on a bad hard pillow did i sleep
and woke up ******* more count sheep
than a milked cow
i wonder
the softer pillow already relaxes my mind
and people said:
believe in yourself...
while i say to them
as i will tell my pupils: doubt least
doubt small think big
don't doubt yourself
give your love and your fear unto god
but when interacting with fellow man
i wonder am i preparing a para-military
hope for england
to know that so many coppers surrounded me
and if you own an SIA padge
imagine being a Copper and realizing:
oh ****... wrong path
because the SIA is lowest low military
it is para-military
i'm willing to write this much
because i think about how people organize
i mean:
i'm a Gary Linaker of the Industry
4 years and not a single physical altercation

but as i said to my Muslim friend
i am the "Little Horn"...
i am the Little Horn
of the beast i know exist
who is a bilingual
in psychology and i could have been
but French discouraged my soul
and gave me answers in English
imagine working alongside the military
the engineers not actual fighters
and doers
now imagine a disgruntled citizenry
and imagine counter protesters being
taxied by the police
and the police is now the lowest of the low
and we know that how collusive they are
with journalists and it's soft power
and we understand hard power
via security if and only if coupled
with logistics,
construction...
all these men need willingness to be security
para-military
i want England to be healthy
the multi-cultural of Exception
of Particulars...
i would like the Para-Military to walk the protest
through the road:
which is not Parliamentary Mile
in England
and the Royal Mile of Edinbugh
the Parliamentary Mile of London
and the Royal Mile of Edinburgh...

             so i asked: can we have a team
we don't need lazy "response" teams of bullies
needing to learn their lessons:
i implore for need for REPRESSIVE teams...
showcasing their intellect and physical certainty
i don't need bullies to invent:
MI5 Polish as tongue and a land
and a people in the unconscious
while MI6 English tongue
and nothing more and i wished i learned
Spanish, German,
Turkish, Arabic,
           Dagbani,
                     Katakana:
                                                 Nahuatl
hence the seven heads
and the old wound and the emergence of the little horn
as the cleaving and healing of the wound...
near fatal: yet me and yeti live.

- but we can have a logistic security hybrid
para-military
which could expand
given when police officers realize
how futile they are and seem....
when...
  
   like i'm starting to think that i'm going about
un-complicating my life by doing
too many things too pro bono
i think when i get older i
need to start charging people for my efforts
i think the next time i'm on
megaphone on the street i will have
to recite one of my poems
but then maybe i won't...

but the idea of paramilitary:
it's not enough to have guns
a people freed from governance needs
more than individuals to have
weapons...
what the Constitution of the People of America
should include is a Citizenry with
the Concept of (a / the) Para-Military:
Spies...
in the Asylum:
begin their training:
to start being the Army Arm of the Vetting Process
of who is worthwhile and who isn't...
and then the so called "far right protests"
could have a paramilitary arm of protection
and not be abused by the police...
we could have police against the paramilitary
because the police hierarchy doesn't include
god or angels or angels
kid
king or country or people
the police is a tool of the city
of the state
the police is not the army
and the nation and the king...
but us in the security and the logistics industry
could be your paramilitary...
and not everyone would require a weapon
not able to wield it...
that little horn
and the parasitical mushroom
of hyped colors and imagination:
scooter... scooter blast.

i asked you:

willGreek
beyour
suitor
you replied:

in that savage tone:
of barbaric
apthy:L
i... don't know....

fuckuing ape
christian ******
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ρισυς

     or      ρισως

or           ρισóς

   hmm... maybe even ṓ

                     γέλιο

or maybe                     γηλιο


     ˈlaftər                            λαθτηρ

borrowed time and 's
                                   heave! **! row!
row!
               this grand "travesty" of
open water:
water, water everywhere:
but not a drop to drink...

                                     somewhere in the distance
an eating away at itself silence
but soon broken and towing

śmiech....                             ogrom.

a letter to Wimbledon staff, the chief safety officer who left the control room and came on the ground and couldn't believe her eyes about how i managed the team: and the open palm implied move the crowd in a river: i will clench my hand and you will close off the flow: we will manage traffic so the queue marches through while the random sea of people will be stopped: the Red Sea and Moses argued... me and Jesus argued with Muhammad and Moses... i had an argument with Muhammad and Moses in a tag team with Jesus... o wysokich... nothing below 6ft1 for these guards... working with the army i was told secrets from the Air Force about being stationed in Qatar... i did ask what uniform does the MI5 / MI6 wear at Wimbledon... or we don't exist? in a tux... well: that's MI6... but the MI5... we are of the lowly caste...

that Amar from Sudan didn't know of Sufism
and didn't know of Rumi
but at least he knew of the Beloved
therefore Allah is a woman
Allah is a female deity
ontology of the germanic late thinkers
and pre-modernity
which comes after postmodernism
this is where we are
we live in times of pre-modernity
which is born from postmodernism...
      since we live in a 2nd Renaissance
because we are also living in the 2nd Dark Age
and we know what the Enlightenment was
and we do not want a 2nd Enlightenment
since is we replace Romanticism with
Heroism and the Adventure
we will not become cripples of flesh
not satisfying our passions and empathies
because we can replace Romanticism
with Heroism
and think of great little nothings
we can forget that there was ever an ontological
tool a pronoun nothing
to give us excuses and pretenses
we can simply a yawning darkness and the dancing
shadow
in the great pit of whirling gravity.

Jalāl
    ibin... or up north among the Bulgars
Bahāʼ al-Dīn Valad
   Valhalla and jinn as warrior trainers
i want spent eternity in
a gigantic labyrinth with time-space
maliable: i spelled wrong

  a time-space capsule a pokemon sort
seeing glass where
time expands and slows down
or time shrinks and quickens to the speed
of light
because time can be space-time
in that confinement in equation
with it is also a case of perception
and

today i walked to the Turkish barber
and one young trainee was
nervous
he ended up giving me the hot towl
washing my hair
and making me a strong espresso Turkish
style coffee
and i didn't feel the tingle on my head
thinking that going to the barber
was like going to a brothel
and getting a blow
not having a shave
getting a shave is getting a shave
but i needed to let know the trainee know
that he will not cut my hair and beard
and i haven't been to a brothel
O for so long
ever since i came to her and she came to me
and i think me and the Turks
can work along the steppes and listen
to the concerns of the Russians
and why they were so concerned with
the Ukrainians that they started to wage
a war
and i understand being a Slav too
that Europe is divided by the Great Slav Window
into the Sea
across the Atlantic toward the Pacific
we didn't have the Pacific to cross
first came seeing America
then came knowing the Sloth of Africa
we went to America before we
thought it might be noble to see Africa
and the Arab slave trade
but i sometimes wonder
would it be better to work for a noble lord
who will necessarily feed me
and clothe me if being unable to pay me...
i wonder about slavery and the nobility
and now the mediocre wagers
people of the earning
who need to be kept in check
like the cheqqers
and the inverted black triangles of Auschwitz'
hierarchy:
i could be both the schizophrenic and
the SS-mensch noir
schwartz guard...

                     i could be both and in my labyrinth of
eternity
the earth is flat
a great flattening of the earth happens
and earth expands with the ability to walk
toward Jupiter and Saturn
and on this flat earth in death
Death said: of geometry and perpetual motion

because one can wield the space-time
artifact and i guess yahweh was so disliked among
the gods of the elements
when the stones started cracking up from mountains
back into the sea of the desert
and from there
all in harmony
how the hebrew god was disliked by the other gods
who relied on the medium of metaphor
image and hallucination
and this sobering logic of the spires
came crashing down and with Iblis
i agreed
he was so hated by the other gods
so stressing the need for Literacy of Everyone
when Sloth Dyslexia the other Cerberus
kept bark and sneeze from a snout in check...
how he must have been loathed by also
being a parody of light
being the one who ate other gods
and made them into entombed angels against
their own will
who said that angels don't have free will
how he saw the scattered the angels
and brought them together...
but could not uproot the Thor and Odin
the Zeus and Mars
     and couldn't because those were only courteous
deities who allowed the crucifixion
holocaust crescendo give excuse
to return and tell to the Arabs of the pagans
and how the Greeks became either scared
or lazy and didn't have an argument
concerning the fate of their child that
being the children of Europe...

                                                   /?//<?

in the abode(s) of Huītzilōpōchtli
i reside:
away from Yahweh and Jesus
and Allah...

                       in 5h3
in the abodes of Huītzilōpōchtli
                 i reside:
with fallen warriors
and women who have
died in childbirth...

                  closer to the latter because
i will only write of peace
and sure war come
i will write during:

yet i wait: for the draft of honor secret
and ambition
to be exercised
leave me at peace
in peace
and of war i say: honor ambition and vitality
and of peace i say: secret ambivalence and inquisitiveness
curiosity...

for War is School...
for adults...
and currently Russia is teacher to Ukraine
and the Poles and Czechs are either lost
or slightly bothered
and almost not ready
because the Western and Southern Slavs
will have to be taught from within the Skins of
the Germans
and New Skins of Germans
because they are so Apathetic from Great Ideas
i think i don't know
but they're sort of Eunuchs...
but the book of Revelation must be read
in a fashion that allows you
to close your eyes
sporadically
i mean it's a book of meditation
to relieve yourself from the chains of writing
and begin delving into the realm of images...
and understanding
colours...
why so many traffic accidents
who the **** is required to be literate in words
will be
but people need to become literate
understanding FORM and COLOUR...
we already know and -            that "we":
yes... we are all sons...
              asher....

algorithm limit:
poking a god:
so AI headpiece when i typed in:

hebrew words for we / us written phonetically like ehyeh asher ehyeh

i don't think people of a certain caste
need to know words
i don't think it's necessary
we can have work transferred
to something better than a police force
beginning with banks
people who would sign paperwork for people
so that they are at least
in the monetary system
and indepedent
i don't think financial independence had to be
synonymous with literacy
i think as humanity we made a mistake
of giving people
financial independence
and also making them literate
i don't think you can making words
and reading
universal
i think that's torture
i've heard of DYSLEXIA in England
but i haven't heard of dyslexia outside of England
i should look up some famous French
dyslexics and German ones...
because it's not fair
some people don't want to read...
give them numbers...
but maybe we need a revolution in the realm of
education
     i think that philosophy forgot about education
i think that philosophy tried to remember
history
with heidegger
but philosophy forgot jurisprudence and pedagogy...
then again:
i don't even think philosophy was equipped
to mediate pedagogy
since it was initiated by ANNALS of the BUGGERY DEMONS...
Socrates was the educator sure
but i mean: what philosopher since him
tried to teach or understand children?
and not do them one pleasure short
of ****?                          you want to teach jesus?
don't teach it to everyone
especially not to children...
you want to be given lessons from Jesus?
make it a secret society! or ****** up parents!
   yeah?!           what is so ******* wrong with you people?!