I am overshadowed
By my desire.

I look up to it.

Its longings
Dwarf my abilities.

I want to pour into you
Melt to softness,
Like butter turning oil.

You are uncontainable -
you burst into innumerable pieces.
Each fingernail, toe, smile
Sizzles upon the pavement.

I am suddenly shattering-
My courage,
My voice,
Lay atop my feet.

If I wiggle my toes,
I can feel their
Silk shift.

He still smothers me
Against these pillows.

So oppressive,
I can't even speak.

Spiders often spill into the cracks,
Leaving carcasses, still and rotting.
Life sneaks in,
Creeping up the vacant corners --

In this, the ultimate expression;
What you see is not yours
And does not wait for you.

Silence--

(As a mist falls on a lake,
Every crystal clear drop
Dips into gray. )

There is nothing left to say.