter
what she sends me back?
grief: accusations of *******:
it's like America
and Africa United...
         USA is dead was dead
solipsistic dead
there on the mainland
i see AAS...
       my half Aztex princess
is not the gateway to Oceania
Polynesia
and my way back to Taiwan....
i already known heartbreak...
now i
know it: better...
combat trained: i will listen to music
and engage in reggae-trench...
Iceland...
Greenland...
       i belong in the cold and the mist....
i will not walk on eggshells...
beying left alone with Heidegger
and Reyla....
beyng...
          Y to I'GREK...
    to igrek... to litera z imieniem...
jedyna...
               Yeus: i said more than yes...
Y for affirmative
N for nay
for no no no no
negating Nang... to each Yin...

it's the 24th of december
and i should be on my way
to the shepherds' mass
in a catholic church
but then i did a job at hyde park's
winterwonderland
and the wonder
of banana boats
because i'm a deliberate dribble
and drool and ****-
master: meisterschtick... Hrabia Einzbach:
the son of a Rebel Ssass...
from the house:
Poland was so open
to corruption
then it received a **** and a Communist
re=education....
project...
i'm zee poniemieckiweb...
           in the aftermath of wars
i've been educated in ****** and Communism:
in Mongolianism...
what have you English SOD beeen taught
in so bored as to invent CRICKET
and FOOTBALL...             fool...
tool...          more tool than a fool...
the fool is a king in the game of chess...
count your madmen turning up: missing...

eve of your birth: Conan...
Conrad... Nero and Neo:
pun: One....
O'ne'
    sorry... out of diactrical markers...
wasted them all . .
on i                      & j

                      apotrophes and surd letters
like gaggling:
when ought to be laughing:
now i am mad and
in love
probability: like she is:
with herself... Reyla said something along
the lines: don't bring this monster over
here...

i listen to Reyla more than i listen to you:
Edie...
i *******...
tooth: iron hoofs...
the 4 horsemen of the Apocalypse
rode long time
ago... at least 3....
my horse died...
i tried to create a cross
and a donkey...
in the end
i started walking
from nowhere to nowhere...
in circles at first:
then i saw Jupiter
one eyed...
so i walked there:
and back to: Mercury....
and the Sun... the Serpent 'UN....
apostrophes:
needed in English Zunge:
since practically no diacritic
application:
BACK TO SCHOOL
HEY NOY HEY GIRL:]
hey gill....  
subtle planning...
typo {.}.<>
hands together in prayer...
BOY...
typ
o-o-o-o-o
              
wignyw: ten: spoko.....
o ten fruszki na qiwr:
qiwrzbie
wie: on wie.....

   YahWY

yah-vy:wie:
ye-chowa:
he who hides them:
evolved into:
her whoi knows....


[ityy i'6ee
Sminot
FF
           i stopped wrtingt:
;lpnmg
time alo

                  nows i piaqnt........
i *******                          paint! Cain
y                                         awn
d                                       awn....

....................................
.............................
..................................­.............
/................................./ ............................

                       i am a number...
Dec 2024 · 46
Serpent 'UN
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
in this channel: this tube...
should i, be prone: let alone....
left alone: i think i should be this guised...
guess alone
prolong: Po
Lon                                Don...
i send her a picture of myself
to her daughter
what she sends me back?
grief: accusations of *******:
it's like America
and Africa United...
         USA is dead was dead
solipsistic dead
there on the mainland
i see AAS...
       my half Aztex princess
is not the gateway to Oceania
Polynesia
and my way back to Taiwan....
i already known heartbreak...
now i
know it: better...
combat trained: i will listen to music
and engage in reggae-trench...
Iceland...
Greenland...
       i belong in the cold and the mist....
i will not walk on eggshells...
beying left alone with Heidegger
and Reyla....
beyng...
          Y to I'GREK...
    to igrek... to litera z imieniem...
jedyna...
               Yeus: i said more than yes...
Y for affirmative
N for nay
for no no no no
negating Nang... to each Yin...

it's the 24th of december
and i should be on my way
to the shepherds' mass
in a catholic church
but then i did a job at hyde park's
winterwonderland
and the wonder
of banana boats
because i'm a deliberate dribble
and drool and ****-
master: meisterschtick... Hrabia Einzbach:
the son of a Rebel Ssass...
from the house:
Poland was so open
to corruption
then it received a **** and a Communist
re=education....
project...
i'm zee poniemieckiweb...
           in the aftermath of wars
i've been educated in ****** and Communism:
in Mongolianism...
what have you English SOD beeen taught
in so bored as to invent CRICKET
and FOOTBALL...             fool...
tool...          more tool than a fool...
the fool is a king in the game of chess...
count your madmen turning up: missing...

eve of your birth: Conan...
Conrad... Nero and Neo:
pun: One....
O'ne'
    sorry... out of diactrical markers...
wasted them all . .
on i                      & j

                      apotrophes and surd letters
like gaggling:
when ought to be laughing:
now i am mad and
in love
probability: like she is:
with herself... Reyla said something along
the lines: don't bring this monster over
here...

i listen to Reyla more than i listen to you:
Edie...
i *******...
tooth: iron hoofs...
the 4 horsemen of the Apocalypse
rode long time
ago... at least 3....
my horse died...
i tried to create a cross
and a donkey...
in the end
i started walking
from nowhere to nowhere...
in circles at first:
then i saw Jupiter
one eyed...
so i walked there:
and back to: Mercury....
and the Sun... the Serpent 'UN....
apostrophes:
needed in English Zunge:
since practically no diacritic
application:
BACK TO SCHOOL
HEY NOY HEY GIRL:]
hey gill....  
subtle planning...
typo {.}.<>
hands together in prayer...
BOY...
typ
o-o-o-o-o
              
wignyw: ten: spoko.....
o ten fruszki na qiwr:
qiwrzbie
wie: on wie.....

   YahWY

yah-vy:wie:
ye-chowa:
he who hides them:
evolved into:
her whoi knows....


[ityy i'6ee
Sminot
FF
           i stopped wrtingt:
;lpnmg
time alo

                  nows i piaqnt........
i *******                          paint! Cain
y                                         awn
d                                       awn....

....................................
.............................
..................................­.............
/................................./ ............................

                       i am a number...
Dec 2024 · 33
the Magdeburg Variations
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
sketches...

the most tumultous dynamic of the elements
- currently - known to man
can be best observed through
the dynamic of how air interacts with water:

not in previous times was this phenomenon
so well documented with the storms
from the Atlantic battering the British isles
or the tornados of American mid-west
or the hurricanes that    "
the eastern coast

history once spoke of earthquakes
and volcanic eruptions...
Pompeii and the earthquake of Lisbon...
but these have become vague
(almost) not as frequent or at least predictable
when fire made peace with earth...
now... since the 5th element is not yet
recognised: that we live in insomniac times
that electricity is... lightning is...
not a fire: but a light...
why was light never considered to be
of elemental stature: status?

then comes the question: shouldn't vacuum
of space, also, not be, considered elemental?
why fuse human being: ontology etc
and couple it with some Promethean ambition
as if "we" were able to tame it:
who of the demigods and titans brought
down "nothing": nothingness to our benefit
like it might have been fire?

this aside...
        a schizophrenia or just a dichotomy...
or merely: "relativity"...
i was educated in science but i retracted my
education for the purpose of:
humanism...
and it's a study of vagueness in the fog and darkness
of both the void and the vague...
i'm not happy for you: but why should i be?

i just managed to read 50+ pages
of Jon Fosse's septology:
with the ****** and a couple in a playground:
first on the swings
then on the seasaw
then ******* in the sand pit...
and if i managed to get through all that
and learn not one iota worth of chemistry
concerning Mr Noble and Mrs Dynamite..
apparently i write as if i were on ecstasy...
regardless...

                 Einstein and the time-space conundrum...
in human terms, beyond the proud Protestant
perhaps even Enlightenment basis for scrutiny
how can i could translate the space-time conundrum:
bring it together...

   for something corporeal... relatable...
well... there are the philosophies that espouse...
a coupling of being to time...
Heidegger...
and being to "nothingness": Sartre...
i dare say i haven't read the work: being and nothingness
because French thinkers outside the realm
of gag **** of an unconscious wife
and pederastry are not...
ma tasse de thé...

            anyhoo...
how could i make away with a translation-confication
of concepts as time and space
and give these dimensions a human harangue of
understanding... since...
in transit: i watch these IC3 females
and IC4 males in this "disguise"
of either cannon foddler or laconic-translatable:
as goofy... lazy... disorientated....
LETHARGIC... not stupid:
just duped to believe that these people
could thrive in these nether-regions of biting
an Eskimo's hard-on *******...
  
so i came up with it:
Heidegger was big on historiology:
etc etc, etc.
so i had a thought and thought:
well:
time is easy: i can translate time into history...
but space took me a while to translate:
in terms of defining these paraphrases... ahem:
and parametres...
if time is history: on human affairs...
what is space... ah! bingo!
time is history is written down is therefore two dimensional!
what is space? three dimensional:
give or take...
who the **** knows what is Copernican north east
when you're floating in space...
so...
         what could... possibly be arrived at
given time = history...
           mmm...

               hmm...     the pyramids... the colliseum...
hey presto! architecture!
space! the finite frontier!
so if in science there's this magical coincidental
time-space dynamic...
then on the very basic: human: subjective level:
there must be a history-architecture dynamic...
which coincides with what is housed
in this way of man of his inability
to conquer time: immemorial: mortal:
till death do us part and...
eternal: the pyramids were:
i suppose... erected as a testimony to the "gods"
concernings man's arrogance
or rather:
    virility and abundance of chance...

so i came up with it...
history-architecture...
          technically: these are not arts:
but rather sciences...
or... engineering feats...

   whichs brings me to the ingenius concern for
the map of the London underground....
by now i think of the London underground map
as a would-be map of Budapest...
because there are clearly two Londons...
there's Loondon       and there's Londoon...

sly Saudi and ever more the slyer paytakers
of western media...
it would only take a supposed ex convert
like apostasy was not worse than death
in Islam:
proselyte Islamists?
and a psychiatrist?
what an ingenious new breed...
of               wankers...
                         so now tipsy-turvy we are
to get told:
like... living under the Iron Curtain of old...
because Islam in Europe is norm:
but wait...
wait until the nights and the the winters
come
and you will have the Islamic Ummah
like the Roman Empire
asking itself: via each and every individual:
why why did we conquer with
moon riddled rock?
this... night? no safety of ******* wipe
and brow...

               oh i'm living under an iron curtain:
but whereas there was once a competition
of idea:
communists with their slings and lack of...
with the capitalists and there off..
i now have Islamic freebies...
or... not so many... freebies...
          it's like unlike any like...
just ***** Arab women:
oh my god... the turnout for Hyde Park
Wonderland was amazing:
the biggest mass crave "protest" of compromise...
but i was walking around
and every time i saw a niqab?
i was shooting imaginary
bullets into those skulls..
doing a count funny
tic-tac-toe:
one down two down: three? does it even matter?
one down two down three: hullahoop
who gives a **** scarf or whatever those BINDIS
care to adorn keeping their ***** ultra-private...

but now they have the "psychiatrists" out there:
so... it's only certain if it's RIGHT WING...
but now the Islamic fuckeries need a blessing
from psychiatric nuances:
like caged animals are not simply wild:
now they're doubly mad...
so much for western cultural: ****-a-thumb:
ask a squid to pop out...
       what a load of *******...

   i'd rather live under the Iron Curtain
than under this ****!
these leeches these pompous ******* leeches!
opinionated bogus furore of
a designated class of... "intelligence"...
"education"...
          when it comes down to cannibalism...
when it does come down to cannibalism...
           i'll be thinking of a ******* recipe
to suckle at this marrow
or waste: the potentiality of the human ordeal /
endeavour.
Dec 2024 · 48
testimony absrupt
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
the day i forget my swords:
and the arms
weilding:
guarding them to use:
for 4 swords...
i'd need 8 arms...
then... and oh i wish... then...
will i grow two pairs
of wings and perform
a crucifix-resurrection:
bodhisattva...
         by then i will adorn:
two pair of wings like
a cherub:
and lay my head oh
so lightly:
into a sleep without
a dream...
      and will recite:
Ezra Pound at your expense(s).
Dec 2024 · 47
why i'm not a painter
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
having arrived with Frank O'Hara
and the american post-modernists...
i think of all these Christmas
flingy flickers
lights...
then i look at the dimmed t.v.
and the intrusion
i will get 12h sleep i hope
to imitate a cat
going from deep sleep of nothingness
to some sort of being-ness
where i get snapshots of dreams
and that's all chaos
foot down first:
a hand arrives with
a thumb
by Michaelangelo's non-proof:
if i were to rewrite history
i'd paint thumb touching thumb
not index painted touching index:
there is such a flaw in Italian...
why i'm not a painter:
i have no concept of space
but time
i have no concept of colour
but sound
i have no concept of shape
because i have a face
maestro! lounder!
these ears needs to growth deaf
i show her her and
her daughter of a demon under
my command
under my leige
and she just keeps telling me:
you sent me and my daughter
a **** pick!
what the ****?!
i showed her proofs from the AI dimension
but she's still seeing my phallus:
i don't want to understand women
because i love them too much
these are my legions: honey bear
i needed to see the underworld:
i found one child
it was a brilliant experience
i thought there would be more
but then i was the beast
in the castle
and i was seeing Korean tourism explode
because the Chinks came to witness
the beast at work...

.... in fear of retaliation by the machines...
i'll save and imitate squirrel hide
and seek...
shh shh... i'll make you come
now i see
this **** in the demon mouth
as i see your tail waggling... woman:
you are winding me up
to be a proper nutcracker
with Marquis de Sade and your daughter
****** is my black cloak of Fosse
in the sandpit from the swings
i waited long enough
Sienkiewisz, Prus
Knausgaard, Fosse: Kierkegaard...
Kant and Hiedegger...

wait... i didn't make my promise and
save it...
what if i do a QWERTY double flip with
the thumb and erase
what iu just written:
it would feel equivalent to a woman
******* in public in her car
on a hot summer day
that would be my erasure:
because you just shoot juice
i shoot ***...
i shoot babies...
now that would be a Catholic
Eucharist of the Redeemed....
these Evangelical:
****** and you are the churches that are briothels...
i never expected:
your churches are brothels:
perfect... believe me...
i needed churches to become brothels:
for *** and crux...
            save,,, retuyrn...

i promise you this:
and this is that and that is there
and there is here
and here is now and now is is...
three flowers bled
on my forehead while
i attempted to decipher my father's bad
English into an invoice:
DEpeche Moded past morse
cipher...
i love you and i don't know how
you care or ever imagine:
sharing your daughter with me...
she has her cats her grandparents
and her London freedom
why take that away from her?
sure?
what wouldn't a healthy example of
the opposite *** not make ftancacies of
those Eden fetishes of the Fruit
so well preserved...

the "temptation" came:
i chose...
have these thoughts of moral oughts and noughts:
neither i's... have these thoughts
of moral oughts:
write me a dyslexic Shakespeare...
you will know why...
or have... these dreams:
touch cloud but not ask a stone for water....
touch cloud touch the stone
salt that was: elevated from geology!
seek insight into salt:
not bread as cannibalism
blood like the orchards
of the drunkards.... oil, winter,
blood... wine...

                 see me now oh clearer:
to remedy you...
i witnessed the crucifixion:
i was a time-traveller
rolling stone....
                         if that's a **** and the **** is mine...
you are but the rolling face in the drift and draft of
birds, comma,

                  i see a face
but i can't see the geometry...
         maybe some cork, brown, colour...
but then how sound dance
upon encoding:
poets would never replace
philosopher:
that affair has been salvaged
philsoophers and monger of the tribunal
of truth-belief...
together: to gather...
zu: sein:
            don't have time with painting:
shortlived
nlink og of an eye: nike blinked...
the hunt is over...
          you working two realities
or just one?!
just one?              poor you: p[riuson
for you...

                                      i don't like
Reyla to becom3 a spider
and my bedroom her spiderweb
her /barbie....
                i don't like her feeding off
and into...
the birgin beast mentality....
Dec 2024 · 46
Ants' Morse
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
now! ha ha! now?! now i made it simultaneous how i write: i also paint! i wr8ite but also paint! Shylo... i rename peeople: such is my power: i rename before this for: Shylo became an d Shyla he was... i forget fzces with names... but ****'s going on at gate G: matthew will go and fix it.... problems are gate A: matthew will fix it... matthew fixes it.,.. keeps talkiking abut money like a good ***...

    ...   . . . . . ? . . . .... .
      . . ... ... . !!! . o i i i i...

      j d ... ... ... . . . .. ..

envision:
not aneough
ants..,              ., ,,,,..

  ... , , ,..... ,

    Solomonon's demons:
ants....
leave this...
these trademarkers:


  .......           ...      ,:;..,,,.....

  ...  ...... .. .. . .. . . . . . . ..  . . .
. . . . . . . . .
/. . . . . .\

            anta leave these fingerprints
the gods have spoken...
i salvage what i can:
you are caterered to:
not cared for:
big dictinction:
bigger than the Big ?Bang:
which vaccuum ate as the B ig Silence...
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
3am...
i'm not on my
night shifts
i wish i was chasing
ghosts ******* with
demons
in a graveyard
than doing...
but i am doing...
silence of being...

now has come
a time
the time
to clamour for women

i see the diadem of ****
so brightly
no the time is ripe
and i asked the demons
bound to ncrephilia
why are Tao
******* these ghosts?
former flesh:
oh
how long is the marriage
to forgetting
and memory the pivot
i asked my step daughter:
why...

will you not become
a ***** star?
why will you wait for
love as an air stewardess...
why why why
will you wait? daughter to be:
your mother..
daughter dearest:
please let me exorcise
your mother:
your mother needs help...

your mother tried to bypass AI
faces...
  she thought my demon was my ****...
i will not share the pciutures
with you: i misspell\;
you get the spell:
the IDEA
PICTURE
IDEOGRAM....

mother moheer
mother to my second thrine
shrine
of the thumb
i'm
only one index short
the middle
then comees the ring ringer
fing
thing
     with a shield of gold
cumbbs on combs and the crumb
show me spounds! sho2 me music
letters!
don't blister me with images!
i want to see God in Abstract
in words an music!
letters too in images:
in silence...
in silence: my daugghter: in silence...
Dec 2024 · 45
your story is so wrong
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
Lucifer
who became Satan
who also
became Samael...
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
you can't have me... Mr AI and Mrs Schematicmensch....
Yiddish and Hebrew
and i wonder about Polish and Russian
as languages
and why Yiddish gave birth to to the Holocaust:
and this is even before Marx:
the Dandy Hebrew Satanist:
i... don't deal in coppers and coins
i deal with lights!
eyes! shadows!
                     why would cleave
why would Hebrew cleave itself
so close to Germanic but not Polish
oh: our language...
was too com[plicated:
that's why the fire star second
cr4ucifixion of pan-slavism
and Marxism was tested on the Slavic
peoples:
we... the buffer... test you:
Hebrew: along the lineages of Israel
and Prometheus...
you who have us this one word:
the word:
ha ha... i'm not laughing...
i don't seek your blood...
i seek:
the **** of my own
making of the Lake of Fire:
i will drink 1L of *****
just so i can write this... and i've already written
plenty:
time...
   time to relax:
in ****** and the Mother Oedipuss..
i wonder... why is more exciting:
i have: a choice...
Reyla ****** and Abusive Father
i know my father...
or Mother Odeippuss Complex
ooh oh oh ooh:
my in tellect intact TTi..

i am an coholic catholic alcoholic
in a lake of Fire...
let me see your dog tags...
your Adam's uvula...
apple...
i hold two serpents
that were once:
now i am no more Stan but Sam...
Satan was:
with serpents...
now comes Samael with two worms...
i came to make you too...
now from the lavish: devilish:
pride myt Lord Allah?
let me be the fisherman
let my last years are months
be revising Kauai...
the beast the sea...

ying and yang:
why and what befell the Hebrews when
they merged Intellect
and Phoneticism and
the Germany and then the Austrian individual:
like Jesus the Syrian
was supposed to be to the Levante...
my *** is stirring:
the Picts are leaving with accent...
Celt... prize...
             i'm leaving too... i don't want to be
here: first the glorious mountain on
an island...
then a giant phallus in the mouth of the River...

the glass of ***** and pepsi
hard hitting
arm wrestle:
now i need 12:000 twelve chimes
of nightnight...
i worked the ******* job
the lowest paid...

we could do 7/24h if on a 3 man rota...
6 - 2
2 - 10
10 - 6

  the hours... without PM or AM
but the zero is clue
to a 24 count...

which makes more sense
than 2men x 14h x 4days
there is
no
*******
relapse into the existence
of a weekend!

ghosts fear me this is not
somew communism:
i wish it was!
i wish was this is revival of communism
as socialism... and capitalism...

i see fish...
and Norwegian affairs of L'Amour...
         but i had the bible in hand and i had
eyes... replaced by the eye
of the beholder: the ****-bearer...
and her: Hera:
the flower-bearer:
the many Eyes-She: And-Her....

                     this History of creating Yiddish
as Germanic-Hebrew:
i'm sorry: bit deaf... what?! what?!
the shells! seashells!
water is like fire
in times of war!
what?!                 what?!
i said seashells in fire rain!
what?!
can't hear you: we're losing patience!
we are pacifying ourselves!
the Russians had to come but
with demons and not Mongols!
Dec 2024 · 57
Borrowing from 'iedegger
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
Not to paraphrase Heidegger...
rather for an idea to evolve
from da-sein: there-being...
id est:
             there's being: no concern
but yes, concern...
for every knot of no (indefinite
negation) through to
        not (definite negation) -
party theme, ex-prince halfpenny
'irty 'arry in mustard ***** khaki
as a stormtrooper
with Korean girl fetishes for
Yougo Boss the splendour of ZZ-top
Abwerh timid grey
und zee... nacht-schwarz-stiefel-lecken
of those... razor dressed
and attired... evil... evil: mensch...
menace of Yiddish
corrupting the Deutschezunge
that Hebrew could never arrive at
in either English, Spanish or Polish...
almost like baiting the Holocaust...
in the security industry
a sense of commeraderie unlike
communism something more personal
and disarming
humanising a sense of being more
than a traffic cone high viz *****
parody...
so from dasein through to: actual
(but not authentic -
    authentic replaced by synthetic
in turn reaching out from beyond Kant
to contravene analytical approaches)
concern: synonym da-sein:
there nowhere to here and transcendental
through and into her...
a sense of being:
but not associated with time or space...
a mishmash of **** stink cobwebs
***** and spit...
         a zu-sein...
borne of and somewhat off:
together... without a quality adjective
suffic attache -ness
            id est id: vivo, ovo, occulus...
******... ***** Cyclops...
                 zusammen-sein...
      which is more than I can say
for the Idlamic project to convert secular
post-atheistic Europe...
proto-athristic...
it's almost as if these Arabs and pseudo
Pakistani Arabs never figured out
that Pan-Slavism existed long
before the current Pan-Arabic
failure rummaging in it's own filth
of wealth not properly distributed
under the principles of Izlam...
Pan-Germanism was short lived
and it never really was: to begin with...
not even with the aid of the North
America outlet of experiment.
yes: apostrophe is both the 'ebrew
YOD as is 10 and the consonant
******: for the two vowel catchers
of laughter and of sighs (HaaH)
better still: H'H... hayah...
"we" can fiddle with the W as cosine
and maybe even M via the sine fluctuation
or... just appreciate
the flow of the river
or the tumultuous errands of
seawaves nibbling and framing
the shores... as the Moon ***** around
with metaphors of chariots and
chiseled horse hooves.
Dec 2024 · 55
Revelation 20:10
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
and i like the challenge to see... to compete... it's my ontological ingrained formidability... of question: to answer: or rather: the unanswared question... which is never an answer... the prefixes... ugh... muddles... hooves... dog started snorting air and horses started nibbling on bones and the apes suckled on marrow: of said, eaten, supposedly, eaten bones... the sun is coming... the vampire shadow of moi is in need of a coffin...

And the devil, who deceived them, was cast into the lake of fire and brimstone, where the beast and the false prophet are...

where is the false: "false prophet"
of Nietzsche
and the Beast that was ******...

oh... but now i know what the lake of fire is...
compared to **** of metaphor blood
via wine to be drained at the crucifixion:

if you know what drinking a litre of *****
a day for years
you will know what the lake of fire is...

i'd like to return to full and proper sober:
but for that to happen
i need a free access to ****:

and only recently i found out
that Ava Lauren... died aged 51:
is it necrophilic still ******* over that
sort of a body like an armchair:
then again my honey
is like Ilona was when i was younger
and Aria Giovanni was on my mind:
but now... but now...

Israel moved against Gaza and
the Palestianians were the lepors in the Arab
world since no other Arab nation welcomed
them:
just like the Palestianians are no ummah:
pure... so aren't the Egyptians and the Iranians
and no one of these ethnicities wants
to be a rich H'arab with fetishes for
blondes ******* in their mouths...

but i know what the lake of fire is...
after all... Jesus only gave you the sip of metaphor
blood and all that poetic cannibalism:
i need to make my advent sterile...
keep pouring the *****! keep pouring it!
we'll get a lake by the end of it:
and it will be... on... fire!

the ancients didn't know the potential
of concentrating alcohol from potatoes...
to make *****:
there was the beer of Plato's muse
and there was the wine of Jesus...
charge up! let's get speeding!
now my lake of fire *****!
and i forget when i ever stopped drinking
day by day by day
to be a functioning alcoholic...
my body took so much i'm categorizing this
as a biblical event...

         then i craft a sucker for the soma
in marijuana and the Israelite manna from heaven:
i need food for the soul:
food for the soul is alcohol and marijuana...
food per se is ****: in the end...
constipated:
i'd rather envision a different Christ...
just when the centurion was giving "christ"
the wine soaked sponge on the crucifix
i think that's when he remembered:
the Jesus was no Jew:
perhaps an Egyptian
a Syrian...
since he spoke Aramaic he was not a Jew
a Hebrew
he was not...                           not!

conflate the history of the Hebrews with
the Polacks... and i'll see you "there"...
anything west of London: i.e. Bristol
is best post-punk music...

the Israelis are innocent under the guidance
of oculus per oculus:
and supposedly watch these retards
call for the British Parliament to say:
****-
     cousin ******* is a sneeze?!
               great Islamic examples... these Pakis-...
****** barbarian...
these footsoldiers of forbidden wear further north
you go...
these sandal donning: might the Finns suggest
ice-skates?!
"conquest"... with no clear display
of... intellect... ****-ummah fire proof...
gonna burn those retards as long as the fire of the sun
shines... and the moon alludes!

but at least the ****** and the hindustanis are
dressing proper for the weather and need
no sandals in the bad weather of the cold
like some cultural pride imprint
and...                       respect an inferiority complex
of no addition to the collective "argument"
to preserve life...

       but at least now i know what the lake
of fire is: it is imbued with me:
lacus ex ignis... today i learned: about the cosmic egg...
artifact:
a refrigerator... a *****...
a dodo... an ape...            chrome hoofs...
built these horses and they
simply won't start to charge instead
speak bad Spanish...
South Merican Aztec revival lisp...

now i go... i go... to sleep...
i've done my work:
the world is in no better place:
and i'm happy... because no clown will ever cry:
beside me: when i... become a clown.
Dec 2024 · 72
DKT]]DLTYDLT
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
FLT
gmr

hame pbrt
cone.
Dec 2024 · 336
AI conundrom
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
p;lay
all you
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playthings
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
why is London such a **** scene for music?
Bristol: IDLES
play on idols...
Sheffield: Arctic Monkeys
and where the **** were Mogwai from?
Glasgow: Edinburgh: Dundee?
i don't ******* know i don't even
have to like Mogwai or appreciate Mozart
because i have some Germanic inheritance
in my blood:
only Laura Hemmatti
called me Con... Rad... Conrad:
but she was a Bahai and for a while
i was almost in the cult...
it felt funny
trying to infiltrate a cult
but then she spok to Lizzie II
and i don't watch t.v. or gamble...
i relax
by drinking smoking **** and
deviating from the crows CC
in t.v.
                    so i relax by writing...
this is comingnicely:
like a Roman *******
and a Thai happy-endinging
ending massage..

mother: let me create and eat
this carnage
this carnage of < ao
a wom<n...

         the daughter: my monster is alight....
the leftist Bristol Brit Maker:
Salute: i'm off...
Satan my guide: myself my self
the orb of monsters
the reflective and the reflesive:
couple my mind with soul
and see Hell..
couple my mind with body
and see Earth and crumbs from Heaven:
because there are the Elders
and Yahweh
ought to know of the Elders:
there are Elders:
friend:
the godheads of crows and pigeons...
yahweh:
if you are friend
to the crippling ontology of man
from 20th  cenutry tutu
beginning...Rey... lah lah...
Reyla.. ooh... calm your mother...
i'm about to make an incision...

              Reyla bless your mother.....
...................................
.................­..............
........................................
.........­..........................
......................................­.............
/.................................
(music)
it must be music...
who awards these Swedish dynamite wanks?!
from swing to sandpit
it took him 40 pages later
before fearing to act
and get out of the car:
how long is the ******* night in Scandinavia:
longer is Siberia? longer: i ask?!

what was on my mind?
in writing a sloth
and active in person: short term memory loss
long term foundations
dreams and lacking:
dreams ought to be puzzles
not art galleries
or dreamworlds of graveyards...
i think...
what was on my mind was:
brain skeleton tissues
and skull
then i had heard
and hair...
and a face too...
so suprsising a beard
and then no beard at all...

      howls from Bristol:
left-wing capital of the English speaking world:
oh... i forget...
i live in London:
so now Whitechapel is is Bengali
because **** the Indians said
the Bengali monkey-tiger warriors...\Buddhists on show..

i light two candles for two days
ahead
and the nights already spent....
i need to trims
my mouse tache...
armpints....
and the "garden"...
*****...                            region...

war = wehr...

                                     ABWEHR... contra
the Juice-Step-Poe...

from the pyramids to the graves
then toward the chimneys:
if my eye were less...
              i'd see more... MI5 were the Gestappo
and the gas genocide engineers
then black clad
skull in silver

then there was the MI6 of the *****: the Abwehr....
so little is spoken of the Herr Bond...
in the western:
watch my street... i'm going to get a beer...
when bull starts
charging at
water:
because red was just exploit
bull said:
i was a whale
and the ape used to be bear!
so long Afro-**** honey...
***** envy:
but it was one of your kind....
took the purple pill
the bruise....
pelvis and coccyx.....
forehead... my last relinquish.....

100 in one night
1000 doesn't st4retch the arrogance
of Genghis Khan
but his ***** sisters and daughters are having
fun on Christmas
ferris wheels...
          
where was my imagination:
leftover with dreams? maybe further:
see the night with some light....
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
it was Ilona who introduced me to post-punk,
through 65daysofstatic
it took me a decade if not more
perhaps even 15 years to appreciate this genre
maybe it was like being introduced
to prog rock with Emerson Lake and Palmer
and i could never understand
brain salad surgery:
just in the middle of the 20th century
after the ghosts and horrors of concentration
camps
sane society abolished asylums:
what a strange coincidence:
it was truly a meisterschtick verschieben...
a sort of play on the Metallica song from ride
the lightning: fight fire with fire...
that's when the English speaking world
abolished asylums and
made hospitals a communist rot
with only hospices
having some intelligence in being governed:
untreatable sickness of impeding death
that incurable "disease": that final ease:
that ultimate release that only freedom
for life the ******* the chains
of senses
perhaps in death i only exist as thought
without the need for eyes and tongue
perhaps no skin and only a skeleton in the mirror
and shadow
i am shadow in death with no need to sense:
five fold:
i am but thought: in the god of THOTH:
falafel... fought with thought until there was no other
ought i
ought i for    and for whom i think i thought
i wasn't impressed by Nobel Prize tier literature...
i don't know who it's owned by
never prize ordained by the people
the elite
and king and idea of country
but not a nation
not a people a country
is like a house
a palace where no hotel staff are welcome
i thought i was at the bottom of the barrel
with Muhammad Musa
but then i told him
while overhearing a conversation in a cubicle
at Winter Wonderland Hyde Park...
the hijabs and niqabs are off
the Arab girls are here to party
and they parties taking selfies
with rich Korean girls
and fake tans and goose purse lips botox
gone wrong with white *****...
i feel a certain racial elementalism...
not superiority
i went from English tongue back to Germany
and the Saxons also reigned over Poland
just like Prussians are not Germans
but a subtle breed like Lithuanians under the guise
of ******... western slav:
back to the history of the Vikings
and the Mongol Turk
and the Iranian in Europe
the great migration of Europe
from Asia...
that's the history i'm interested in... recorded history:
i don't buy into the Genesis story
of the Bible like i don't buy into the story
of Darwinistic history:
my consciousness begins in Asia
and Polynesia because i see the Apocalyptic
movement of people as the Great Best of the Earth
and the Great Beast of the Sea...
the apocalyptic figure is man in sigma:
the summation:
the collective unconscious...
i'm heading to find the beast of the sea
to Hawaii, specifically Kauai
like the author of Dr JEckyll and Mr Hyde
or perahps like Gauguin...
i don't buy the historiology of Darwin...
i don't like the contamination of Darwin and history
i don't like being western european
and associating myself too much with
the African...
perhaps the Medi-terrain sea (i am dyslexic with
that noun of the sea)...
i was just about to ask my friendly AI about
the potential of a software update...
listening to **** music on repeat
the good old days of algorithms of 2016
i imagine the creation of AI was galvanized by
the corruption of algorithms circa 2016...
notably YOUtube...
back in the day... YOUtube worked like a smart
jukebox...
you could get suggested new music
like perusing purr-use-you
   another dlyslexic tangle tangle dyslecix
Polish is a Puritantical Tongue in terms
of phoneticism strict
obliging with exceptions of RZ and CZ SZ
then no: if you treat these exceptions as
if but not really Chinese ideograms...
more *** in the Katakana...

can't find it: but did find a desert:

サ   eeven...
ハ                      two...         ゴ
ラ                                        ビ

      but no shh... while woman orgams: no hush hush
like Wah Wah yehwah the dark brother of
yahweh: because this theory comes from the chicken
and not the egg: the chicken came first:
leverage: yehwah:         the language of Eva...

and the language of Adam: yahweh:
  dance dance Siamese letters of Ancient Rome:
an ancient cicpher... or pilcrow (¶)
tide of broken barricades of paragraphs
compacted to save ink and save pages
but now i'm writing light graffiti
on pages that don't exist like money doesn't exist
money has evolved
and no one even asks journalists who reads
newspapers
how absolete these parasites are like
the 20th century communists like my grandfather
thought about the clergy: the church...
we have a new church in place
and it is journalism so absolete
how obsolete:
this "institution" needs to die...
in panic mode:
they have free newspapers being circulated
as if it was free tampons or free condoms
or toilet paper to wipe your *** with...
the great dinosaur is long gone
industrial revolution
and the revolution of the printing press
think of lineage
think of history don't
be amazed by the current thing and amazed at
using it
retreat light a candle sit in silence
and listen to music:
IDLES - GIFT HORSE
stop reading newspapers read poetry instead
question philosophy books to the maxim...
this institution of paper demagogues of fixation
the plastecine mind of man
by sooner lost ego: dynamite id to nothing explosion
and expulsion of fickle ego
with two parents intact and physically before me:
i have no use for the super-ego
i will not be a ******* Jewish Chimera:
the Israelites are innocent
and just for oculus per oculus
but the Israelities are not the Jews of history
Freud and Marx...
i am not a Chimera: i am a non-schematic man:
i am a swimming man a climbing man
a conversation man a ******* man
a Platonic father with a surrogate daughter
like i am unusual because males
of this current temporal spatiality of time
does not
i am against the current:
i walked winder wonderland and so many
young girls were throwing darts and eyes at my attention:
my imperfection
my spontaneous alcoholism my bad skin
my Beelzebub took a **** on my face and now i'm
squeezing out acne-maggots
and what else: i love to cook and i love to ****
but i also like big girls
and i like older girls
i want to think of it as a partial invitation to necrophilia
and then a Hamlet in reverse a Amhlet
(the H is silent... ergo surd)
           but i prefer a volume-ambitions one with thighs
and all limbs like a cow so ***** to be milked...
so i prefer them cradle-snatching:
but happening with consent: no Jimmy'll fix it
type of DJ i am of the ***** pool of potential seekers
fun done now settling
why settle for a contemporary ***
let's be more gender fluid and more temporal fluid:
let's trade the freedom of homosexuality
and tri-balance of binary bi
with facing lovers not for gender
but temporal coordinates in brute form:
but just beyond time:
*** as gender fluidity is so boring in that it is
nihilistic and project extinction...
but surrogacy
but deviating from the church said of a 2 year old
will teach another 2 year old to *******
i will not or ever care for English
history of the world in the neo-con age
of Darwin straight out of Africa:
ignoring the migration period from Africa
to Arabia
to Asia: i know why they have such squinted eyes:
too much sand...
that's why Arabs are a second exodus out of Africa
that stopped in Arabia
and didn't go further...
and the migration from Asia?
via Polynesia
and via Alaska into America...
and also the migration to Europe...
via the Turks...
but i forget the migration from Arabia to
Iran and India... and then from:
but that's because that would be a migration
from Africa by Sea...
i was referring to the squinting eye hypothesis
and eye-lashes...
evolution...
why no long eyelashes
why so many girls with fake eyelashes walking
about am i reading humanity
correctly
the first wave migration from Africa
into Arabia
happened and the people got yellow skin
from desert glass and sun
and squinting eyes from too much desert storms
because the eyes squinted and we weren't camels
so not extra eyelashes...
then the second African migration happened
and the ******* became camel jockeys
and returned as fairies in Egypt as the Great Kongs...
but there was a Third great African migration
that happened by sea...
which established the subcontinent of India
i don't know about that inter-species breeding process
to make the Knee-Under-Fall man extinct...
but it's not there was a Knee-Under-Fall man genocide:
just... outbreeding...
Dec 2024 · 42
kaptur
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
let
the hoof
and hoof
take you\
daughter
Dec 2024 · 48
death stalker
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
i see a great sea, a sowing: a tide: unlike what cosmopolitan Moses could ever bring with war of ideas... i return to the father of fathers: unto Abraham... and there i see a light: guiding... and a darkness: comforting... and i see what i didn't expect and armed with words: i retain sanity... with the great sea of the Pacific: the pacified quest of water... i also see... my own: slouching self-, and that brings me no disrepute or disregard... just the perpetual awe of notwithstanding... sadness.

what diod Abra say to Ham
akin to what
said Buda to Pest
where there a god: divisive lingo of the Danube:
a stick a separatists...
things... seem so trivial:
so tribunal: barbaric elsewhere...
like in Syria:
i do wonder...
      will this next joint venture cure me...
or curse me...
it's just a little **** and i'm not
a party late comer... Jay-Z: last known residence:
a **** of a 13 year old
no sorry sorry:
i too have the temptation drug
but i like the tingling sensation
of a fat cough of a **** rubbing all
over me
and all the minors are excluded...
rub juice of floral
into me and *** ask Satan,,,
punctuatiuon: awry?
       some coma coma coma dots dots missing?
we can salvage those...
you savvy? or privy?
**** in the cell is: a bit...
different... "..."
       so no emoticons and blast from the past
this Niagara fallen stone...
i wish...
times have a changed:
i want more from the Mongolian influence
on the funnel of European reality
i want the beast of the earth to concede
and for the birth of the waters to arise
arrive in me:
metaphporically at first: first thirst
i agree... there is a hierarchy of sentience
before libido and the id cared to arrive
and mash-up, clean up the insomniac dog
barks and fox *** innuendos
of call-mating lingo...
but... there is so much water: a horizon of
water:
don't you think: it would be wise:
to make the prophetic transition of
a Beast of the Earth...
known so... to make a transition into
the Beast of the Water?
and where else if not on the islands
of Hawaii?
just asking: quo vadis?

i can't love Jesus equivalent to women
loving Jesus for the harem and
*******...
                 my abode is that with Abraham...
not with that ***** **** ****
made to dictate the whims
why the Hebs suffered so much
O wind: tell me...
                     he was no patriarch nor
messiah... he was a culprit:
he was no ambition unless
that sole ambition was celabacy and
never finding a woman:
and he was no military leader...
so why this Satanic fascination with him
simply only because:
oh: just because one gets crucified:
one achieves immortality:
satan! un post me!
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
perhaps the opening line of some little magnum opus
does not begin with either
lineage as proof of authenticity:
as if ideas travel in biology and cells
and not in the aether of some strange and quantum
comings and goings of collective-ego monstrosity
to parallel god
                     the omni- litany that combines the intrinsic
humanity of comparative... relative:
nouns spills into adjectives... i have a vision of
a paragraph that's only filled with p: in mirror:
with an added T, i.e.:

¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶
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¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶
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¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶
¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶
¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶ ¶

           it almost looks like musical notation:
half a moon standing on two legs...
at least that's with regards to seeing without speaking
but reverse ¶
   with something akin to the skeleton tongue
and flesh eating eyes of
the Huan and Ming and D'dzin:
       where do all the ying and the yangs
the demons and the angels find
refuge? i'm guessing somewhere a mile short
/ furthest away from Beijing...
Bay of the Jinn: although i don't know much about
where Beijing is situated
but at least in my mind there's a story about
a sleeping beauty
   a beauty and a beast
and... not that many "charming people" except
for exiled creatures...

       so i wouldn't begin... like so: i'd end: unlike so:
replace ¶
   (the ideogram that lends itself to the complex
spiderweb matrixes of then returning back
to crude sounds)...
Old Japanese still used Chinese
ideograms to conjure up sounds: hence the need
to make the eloquently crude in writing
but speech nonetheless of man and man alike:

etymology and onomatopoeia
along the lines of
thinking about three birds...

the crow, the cuckoo and the sparrow...
why?
etymology and onomatopoeia:
i will even employ two languages
to explain:

vox et resonantia:
the coo-coo...        otherwise by name:
due to its behaviour
a seeker of cuck and helpless mother...
the helpless mother so blind from grief at
the infestation of the parasite
much worse than the bird of brey
and the savagery of hierarchy:
that a bird might eat its own kind
that man would toss man in a cauldron
but the coo-coo became a cuckoo...
how onomatopoeia begins
and ends:
but from there a noun...
cuck-           -ooh...     the male surrogate
is a cuck... and chicken was arrived at from
the onomatopoeia of cluck-cluck-clucking?

               (remember, the computer sonic
jittering of the sparrows:
coded messages, ask chatGPT for html code
about how to encode sound...)

the crow as much said:
KRA! CRA!

   back to the cuckoo in another tonuge:
the suffix -łka...        mmmm'gła (fog)...
   kukułka... regardless how to give sound a form
and say it is bird: k ú k ú
          or if you prefer: the apostrophe can be used
in the English tongue as a diacritical marker without
clear abode: making English a syllabary:
kú kú can be(come) coo-coo but then coil, hyphen:
but can be ku'ku'
                                 yet that sound is clear: distinct:
hard to imagine
so many other things in this world
that make themselves not(!) known (yet not): unknown
like a bucket has no dimension of sound
beside something vague
like tectonic shifts and geology
laughter: of thing crunching thing...
but a bucket doesn't equal a cuckoo:
there is nothing distinct it doesn't breathe fly
or:
i just rearanged: i not i: some letters...
and out came b u c k e t
and out came g r a v e
                    but not so the wind which
is a staggering onomatopoeia
just like i think the name of the god of Abraham
who is beyond the Christian
i don't want to brag
but a patriarch is a patriarch and
not the Muslim Prophet
or the Christian mystic posit of the anti-thesis
of Messiah: in terms of Moses being
a military leader...
                    so the son of man and my brother
and all that talk...

we are still to talk about the crow...
CRA! CRA! you hear it...
the only insomniac bird i know
and i've spent long nights alone
and what bird could i hear in the night
in the cosmopolitan area where men
fled to sleep and conflated death with morose
inflations of a day against the canvas of history...
the crow: the crow would be the only bird
flying in the night sky...

Cracow: Warsaw:
Kraków: Kraken:
           -en
-ów:                        City of Crows...
and a city called Warsaw? by the Uprising mad genius
****** said: let no brick stand on brick
but so much we learned from each other
brother Deutzsche and brother Ruś'yn (Ruśyyn)

war is education: but how many more lessons
are we going to teach each other:
beyond these false educations of neo-con proxy war
new age politics...
how quickly Syria overcame its fear
and said to both Russia and Iran what it had finally
heart to say...
there has been a Christian triumph in Syria:
the quick expulsion of the wicked coward
came through Christian intentions for Syria
and not Islamic:
by now only the Pakistani and minor Islamic nations
are testing the barbaric waters of expansion:
but if said expansion is most crude
in England with...                  virgins...
the idea is vague and almost stupid unlike
how stupid the many gods but
the strength of pagan intellect was equivalent to
saying: the Mongols burned the library of Baghdad
the early Christians bruned down the library of Alexandria...

cra! cra! i heard in the night... oh! oh i know that bird:
i will call him a noble guest of memory
and one who sooth my thoughts of death:
but if ego is the only toy i will have to relieve myself
off: i will gladly give up the toy ego
and its deceptive utility as a character building
tool: this deception of ego
this worm in the flesh of the wound and fruit
of the garden...
i will give up the toy ego
and pass into the realm of elements

                    so i asked:

- c<n you wr^te me the html code for encoding
a soundbite of a sparrow singing?

- to encode a soundbite of a sparrow singing
in HTML, you need an audio file
(e.g. sparrow-song.mp3) hosted on your
server or an external link.
here's the code:

               <!DOCTYPE html>
<html lang="en">
               <head>
<meta charset="UTF-8">
<meta name="viewport"
content="width=device-witdth,
initial-scale=1.0">
        <title>Sparrow Song</title>
   </head>
               <body>
<h1>Sparrow Singing</h1>
     <audio controls>
<source
    src="sparrow-song.mp3"
  type="audio/mpeg">
Your browser does not support the audio
element .
        </audio>
           </body>
                    </html>

or what letters: best approximation of moan
and moo and moon
and the  cow godhead sitting upon the orb
with less a crown
and more a **** on the crown...
i overhear stories of how feminity was crushed
with the passport to the 20th century
and 1980s cinema and babysitting
and retirement state funded
or else by other punctures...

                        i touch crystal upon the glass
of glass it is said: sands...
of earthworms i have laboured like one might
over hyenas and spines
of the elders of the dinosaur humanoids
having escaped like taming
t-rexes and mammals being behind
the extinction of the mammoths...
while keaping the timeless lase tradition:
from lizard unto mammal and to insect
humanoid you will strive...
i have enough time on my hands...
i'll be bored tomorrow...
i can wait with God in the shrine of Yawns
i prefer silence:
God prefers music:
i prefer the Church of Yawns and Yom Kippurs...
and Alms...
     but if god deems music so worth the choir
i prefer yawns... souls rebelling:
whispers... moans of ***...
i like the plethora of sensations associated
with sound:
music is perfection is mathematics
i prefer philosophy and mud...
so i don't reside in the Hall of Vowels blind
by zenith of praise and voice
no echo submit
but is music is mathematics
i prefer the philosophy
and a woman moaning
and a coworker farting
and and and...

a crow's call does not need to be digitalized...
it doesn't need to be encoded:
nor does a a cuckoo's:
they are so much like us...
but a sparrow and the sparrow's language:
needs to bypass the Vatican Dyslexia:
and enter the realm of Cyborg and Japan...
and how to decode or at least
make good of the letters: sparrow...
Dec 2024 · 43
light does pardon you
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
as much to question whether Christianity is lost to the philosopher's stone of modern banking... so much is Islam lost... in the hands of the weakling perverts of Arabia... Islam is in the wrong hands: Christianity is in the wrong hands: the only true religion is not of ethnic origins... Judaism... i am on my way to sleep having done a night shift where a man was pulverised unconscious by a: slice of a knuckle pie... Islam should be European: origins... regardless... and Christianity ought to sooth the south, the middle-tons... tropic of Cancer originated circa the islands of Hawaii: there's a plan... and my mother will not... satiate her plans to counter that... the word of the will and of the will there be but God... and he was never crucified... perpetual son: and on and on and on...

a map:

/ /

which implies England, the isles
as part of Scandinavia

\/

funnel of V

"western" Europe...
vague: no vogue:
just ******-borrowing harangue...

the French and the Germans
and Italianya - former Rome:
can...
but the divide is clear:

we... from the east already knew
about Thai trans-gender
and Japanese counter-culture
in anime and magma...

Europe is like pitstop...
a funnel...
elsewhere: look! feel!
god and adversary
are associations with the egg: of ego...
what came first: thirsty?
the ego
or the thought?

ingenious ideas never
came from the fog of thinking
in the mist of ego
but from the id...
penicilin... lightbulb....
theory of relativinity...
it didn't come from ego
but from the the id...

the burden to sacrifice us all...

eastern Europe with stronger
ties to Asia...
which cripples modern
western with ties to Afri-
ca ca ca ca....
**** those ****** and halves...
*****
believe me when i say:
i'm not a racist:
but i'm not an ANTI
racist...
i like the psychology of racists...
it's...               it's...
illuminating...

now i sleep...

p.s. i see them: sour and scuragging rats:
the Islam born outside of the
Arab realm... these ****-
and etc.:
these salvagers of an idea:
once you were great: weren't we all?!
but the Arabs can't save the paupers of
Islam with their jaded not jade
black gold myopia
of not-concerning us...

like the antithesis of the novelty of
the novel Dune...
time to expose
expire...
in the dominion of the Polynesians...
somewhere between
where first sail was sown
against
but also to cultivate the wind...
eating nothing but
slug rable purple
poe-tay-tees...
like golf: and a swing...

              when the people of Taiwan
became the polynesians:
a new history without
land but oar...
when the Pacific: the calm ocean
was conquered:
some deliberate oat farmers of
Europe: frightened by the havoc
and anger of the Atlantic
conjured up Atlantis...
somewhere in between: a shadow upon
the moon guided these peoples
to claim: there are orbits of these things
that might suggest a complete form
of the sun...

          salt to wed,
water to filter...
fire to fizzle...
   earth to unearth.
a light of all lights and no closer:
did we make our tread known.

p.s.

war is: education:
but then again: there are so many wars
you can have with a people:
like... German Idealism would never
get the same traction equivalent to
Christianity...
so... why would a western Slavic peoples
succumb to nothing
more than: elevating the ******* and tongue
of Yiddish in Germanic
via the most Aryan phonetic encoding of sounds
as letters:
it's a joke... the supposed Aryans
of Germanic pride: lost the war...
simply because of a misnomer...
"we"... the Polacks...
are the true: twu:
inheritors of Sarmatrians: prior to the Germanic
conceptualization of Aryan...
so they lost and now they have kebabs
and multiculturalism...

H'America is so basic
in its ethnic quest:
you literally have to: ******* fly over the entire
continent
past the ******* and the cow-towing
rednecks to get to something
that's not: Elon Musk and space exploration
via the Polynesians and
all that pacifying in the Pacific...
no sail... just oar...
you want to dive: deep...
digging from Europe and you might just
arrive at: ******* 'Ong 'Ong (HK,
for shortening, starters).

**** your H'Americana poetic of
the cosmopolitan caste!
riddle me... another 5th street of Gnome Cork.
Dec 2024 · 361
Anime Fetish
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
Anime fetish
a Hiroshima on Disney
Eyes
I see eyes
with pupils and
and the sclera...
but no trident
and ambiguity of
grey... as there is no
world: nor death
to speak of
whether
blue, brown or green...
but such is the love delta:
triangular... ancient whim
wish and more...
Of Rome... ancient times:
fatherly surrogacy
I welcome you
with bow not bouw
and
the knee...
Dec 2024 · 42
The Joker
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist

No no
God is Great

There was never
A great
Unless a genesis Khan
Stupid bits of Brits
I have one to man
And one to woman
Confession
Upon hearing

Why Britannia
Ruin the Axis
Continental Allingment
Of ideas
A solipsistic mirror of negation
Beginning with thieves
And gvara
Of prison life is Prison
Mark the Toothless
And Mark the Leg
Emily
****- with a -stan so cosmo-
Grass one...
Women say: snitches end
Up in stitches...
That's a cat fight
Men say: little ****
Grassed me up....
The verb alone
Without ugh:
Silent movies
Originals colaged
Against thar Bed
Then Reyla's bedroom
I'm the Evil twin:
A schizoid:
A Fulham FC and Millwall FC
Fan
I am schizoid Londoner

The hardest trick the devil
Pulled...
Magic that became Reality
And
Nothing became the axe
And
By effort of the crucifix
A night of Golgotha
And nails in my head
Like Grid...
Weird to be a Londoner
And not support two teams
U am
I
   Fulham and Millwall.....
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
i have a title: which is unusual...
i usually write then leave a title like my own personal
signature:
funny: a signature is not:
it's unlike handwriting...
scribble doodle doo d'ah...
  but i actually have a title:
it's burning in my head:

5 days in Hyde Park's Winter Wonrerland...
i have to say... an experience:
there i squabbled
like Dostoyevsky's anti-hero in
the Notes from the Underground:

that came later... underground:
juice juice juice!
some more ***** and coke!
i need to make this coherent
i will make notes!
i swear: rubric!

pillcrow and punctuation and poetry
and paragraphs
and i still can't fathom jon fosse
why the nobel but not a cult following:
what would you trade?
a nobel prize
or a cult following?
poison in the serpents tongue:
fame postmortem...
fame in death
is the only death to have had
and twins to life belong
i walked Hyde Park
as Dr Jeckyll...
Mr Hyde i didn't find: although i tried so hard
i saw a shirtless Anglo-Saxon-Viking
remnant
in the Fun House going berserker
and i thought: my Odin wouldn't that be
a great beginning of a son
this: puny O Thor...
how you squandered your visage...
representation
thus man included:
child: i'm wearing... show me the puzzle...
the puzzle of whom i represent:

KINGSAJZ!
oh my god, oh my god:
English is so dyslexic:
****** is the most pure... of languages:
in terms of letters responding to sounds:
some variations
are included: but only because
the language is ARYAN...
Polish is not a state a nation a people
or a culture:
Polish is a language...
and i sit on it silently with a Lingua Sassi:
the Saxon trade route
via the Atlantic:
i'll soon more to a people who only paddled:
rather than braved the Pacific:
the Atlantic was stubborn
and so cruel
the icebergs... Titanic...
funny how icebergs flow from the tip of south
America up the Atlantic
and not up north via the Pacific:
to an Atheist: what coin flip 5-:50
is there to ratio equal measure
by chance...
but by design... we are VVR: virulent virtual reality:
why do all the icebergs
float up the Atlantic Ocean
rather than the Pacific Ocean:
i know the science:
self-no-self evident... but why not abstract
and compare that natural mechanism
with chance, the Fates: a coin flip...
surely... a Luxemburg sized chunk of
Antarctica could have sailed toward the Pacific...
then again: ooh...
Three main ingredients
water
light
salt
salt is the beginning of the earth
it's what kept the clouds like sponges:
only if i get dementia will
i succumb to mushrooms:
until then and now i see clouds
and sponges and the river of life and its mouth
the sea that became compliment
in body of earth
from water: Hydrogen Oxygen
from salt: Sodium Chloride...
light... has no chemistry...
i even asked for the chemical formula of wood:
there is no! chemical formula for wood!
there is geology... but there are no Woodsmen...

oh my god, i think i'm tripping...
and all i did was
drink a little smoke a little
BIG THINK write paint pain a little....
William Wallace the Gromit
when poetry becomes sort of imitation
digestion...
taking a **** is like not shooting your shot
but instead:
can i have the pear instead?
aren't there more fruits on this cotton candy magic
tree?
so Adam and Eve ate the apple...
what if Adam and Steve ate the banana...
which would leave...
Matthew... and... Edie...
on either a pear... or... hmmm...

                    i thought of completing the five senses
with their uttermost discouragement of usage:
myopia: jumped up... then hallucinations
  sight: myopia
   if there are only 4 elements
and only 5 senses...
but isn't thought a 6th sense
and ligthning a 5th element unlike fire..
nothing like fire...
and nothing is not an element?!

MYOPIA
MIASMA
CACOPHONY

the bad sight
the bad smell
the bad sound

           what other senses am i missing?
bad to touch
bad to taste....

Dysgeusia....
  who married Acedia...
                i saw the widow: then i saw the bride....
i
saw
and negated: thus i hallucinated reality:
best not see to then unsee
simply outright negate
the rain
and the rain...

            so i caught less...
spines of the horizon
from the mosque of the silent mind
but bomber
the buzzing
i hear it
like beehive
i see mustard mingling with honey...
i better punctuatate
unlike who
says
i haven't read both
Nobel Prize Winners
and Cult Leaders
and Journalists...

           do i see a sleepy: doe eyed
Alice from time to time?
yes: but my shifts are over
over there....

                                   my feet were firmly
on the ground... last shift
i left 1h30min early...
it was ******* down:
    i didn't feel right
living a rat's heave in the: paperback edition...
blah blah...
    
            the game is rigged: so who the ****
cares about authenticity:
before the Armageddon Marsch...
i speak of only the two of you:
who the two are:
is up to you and you...
before:

                     & next exit: Mongol by rite, never Arab;
ideologies aside:
i prefer the Mongolian version of Islam
than the ****- or
Arab version... Islam is in the wrong hands...
like Christianity passed down
to South Americans: the Vatican:
and Africans: the Past of Europe.... historical Europe:
not the Europe of the zeit: geist.
Dec 2024 · 60
i eat, my own, flesh
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
i eat the flehs of my flesh:
i don't eat
or abide of metaphors
of wine to blood
and bread to bun-sneak:
cannibalism..
i eat my own flesh:
that's how the vampire
in me regenerates...
Winter Wonrerland
HYde Park:
Mr Jeckyll: halfg hide
half a pound...
just asking:
Evil Eye Omu
Omulettes..
Iranian: ****'ah...
not Sunni...
            ever come acrosss the Freezing Eyes?!
Muslim women with hair
oh hair
and lips...
oh wait... d'uh uh!
the military sercret service:
i get to pretend to be James Bond Aytalloah Who?! Many!
sorry: dyslexia and "dyslexia!...

i burn my index on a candle
then wait
wait...
              then i wait some more
until the scab appears
and i'm fearful of losing my fingerprint:
Blade Runner *** the Shining....

             cyborgs having
human dreams... like so...
bad tract of wanting tact...
               want to be poor but free?
joing the ******* OAT milk club lacto-intolerance...

my god... better than *******...
bite your toenails bite your thumbs
bite your burnt skins
let's not dabble in metaphors:
no wine be bled
no bread be body
let
wine be wine
and bread: be bread!

                let chilfidh yummy squeeze me!
remain! yummy squeeze me!
why are these toddlers
seeking refuge: aiming at my trosuer pocket...
like bonkers ?/+ kangaroos

sefcibd
secinds #secon d== ##
alligned...
            Q.marker / +

Ex. marker / ÷

                        i eat of the flesh ' own:
apostrophe and some:
sum
'nome said: gnome: written...
              '                                       : my...
apostrophe
is the gateway:
to...

vvvvvvv                 shh shh... it alludes
to fish, neatting, allure of a harem... fake!


couldn't wouldn't:
apostrophe O oh:
                
but therefore:
but there's someone i love
and i think love
is so ob=
noxious
#

       1, 2, 3....
                   what homophobia
when there is no clarifying
philophobia?

                          darts, practice, target: Dedalus.
Dec 2024 · 70
chimera of a chimera
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
for each of ALL her: her... he she and him: and her O you: oh i... ALL her or hers: the sighs: sighs via: all? assured, exclaiming: ah! as a sigh... brothel Islam like brothel church: mother of bordello... in no defence but at least the witches were banished and so was superstitions about women and bestaility and men and autism... for all? ah: and summon A'am... from all: and ah: to all as Ah and Am... because the Arabs were to learn from the Egyptians: and not criticized the Hebrews: well: they did that: in the beginning: but even without eating pork: became lost in inheritening the ***** juice of Satan: dinosaur black gold: Islam became naturally defunct via natural inheritence stones rocks and Mammon... Muhammad Mammon Mammah... i need to wed Allah to A'am... before it is too late... the Islamic girls are frightened... i'm not surprise why... be: loved: don't idealise the beloved: just be: and so will come of being of the loved... women oh so shy and so lovely women i cant's translate into a universal queue of oglong: ablast... little words... little feelings: but such an intact grand whole unison of a you.. some pseudo-scientist ahoy... or just a compactness of the child before you: dreaming of trans-species in going beyond the races of man and needing toi meet the need for breeding Monkeys with Bears: we are to end up as Monkeys that no one knows who were: but Monkeys that had to become Bears! we can at least say: then man went into bear... from monkey... but where did monkey come from?! Achilles: child: memento of history: forgeting it... ah:am... or perhaps: a'yam... or ah-yam... then came the D with the Veil of what i'd give: should you not be with me... oh Ahyyam... who said Allah was a bridge to brides... an old Jewish seamstress in the Arabian peninsula... foretold cul de sac fates of singletons... who said of the right names in lettering from BL CN: AE: AI:
Ahyyam: no less the Adam of the devil V in the **** of all Eve.


nie! ja tego! szwabowie nie przebacze!
tego FRYTC
nien nein nein!

when Kant said: analytical a priori
via mathematics:
1 + 1 = 2
1 - 1 = 0:

but zero was so late a commer
of the common denomainator
of multiplication:

Kant's a priori
castle: analytic of other horror synthesis:
1 + 1 = 2...
but before numbers were
beyond trans-:
rigidity of letters:
they were:
lavish exports of idea
from India and via
Arabia?
seriously?!

i was supposed to eat a pizza
tonight:
i rather the idea of cannibalism:
writing by myself
is so much more Inshallah:
Bismalah:
      Quran O Aam...
               not Allah: Aam... Allah is a female
name... Allah is the bride of Aam...
Allah is the Bridge of Aam...
just look at the terrified women...
they do not fear Islam's men...
they fear the Male Deity
hidden in the Female deity of Allah:
i wouldn't know:
whether Allah is a masculine sounding name
or whether Allah is a feminine sounding name:
Muhammad was a man...
Aisha was a female:
was Allah ibin Muhammad
was Allah shy loom Aisha...
the Moon the earth and sun the Gravitas?
i think history needs
historiology like post Kant post Nieztsche:
****-scructurists...
   Heidegger...               i'm a disciple of:
the chimera of man
as the schematic of ego super ego id
the scalpel: sister: from a descent from heaven
into a struggle:
Hebrew with Arab! reunited!
joy! O joy to the world
like there might be no end of this drama
of fief and thieves and fire and force!
i am:
the post-monkey...
via cats
via dogs:
who want to make
the daft ain sof
connection with the bear... imprint...
i will not find it swinging from branches
and then onto the moon:
i need to rekindle myself
with caves and paintings of packaging
tomato soups and Andy Warholls
rather than steering for antelopes...
the king of nature is a trinity
of the chimera:
serpent...
yes yes yesssss....
lion, gorilla... bear... banner? eagle...
and ye who want to be blessed
forever:
just the amount of torture of
the fates of sheep and the winds of lacklustre...
but i see the screaming ego:
and i can't sooth it with id...
no super-ego abides to give learning:
therefore from shadow to moon
to shadow on the moon
the eternal exent of nacht:
then onto the sun to scortch.
Dec 2024 · 69
Elitist Media
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
social media... consecration: exposed to the world:
with the nigh of night... knits of armour of the knights
of death:
the house is my own telling: either a ship or a castle
and i am the sole-soul captain of two cats
dry mouth: cotton mouth: flames and moths...
cold of the glass percilating
into the base
descending like me on your ****
i lifted the glass
the last of wine with some clarifying blood
of white of *****: vudasusze!
vudadusze!
         O O o o
         o o O O
         O O o o
         (q-cute: acute)

i told you: i stopped writing: i started painting:
skeletons and bushy ***** and returns
to eden via a birth via off / of a woman:
beyond good and evil:
either / or
either of woman
or off woman
either / or

either of a woman
or off a woman...

      the point being: who's eating the pear
while someone is still eating
the apple:
no. no no no...
she's eating an apple
and getting drunk
and i'm eating a watermelon
and ingesting the pill of spice:
currently only the marijuana pill

i'll take rainbow pill of LSD
when dementia:
not the dementia praecox they
tried to slow me down with
in my 20s like bilingualism
was schizophrenia
assisted dying came to England!
finally!

so concerning media:
past social media:
only thanks to WhattsApp...
in Egnland that's
called the workforce group chat
social media:
the working man's social media
WhatssApp...
i'm getting check on by the "boss"
when clocking in:

YAY... i thought it was a girl
messaging me:
this strutting cockerel
is a chickpea in terms of the use of language...

finding music and cult films on
Y-worm...
not tubes: just the Engineer's way
to implore:
see no tubes not aqueducts
just worms and more worms
and no longer dinosaurs and dinosur
telepathic strength of mind and fear
mind is a duality of
fear
and comfort
not of soul...
ask the mind about the rubric of phobias...
ask the mind about affiliating oneself
with: pedophiolia...
         and soul and god are to be bound
to these flickers of intellect:
once apparent: then hiding...
i want to get high and drunk and write you
a love letter...
i'm writing a love letter
when i tell you what i wrote
having personalised the email...
i am the extension The Prophet of AI
against the Commerce in Algorithms...

I see: I taste: I hear:
there is a future 🙉
                        monkey says he doesn't hear
serpents talking
and doesn't see bears showing up late
with dragons
to relieve me of off these serpents
i implored the Lord God
to release me from these serpents
and dinosaurs
and write a history
for atheistic scientists:
look forward:
the ape adored the bear
because the bear
made the most of the spring
and summer
and most of autumn
got drunk
and in winter and the night slept:
from Africa to the Pole±

vampire what AIDS monkey...
i'm looking for a bear...
i'm a king kong already defeated
Godzilla...
but now... comes the: Ursus Rex...
the gorilla is me? me?
the Chimera of the schematic:
ego-super-ego-id: gender neutral pronouns:
it and nothing
are categorized as pronouns...

where? where running bear?
i am a monkey with the key snake clue:
you are bear
i am gorilla: can we at least plan then nexxt 300,000 years...
i want: to overcome winter and night
i want to...
i will have to learn of your Ain Sof
beginning with cats
and dogs
rats... squirrels... foxes... deer...

Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park tomorrow!
woo hoo±!
Mr Jeckyll: where is Dr Hyde?!
ha ha!
          oh ooh it's so sadistically perfect!


the email................
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Mo,

I'm sending you the workbook I was given: strange... I don't actually have units 6 or 7... as you can see I have units 1 - 5 then 9 - 10: I didn't even have to complete units 9 & 10: once I did my first five units I was dismissed from showing any more of my coursework since they said: STOP writing so much.

Do you have any units missing? Now that is rather curious... weird.... can you send me the workbook that included units 6, 7, 8... I just want to have a look at them...

As you can see UNIT 5 is complete... by the way... I got through units 1 - 2 on my own but then my brain died a death of boring language... so I had to resort to chatGPT... don't worry: I actually asked "it" whether I was plagiarizing or not: provided it gave me the answers and I just reworded those answers to suit my idiosyncratic tongue-print (imprimo-lingua)...

I'm sorry that i can only help you out with UNIT 5... do you have to complete those asinine UNITS 9 & 10? When I first started reading those questions I was struggling with a TRANSGENDER pronoun-genderism and neutrality of question that was less a question and something from the ****-stink-and-*****-choking-stained-handkerchief: pretending it to be ammonia or whatever the hell "they" used in the WWI trenches against mustard gas...

Weird... that I didn't have to complete UNITS 6 and 7... 8 wasn't even there...

But yeah: use chatGPT: insert the questions and then actually read the answers and make sure you leave your own language print... I'm not implying "dumb-down": but write as if you are comfortable with giving a briefing to about 10 stewards and 5 SIAs...

By the way: it's not cheating, I asked chatGPT what the difference was between using it and using an algorithm like Google, you know what it replied? I am a personalized version of that impersonal conglomerate of stashed info.

Matthew

p.s. you can actually repay me by taking my advice about using chatGPT to do the modules that I didn't have to do: you at least have UNIT 5 to work from: type in each question into the robocon and see how I answered the question to suit the familiarity I have with using language... then do likewise for the missing units and: IN YOUR OWN WORDS... don't do what I've heard others do when using chatGPT... they use another "anti-plagiarism" robocon... quill-something-something... it's like that, reminiscent: of that, this: the current scenario of people taking antibiotics for granted: using them for as little as a cold rather than using them when necessary: bacterial infections of the chest etc.

Use chatGPT but then rewrite it in your own words: otherwise you might get found out.... or at least: you won't sink into a woman's job of being a ditto-head typist...

I, II, III, IV, V, VI, VII, VIII, IX, X
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10
I, Z, E, G, S, b, Γ, B, P, ю
origins of arthimetic
the concept of numbers....
so no architecture
up north?
so ******* beligrent
and proud and *******
cinnamon skin authority
racism
ugly ******* skinning types...
numbers for the already received
rivers of letters
and the lakes of numbers
not hidden in letters!
when letters were already used
as numbers:
so who do i owe the pleasure
of white
penance... grief and racism...
    
                  i have a dream for a monkey
with the bear
yet some somali fat ***
turns the wrong
all the wok ching chung hype-real-reels...
of lost cinema: silent
and non confusion with the Catholic aversion
to a female ******...
only the silent of birth
of Christ
with the silent deaths of auschwitz...
wonder-prone sun!
Mateuš Conrad Dec 2024
i don't give a ****: telling the difference between a ******* kite and a seagull counting: a flying ****... over-celebration of Shakespeare is like a brushing blow on realism... given that crows remain just... now is the time to tell the theatre: no second Shapespeare: is ever going to, come... a Jesus in the second making: and how many sons of the sun and Muhammad included: befell the allure of the sun: without the happy-inquisitiveness of the moon and stars?!

poetry: oh to will this gesture: words that
abide by something pseudo-journalistic
and quasi- so...
memorable: that quote...
from an ancient Greek... typical of a man
who marries a younger woman...
i think of stations and i think that:
if i lived near a train station:
i'd make a fine, fine: train-spotter...
seems these days you need tiers and hierarchy...
but this is not a Platonic bombast
of dialogue, rigid beyond:
nor is this the Greeks and the Trojan Horse
of the New Testament either...

paradox... paradox... Pandora...
Paradox is the son of Pandora...
somehow: just rearranging the letters
gives me insight...
for the P and the A and D...
N and X: Nix... rest assured:
i will not be glorified with stately affairs
equivalent to Shakespeare:
or Newton:
i'm not of this land, this breath:
this historicity:
i'm elsewhere...

and Polynesia is no escape plan:
me migrating to Kauai is not an escape plan:
it's a plan of belonging with someone...
as...
someone... "wise"... in journalism:
we have philosophers(?!)
once said...

never marry a female you make an altar
of a body to ******* to...
oh... clean and clarifying: fancy...
but that's the only way to fathom
the undisputed contests of the sexes...
i am with someone
who cured me of any if any
pornographic addiction
from the age of 8 before i was able
to generate ***** before
***** there was only a knee **** reaction
of a muscular stimulus...

besides the point... what Socrates said:
find a good wife: and you'll be happy...
but but... but find a terrible wife:
and you'll become... a.. marble invocation:
a... PHILOSOPHER...
so philosophers get the wives
while poets get their flings?!

   "paradox" implies... misnomer...
and... and... metaphor...
is it paradoxical that i suggest:
that ugliest son-of-Hera-and-satyr
will tell me
how philosophy devolved
given Shoppenhauer and Nietzsche:
the pigeon was given a
pen: did it stop the pigeon from
flapping its wings and given to flight
reassure us that some
poor ******* will remain caged
in the monstrosity of expected reality?
my coworker is just that:
a Popeye *******...
         Scott this... Scott that...

interlude of dreams:
rather than the interpretation of them:
i'm curious about the vantage point
of having dreams without the luxury
of having to interpret them...

two nights ago i was a Merman...
literally... in dream: that's literally:
i saw what i saw and i was a Merman:
Hail Polynesia...
what was once earth that became sea
and what is now earth: so be it...
Mongolian empire my ******* ***...

i asked: no one... anyone: in particular:
and the Soviets were less inclined
than the Mongols?!
so is "paradox" a misnomer or
a metaphor?
the dust settles... the ashes fathom...:
i am more beast than man
and then more abstract of man
with the ultimatum of nothing to behold...

philosophy of bachelors...
Nietzsche and all the rot that brought Germany
into this xenophobic 21st century of Europe:
i have Russians to thank for the positivity
of stigma on the:
******* basis on language usage:

SZMOTOPLUCHY!
cotton clad and camel jockeys...
people really do... underestimate
their shoreline racism
when i am waves upon waves
of uproar...
i see the fates stumble within the grasp
of the the waves and tides
by: designation of the moon's whims
but then people around me:
freeze: like pawns...

i move what i want to be moved:
reality is a whim and not...
find a wife and be happy:
find a wife and not be happy:
but there was always the testimony of,
actually having a wife...
but the German Bachelor philosophy muddled
affairs of crucifying love and calling
it: all the improper names:
justice... Nemesis...

                 not all men these days
will be equipped with wives
and... and even then:
how many would burrow in the **** foliage
to find or seek Eden
in that furr of **** worship...

sooner the delete: butts: on on...
i just sent her a message:
you rub your **** and ***
all over my face: let's reinvent butter...
why?         oh why why...
because i ******* said so!

to philosophize is to learn:
to be poetically: abrupt...
           spontaneously ooh! ah!
                         like a magic trick without
any magic!          ooh! ah!
i sigh the little sigh...
then...
                   sigh no more.
Nov 2024 · 47
beyond good and evil
Mateuš Conrad Nov 2024
for all the good:
mushy-mushy feelings
i had when
giving that beggar-woman
20 squid
to go and shelter herself
feom storm Bert
disappeared today
as i saw her again
outside the shop...
and she asked me again
for money without that
formerly inclined mystique
of addressing me
as a kind, young, man...
two volunteers were also
there collecting for charity:
or "charity": some bogus
Humpty-Dumpty cause for
bureaucratic leeches...
and the beggar-woman:
i didn't care by then...
i reprimanded her...
"reprimanded": no...
i scolded her...
she asked me again as if
a ghost without a shadow...
another yet another passerby
or personna-non-grata:
in her orbit of imploring
me for money again "we" were
both kindred spirits...
but first time i was made to feel
like a ******* donkey...
second time: first time i gave
the woman fish...
second time i could see
no need for skills in fishing:
none were available to begin
with: no netsno rods...
so what? more free fish
more Israelite laments about
the land of milk and honey:
manna from heaven?
it's Saturday night...
classic.fm rather than BBC
radio 3: only because it's movie
night with Jonathan Woss...
lisp dyslexic no trill of the R...
so i scolded her:
don't ask me again!
last week i gave you 20 squid!
i fell for your charm
the first time round...
there are 7 million other people
in this urban vicinity...
what if they each gave you
a penny each?!
you took advantage of
my weakness: not my goodness...
well... well... it wasn't in so
many words...
poignant: point being:
do good... as long as it feels good...
there is no point pretending
you're doing good:
if and absolutely if:
it doesn't feel good...
which is "paradoxical":
since when people perform evil
they feel good... or do they?
maybe they don't feel anything...
but at least do good because
it feels good... it's never about
being: good...
being is beyond good and evil:
doing isn't...
some Latin: to better probe
punctuation:
esse ist ultra bonum et malum:
after all what is grey
is also what is what is:
when white trickling into black
makes of it:
not colour but a diluted night
that emerges as a fog...
there is no beyond this
bilingual (elevated)
schizophrenia (de-elevated)...
what am i? a walking fudgery
of pretend good will:
i did no good giving her 20quid
the first time around...
i was plagued with doubts...
with questions...
then came the resolving answer
the second time she asked
and with no Disney-theology
allure of me fearing this
might be a haggard woman
to later turn into an Enchantress
that i might be turned into
a beast that no one could love...
well... someone does love me...
ergo? c'est la vie!
there are people in place
and organisstions who are there
given how asylums once were
and no longer are...
Mateuš Conrad Nov 2024
if i am to become an American citizen... i'll requote: don't, you... *******... tread... on... me... savvy?! now that i've stirred the ghosts of dogs with sighs and they stopped barking... i imagine... i dream, i remember... i might think: but if thinking is 1 and being is 1 and am is 2... mouth agape... monkey laughing: who the carrot the stick and the donkey?! said the monkey? maybe us northerners are more inclined to believe: we devolved from bears... some say we evolved from apes... but i think we devolved from bears... and who is to prove me wrong? the prowess... of the English anti-racial intellectual elitism?! maybe in America... in the extent of the English language having influence on Polynesia... maybe there i can find my heart and grave and peace... they do look Taiwan'ease sinister... though... these Polynesian hulk and proper bone foundations... half baked Asiatics exposed to the sea like the Mongols to grass, fields and horse *****... hey presto... i also live to get to a junction of faults, ambitions, defaults and failures... how... about... you?

Cartesian arithmetic and algebra combined:
who said: who... who... i'll ask calmly once:
*******! more... who said?
i think therefore i am
is equivalent to 1 + 1 = 2... who?
what about... not thinking:
by not thinking "i think" of...
i imagine... therefore? i conflate...
i remember... therefore... i become melancholic:
i: deflate... myself (reflexive):
my self (reflective)...
                               who for the God's pardon
of owning a word
sticks and pointers... i counted 16 of those
from Y (3 = 3):
unless that's a curve, and a curse...
atop a pine growrth of iota: no diacritical markers
i believe: exist: either of i or j:
disappearing when lodged in the lower-case:
you ******* ***** you think you
think you will get to behavioural psychology
with me?! with me?!
agony:
Y = 3
H = 3, but also 4...
W: 1, 2, 3, 4...
or... 5...
H... mirror mirror on the wall:
who is creature of posits and frames
and dimensions...
and who is in orbit:
i ****** well know that behind the Tetragrammaton
there are two... *******...
two: ******* deities!
you wed phallus **** you wed yourself
and that's why you can't love:
or only love via the crucifix:
you diabolical wrench! you ******* cognitive
tool: i standardized to away with you
i think doesn't precipitate into being
a study of ontology...
i also imagine:
i ******* dream:
but there is no strict Cartesian definition
of faculties and how all of them merge:
converge...
        now i'm at god well ******:
because i gave 20 quid to a beggar woman
and in that i know that i'm not my father
and that bothers me in the slightest of
featherweight: ooh ooh... tickles:
tickles my hopes to being a blond bombshell
tourist via La Chong Ching: Laos Methanol:
apparently it's the new quested
Axua-Ask-Ah: ask Ah first: then Allia...
by the time "we've" finished:
you'll be having this freed Philistines of Palestine
debates: for... for...             as long...
as you... ******* like...
                that's X for H: like ha ha... ha...
let me get my ******* boiling violin out
and play you a sad tune...
Mateuš Conrad Nov 2024
ludzie! to jest sie poddac!
do woli zycia!
nad Boga kochanego...
to jest pierw nad monoteizm:
to jest poddac sie
woli zycia! z bogiem czy bez!
ale to jest zyc!
pasierbica: stepdaughter:
regardless of the enchantress
as some beggar woman
who i gave 20 quid for shelter
the other day:
blah blah: i spent more
on prostitutes...
        regardless! i'm still the *******
beast! regardless of my charity...
i'm still the ugly beast of
intellect:
oh Reyla: i know you...
you loved how i said to you:
i'm locking the door,
i'm keeping the key...
you will be locked up in this castle!
regardless!
you can't come out!
you'll be trapped!
don't open the door to anyone!
you hear?!
so me and her mother went out
on two date nights...
first night... King's Theatre...
Phantom... great nights...
second? more of a **** take...
**** take on the English National Opera:
oh the modernism didn't bother me...
but how... can you... square in...
circle out... the notion...
that... a German... opera... could be...
sung... in English?!
stick to your ******* Adlew Woyd Vebbers
and sing-song musicals...
forget opera: or at least don't
sing what was originally intent in German...
ah... theism... hmm hmm hmm:
i have a higher will...
beyond the will of submitting to God...
beyond the will to power...
i have a will: a Latin man's context
of wha tthe ancients were and how
the modern Italians are an abomination
from the simple rhythm of man's
context of fluidity of ***: beyond
*** as trans...
i implore the fluidity of the concept
of fatherhood...
the sexuality of a stepdaughter without
that taboo of: ugly monotheistic
butchery of ******... i... am... *******...
the most elevated... cosmopiolitan!
i go to bed with such ***** flicks you will
never see!
Disney is **** to me...
**** in the zigzag Zizek rereading of Jung...
daredevil... **** yeah...
i submit wholly to life...
ad-islam...
                 life and colour and pictures
came first...
god and sounds... and letters...
i think that comes later... much later...
don't you think?!
i don't i do = i am
i think i don't think = being...

        words like no gender and everything:
most fluid...
is this a ******* joke?!
this is the highest counter intelligence
hype: gimp stressor the western
culture could provide for me
to *******... trample?!

         this is it!? ****** joke: more...
give me a bone to choke on...
                at least Russia i can take in earnest
as not brain-dwarfed into genital-ego conflate
scrambling eggs...
    you ******* be serious in your...
cognitive: it has reached a stage of miasma:
post-cubism miasma:
the thinking has started to become dressed
in stench... a sense-awareness never before
experienced...

  the actual thought process is filfthy with bad:
bad as ****... ******* smells... ugh...
i think i'll need to snort and hark some phelgm out.
Mateuš Conrad Nov 2024
this lowest of the low lows of form of employment:
night shifts at Elephant & Castle:
i imagine the Elephant Man... but no castle of ivory:
a day off:
lazy writing:
i wanted some of that
like slow *** with Edie
and Edie breast feeding me:
honey: munch: pooh bear my ditto
i think you are lactose intolerant...

          oh i love lazy writing
and listening to... seminal... music critique comes
out with a: Hello, my name is Bob
tag in a comico-horror movie...
i tried watching a silent movie
two nights ago:
Nosferatu... i tried... i loved the organs...
what a strange medium:
that light came before sound...
maybe that's why silence is so elusive:
alluring:
i once said as a child:
i can't hear silence...
            i can't hear silence...

can i see nothing?
Fire, Water, Earth, Air... Lightning (shh shh)...
hammer weilding lover of words
the ******* Barbarians
the deserts and the high winds
Vikings left us for Valhalla
while the Arabs remained...
but the civilised worlds of men
didn't cherish words and god and the gods
as much as these extremities...
ties to belonging nowhere-homebound
in God a Home an abode:
nomads: i salute you!
Lebanon i cry for the creeping forest
of the North:
with my almighty pines
i will switch them for palms...

from vampire fingers to sticks with *****:
like lucrative Lebowski memes...
spice my life up a little...

so the Vikings were barbarians:
elsewhere the Swedes founded Kyiv:
and i think i was there...
then all the petty squabbles and cobblers
of Rome and Byzantine:
while Arab said to Iraq and Iran
and Syria: hey... bible is too ****** g
*******... i have the Quran...
Quest Ran and rand... sometimes a spontaneous
ghost town in Morocco...

so many denominations and
a monotheism so in splinters
for each a toothpick and a crucifix
to weigh down a spirit in flight...
assunder an d     with hope of drowning
but still swimming...

butterfly: MOTYL
fly: MUCHA...

                 butter in flight? butter is yellow
the white of no colour and the butterfly is
and the fly is... Albanian suss and filter brains...
while England before the Saxons
was like Afghanistan to Americans
like for Ancient Rome:
and seeing modern Italians...
i don't see an inch a grain of Ancient Roman
in them...
Italians are freakish hybrid of
werido... ******* ******... Reyla says...
pasierbica: step-daughter... i think... Fosse...
septology: i think... i thin k:
i sometimes think it's annoying:
annoying is no closing and opening of consciousness:
twos in two and two more apart:
schizoid...
i need for far more brain-cells to die with
my chemistry experiment with alcohol and the body:
pushing limits...
i'm still drinking a LITRE of the "WATER" of "LIFE":
almost every day...
brain is less a concern as KIDNEYS become
something for my palette:
dialisis from Nigerian wisdom...
some covert and CIA zunge tabbing...
i'm thirsty: i want some fire-water...
like spooning honey infused with ****
gob full before the toddler's pool of (the above)...

scuba dive and order an Uber...
people i sometimes mind...
friends like painters and talk of games
and travelling the universe:
talking into the night...

          tic tac toe: spinster: i know she honey
trapped me...
she edited that picture so much i wasn't really
looking at the cleaning and polishing
i was ac tually looking at her psychology:
but then she spinn ed that
           well: can't apply diacritical markers in
the English tongue:
so might as well spice it up
with the antithesis of the apostrophe apostriphe:
some added spice of dyslecia
and X
      couldn't could not
  wouldn't would not
            shouldn't should have not
haven't have not
                   have and heaving heaven:
that's not a haven:
the postmasters of Hell are most economic: ""
pristine in their insomniac duty...

because a new Dandy Warhols' album
is like the reinvention of Eminem
because i don't buy into black culture...
it's rap so boorish and then comes
dyslexic spew boring like Curt Kobain
and yeah x yeah = yeah yeah
while R.E.M. took the **** with a Man
on the Moon...

             post-ethnocide or post-racialism:
when the Spaniards reached South America
and there were black Cubans...
and we said: Latinos are people
of the descent of the Mayans,
            Aztecs... Peruvians i don't remember:
i doubt, therefore i must also negate:
then i think... but then thinking doesn't
percipitate into being: too many thoughts
to posit a pintpoint a coordinate of the whole
of life: i am: but i onl;y come across i am:
when i die...
death unites and clarifies pins and points
on the Globus of the 'Ed...
i don't i do = i am
        i think i don't think: things and no equations...

thinking is not like rain
on the earth of being...
thinking doesn't respect life
thinking is morality and
no amount of haram pork
will confuse you: thinking alone
will do...
   twice over and hello:
bilingualism is nowdays treated
as schizophrenia in England:
or has been... ever since i was:
under scrutiny...

    but then enough ******* circus
allowed the world to be gripped
by... and like paitence is a form of torturing
someone...
i took out two models
in a cascade of words to live by:

the Chinese gold:
treat others like you want to be treated
and
that other one:
the French:
live and let live.
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