Listen the beauty lies within your eyes
It's not a perspective or an image of your body size
But it's imperfection because no one's perfect
So don't listen to society it's not worth it
Doesn't matter who you are so "shake what to momma gave ya"
You were made in the Lord's eyes, our one and only savior
"Oh you're not a beyoncé" since when did beauty become a standard?
You're more than beautiful and you deserved to be pampered
By the right person because vision is a powerful thing
I can see right into your eyes and listen to your soul sing
What you can't see another will you just gotta be open
It takes time, only someone with patience can mend a heart that's been broken
People can be disgusting so don't let em make a circus of your surface
Life has a big price to pay that you didn't purchase so stop thinking your worthless and let's find your purpose
I want you to wake up every morning look in the mirror and say a mantra
"I'm beautiful just like everybody else" even if you're fairly odd like Cosmo and Wanda
Because abnormality is better than being average like everybody else
So try not to settle for less because you can never put a price on what's top shelf
It's about time you looked past yourself and present your gift to the future
You were meant to learn from your mistakes this scene was just another uncut blooper
By now you should've blossomed into an outstanding and stunning young lady
With confidence shining brighter than the sun and guys trying to shoot their shot like KD
Now you're learning to love your gorgeous self as you grow older
This is the year of 2020 vision, didn't I tell you beauty lies within The Eye Of the Beholder

Got a lot on my mind to write about, but all I could think about is my perfect person
I don't know if it's just me but I visualize her physical structure on a daily
Thinking about her charismatic personality, and the rest of her loveable persona's
She'd be a handful, but a handful all for one man
You know that one ride at the carnival you just don't want to find your way off
I guess its a little a too unhealthy how often I try to picture her
Even though I find myself smiling for a person I've never met especially since I don't know if she exist
But hey, sometimes you just gotta dream big, "Go BIG or go HOME"
Can't hurt now could it?
Well that's just what I thought but it brings too much emotions
Just the thought of her melts the ice around my chest
Until reality reminds me of all my failed attempts, ***** to be unwanted doesn't it
(Inserts fake laugh)
Guess Its just me, sorry if my thoughts became a bit anticlimactic
But that's just life, a sad one at that
We can't change the present only gift a gateway to the future
So though I fail a litte too often doesn't mean I should give up
And I don't wanna get left when she could be right there waiting at the alter
Plans to take me to that future are on the way
I got the blueprints I'm going to follow up until that day

Listen, it's been so long that I've lost my ink
With no canvas to splatter my thoughts run amok
These words I exhale are like a faucet because I let my teeth sink
Into the rhythmic blues that were once confiscated when the past broke my future clock
So why'd I get confused?
My eyes were on an unbelievable prize or so I'd thought
I lost what made me feel amused
Now the ball's back in my court, there's no time to lay up when I could 360 this basketball like a good sport
But it's not because I made one shot
It's because I had one shot
But then my clock tick-tocked
Now I need a new wrist watch
Because my hourglass stopped and the small hand dropped off
Now I got myself caught up in the pain
Because this devastation must be planetary
Like how Kakashi won't be able to see Rinn-egan
So imagine Kurenai looking at Asuma in the cemetery
They often asked us
If a flower bloomed in a dark room would you trust it
But I still don't get what's all the fuss
Because they never told us if a thorn bush would kick the bucket
However that's a story for another episode
Or at least until I can find some new batteries for my remote
*** in all honesty I’m straying away from my code
But I’m still reaching for my dreams and no matter how hard they drift away they stay afloat
I can't complain because everyone hurts
Life was just another challenge
So I before I could be picked up I had to get knocked down first
Because I wasn't born with a silver spoon, for these tools I had to scavenge
I had one dream too many, nothing one cloud could hold
Thought I'd grow up to be a famous figure, you know somewhat iconic
So how is it possible such a shy kid made moves so big and bold
I wanted be a professional singer, dancer, footballer, and scientist but I found a muse in poetry, now isn't that ironic
I'd take a passion over money any day
I don't wanna be like one of those celebrity sell-outs
Because what you love and desire brings a bigger pay
I'd ring my Victree-bell and tell the story of how I was once a bellsprout
My ink and my canvas
Treasures I said I lost, not one but both
Til I went down the road to recovery, it made me feel so anxious
Then I realized with a pen and piece of paper anyone can write a poetic note
I was once a victim to society
My mind got penetrated by their voices
I suffered heavily from depression and anxiety
They broke my psyche so I started making the wrong choices
I plead innocent, it wasn't my fault
Yet I believed otherwise
They held the key to my dead bolt
My voice was too little and that was my greatest demise
That's just the carbon to the coke
So don't believe what stands before you
I'm standing asleep looking woke
A po guy seeing a panda do Kung fu
Dora taught me life's just another platform to go out and explore
Así mís amigos don't be afraid to reveal your poetic brilliance
Because I think I found the real me I've been looking for
It was lost til I caught it somewhere in the distance

I hear the melody though it skips a beat each time an arrow strikes
A sweet tune your personality plays leaving me to feel so enticed
Sometimes you drain me but it's like my glass never runs out because you know how to refill
It's delicate tank that on average was a desolate wasteland with no will
Think of it as a car with a messed up engine that needs a push to start
Or one of those moments you're losing the race but you receive a golden mushroom in Mario Kart
The feeling you bring chips away at my icebox and melts its inner shell til you can see what it was protecting
The barren but hopeful ***** that destiny and love were always neglecting
I can't picture many days where my face didn't light up just because I got to be with you
I know I see you almost everyday but you're like my Pokémon, I always want to Pik-a-chu
To be honest you remind me of a nice adorable little poodle and I just want to take you home
But since you're a poodle and all dogs go to heaven it means I have an angel in my midst to change my tone
I get all bubbly inside and carefree just being around you on a daily
It's like a sigh of relief, an Hakuna Matata, the only thing that keeps me from going crazy
You're the spice that seasons my character the taste of life I've longed for
The only reason I keep this electricity flowing is because you showed up with an extension cord
Even if I wanted to I couldn't deny the emotions I've been picking up lately
I just hope I'm not the only one that feels this way because you're the most incredible young lady
That I've ever met and honestly if I had to man up and tell you the truth about what I say in my mind
Then I'd tell you I could care less whether I'm called a friend because I always think of you as my future wife in due time
The bond I feel goes deeper than any mere infatuation
It passes a barrier that leads to a deep heart palpitation
There's not a chance that I'd miss if it meant I could capture your essence but from a closer distance
In a heartbeat I'd give up a fortune if it meant I could join your resistance
Because I can't resist you it's like trying to separate Martin Luther King from his dream
Or like trying to rip apart your favorite shirt seem by seem
I know that I can't explain deeply how I truly feel
Simples words can't explain what actions can though I have a hard time trying to reveal
My emotions through my actions because my body can get a bit stiff at times
And once I'm able to each action will amount to more than just some cheap rhymes
You are a beautiful flower, a caring spirit with a delightful attitude
An intelligent individual, a dainty little ole lady who can never be devalued
I can care less what anyone has to say because beauty is in the eye of the beholder and I definitely see more than beauty both inside and out
I see things I can't explain though they drive me toward you, reel me in, have me toss and turning in excitement and salivating from my mouth
And don't worry about the pain you once felt that's a past I will never let you look back on as each day passes
It doesn't matter how you look or who you turn out to be, I love you with both your braces and your glasses ☺️
We can both get cozy, live lavishly and live with this neverending luxuriance
Me and you together, we can explore with each other and make this A Wondrous Experience

Words I can't express, a pool of doubt and a hope that the water hasn't been tainted
One of those it's too good to be true moments that actually might be too good to be true
Thought I was walking down an unfamiliar lane getting closer to the goal lying at the end
But now I don't even know if that goal is even reachable anymore or if I'm just stuck in a loop I can't escape
It's ripping me apart by the seems and I don't think I have any elasticity left in my body to endure it any longer
It's about time I stopped pumping blood so I can flip the leaf over and stain it with a new colour
The human body isn't just some play thing, it has to be respected and their vital organs are to be kept sacred with respect
We weren't meant to play with one's strings like a guitar and keep the rouse up til they pop
But sadly that's the so called human nature we always preach about, doesn't seem like MJ's word got through to humanity
To be honest I don't know how to feel about this but the closest answers I can get are empty, taken for granted and misunderstood
Why must one **** two birds with one stone when there's a possibility two birds can **** one with no stones

You know what I've got a message for the future to me, myself and wife
I know I....we've been through some ups and downs, hit so many lows but always got high
I'm your past but still gifted because I'm my present waiting to see our surprise nonetheless pleasant
But I trust your judgment because I know you chose right, fought the fight and got a full moon and not the crescent
This message is to show you how far you've come and what you've done
I'm the unfinished product and you're the aftermath of operation put down the gun
I'm proud of you, you finally found a beauty who could handle your inner beast
Going above and beyond like Luffy overseas you found your very own One Piece
But hold on for a bit, its about to time I spoke to my future wife so I can show her that all this ink wasn't just for nothing
I'm gonna show you that this holiday season wasn't only for cuffing
I'm praying for the day I get to meet you even though I can feel your energy nearby
I think it'll happen all of a sudden, when cupid drops down for a visit and surprises me with a drive by
So I might as well shoot my shot and hope you're the one this message goes to
Because I'm trying to become a petty thief like Aladdin and Apu
Only difference is my crime will make history, it'd make me an international Christmas thief
I'll steal you and your heart and afterwards I'll steal a kiss under the mistletoe right before I run off with you and the reef
I don't question my future self since I know he has the greatest and wouldn't settle for anything inferior
I could just picture it out now me and you buying our own house and decorating the interior
You'd be the only one clearing my conscience and cleaning my psyche
We'd be the shoulder for the other when things get rough and have deep discussions on a nightly
Cry with you through every struggle, tell you its going to be alright and hold you tightly
Have our disagreements and get into arguments where things get a little too feisty
But ****, I wish I could put myself in my future's footsteps now and experience all that first hand
I still think of it all as my personal fantasy, a miraculous kingdom and a luxurious life all for one man
Luckily you'll be living that dream while I'm working on making that my soon to be reality
So if I scare her a bit its because you know I'm unorthodox and she'll have to get to used to this abnormal activity
My world will collide with yours my soon to be future wife
Its like we're exchanging vows right now, holding hands in marriage and I'm making you mine for life
Now to finish off this message to my future self I hope you understand that you're holding a diamond in the rough
I don't want to say you should be spoiling her but one thing you should remember is enough could never be enough
I'm still here hoping you remember the words we always said hoping their fresh in your memory like a tic tac
Because you can never forget 'every minor setback is just another reason for a major comeback'
I can already imagine it, tearing off the wrapping paper and loosening the ribbon, getting what was on my wish list
I hope to see you inside because all I want is you for my gift this Christmas

I'm on mental lock after my mentality turned into mortal kombat
I was scorpion til I changed to sub-zero so stop playing with my thermostat
Can't be so hot and blazing like Chef Ramsey cooking with hell's fire
Then colder than ice like a snow storm going haywire
I lost my appetite sitting in standby as part of your perfomance
I got fire and ice around my heart and a giant hole so I feel hella dormant
You know I might as well cut this pity act out because I'm getting nowhere with these words
On God I'm really tired of my voice going unheard
This is a mental note I want you to take physically from me to you
So take the ******* invisible glasses off your face so you can hear one word or two
I'm locked away on my own private island not to escape but because I'm a prisoner
Yeah we're all human and a creation of God's but we're still natural born sinners
All sin is weighed the same still doesn't mean you can commit whatever crime you want
You committed the crime yet my poor excuse for a life is what death wanted to haunt
I'm physically, emotionally and mentally tired of this bs going on and enough is enough
Should've known It was all like Texas, I couldn't hold em so I never called your bluff
I'm spitting the blackness you instilled in my heart or should I say you added more fire to a dark and bitter flame
Just read the words being poured before I decide to blow out my cerebral membrane
Forget it you wouldn't understand anyway, you're only trying to be  a convict playing victim
A pity story is what you brought to the table end you still expect to believe that this is your dictum
I never thought this would be of reckoning for this path, didn't roses could turn into infectious weeds
I listened to my heart and tried to keep it all together thinking I was placing my faith in a mustard seed
Guess the jokes on me the devil most definitely is a liar guess he pulled all the stops on this one
Straight down from the bottom of your rugged feet up to the top of of hair placed in a bun
I had so many dreams yet I'm under enslavement to this game we shall speak of because I can't stop tossing and turning around in my sleep
Too many emotional scars and wounds and you don't have to guess because you know **** well that this one cut real deep
Depression and anger from hot to cold like sapphire and ruby
Their an inseparable pair some could call em a beastly beauty
But I never referred that to me that was an added line to make you think was a turning point where you'd see cherry blossoms
I got all these lego blocks falling apart from my heart when I only wanted to be AWESOME
Cut the bs out I didn't I'd be fighting Edward scissor hands with a piece of paper
I got so much my presents ****** like my past, I feel like the next Hello Neighbor
I'm getting ready to conclude to you what I feel burning within in my body and its not a desire to return
I feel like a newly born 9/11 disaster and now its only become none of your concern
Just lost and broken no words to be spoken I'm at a suicidal arcade trying to spend all my tokens
Getting ready to walk down the streets so once I say Sesame the doors'll be opened
You brutally murdered what little sanity and I'm on my way to an insane asylum
I can't excuse the pain you left behind beating me humdrum
I'm on my last limbs trying to send you a direct quote
Because I won't be the only one who has to pay after writing this Mental Note