It's only 3 little words that I want to hear

But it's those 3 little words he seems to fear

I know he will say them, I just have to wait

But sometimes words come just one day too late

I want to tell him, it's like a fire inside

But I don't want to scare him, those three words I must hide

Why can't he say them is what worries me most

Could he love another? Maybe not over an old ghost

I am not jealous or paranoid, only that answer I fear

What keeps him from telling me what I've been so patient to hear

That question is evil, it drives me insane

It makes me think things. It becomes a big game

I think he's only with me 'til she's back on the market

I'll end up alone, burnt, and broken hearted

Can it be real, if it's so hard for him to say?

Am I wasting more time with each new passing day?

This poem is about my boyfriend and I love him so

Does he love me in return? I do not know

If actions speak louder than words, I believe it is true

God please help me, I really wish I knew

But he is a very honest man, I want you to know

I asked him once before. His answer was "no."

Could it be he grew up without love

Could it be he could not tell what it was

It started out we were just having fun

If he ever left now, my heart would be done

So I think, sometimes I should go

If he ever will love me, I don't even know

He told me, after us, to heal his heart would take many years

Still from my eyes, out dropped a few tears

I thought it meant he loved me, but the words never came

Will he ever say them? Will he ever feel the same?

I am only 21, so this is okay for right now

But how long do I have to wait for his heart to make that vow

So I still think sometimes I should go

How long can I wait for his heart to know?

I never was that girl that wanted to marry

After only two months I was already weary

Commitment for me was was too steep

I was known as the girl never to leap

The chances I've taken never really counted

I would rip out their hearts and on my wall they are mounted

I would cheat all the time, then be honest with them

With every new guy, out the door my soul went

Deep down inside I was really just scared

What if I found it, that feeling, that flair?

Open up and get hurt? It's a thought I couldn't bare

In a thousand little pieces my whole heart would tare

So I dated in double digits, never just one

If my daddy didn't love me, love was no fun

Until one day, in the room walked a man

Now that day is known as the day my life began

Could it be true. love at first sight really exsists?

Two days went by, we had our first kiss

I couldn't believe it, he made my heart beat so fast

And then before I knew it, my two months had past

It was now time for me to let go

Before any feelings could start to show

I didn't want to do it, I was his new biggest fan

But if my daddy couldn't love me, how could this man?

What changed my life happened the very next day

He caught me surprised, off gaurd and amazed

In a bathroom at a party, he told his feelings to me

What he did next I couldn't believe

Just by holding my hand he set my heart free

I thought, what could he do with a kiss on the cheak?

Now it has been one year and a half

I remember my past lovers as I sit and look back

The longer I'm with him, I appreciate them more

Because they were the path that led me straight to his door

For the first time in my life, I hold nothing back

I give it my all. I want it to last

You've heard the saying, a dozen a dime

This man is priceless. He is one of a kind

I started out seeing him before my last was through

He was so great, but I wasn't ready. I didn't know what to do

I told him I didn't want a relationship and still he persists

We were inseperable. Every moment was bliss

I never had my independent freedom, but he was worth so much more

I still needed to breathe alone. Instead we bought the keys to our first door

It was our home. I was so happy! I knew I had done right

And then crept in urges to be single. I guess I lost that fight

He was so in love and I would have been too

If he gave me the time and space I first needed to do what I had to do

I cared for this man so much you must know

I was at a crossroads. I was falling in love

Still of my own time I could not let go

I cried for days after I cheated on him

I had to tell him of my lower than life sin

He left for days and that's when I realized

There went my whole life, I felt paralyzed

But our true love shun through and he came back

I was so happy! Our life seemed perfect after that

But eventually he got too busy for me and that really hurt inside

We didn't do the things we use to. I wondered "where was his mind?"

So I did what the old me knew to do best

I partied and partied. I didn't even come home to rest

And I mind ****** myself until I lost my reality

And then once more I ****** up. I committed our relationship's fatality

I was so drunk I couldn't remember, but when I did was ashamed

How could I do something so stupid?! All I really wanted was my man's last name

I had never lied to my love before, but this time how could I confess?

I couldn't risk losing him again! God, I made such a huge mess!

To pretend it never happened at all so hard I did try

I would make excuses Like "it was just a kiss" and " I didn't care about that guy"

Things became normal again. We were happy and true

I thanked God over and over! I was looking forward to saying "I Do"

Little did I know I wasn't off the hook just yet

My past came back to haunt me. It reared it's ugly head

Someone had recorded that kiss and knew my man's cell

They wanted to break us up and through via text they did tell

He sat on it for days while it boiled up inside

He waited to use it against me and when he did I did die

Since he left me I haven't eaten at all. I just sit and I cry

The dream that "3 times a Charm" is what keeps me alive

It took me a while to know what I wanted and how to handle my hard times

He really is my last true love. I pray one day he will feel the same way inside

He showed me his heart

And said "Baby, come inside.

It may not be the warmest place

But I'll show you a good time."

I really wasn't ready

So I said "No thanks, Goodbye.

I need more time to pass

Before I take another ride."

He said "What's the matter, Baby?

Are you scared 'cause I don't bite."

I told him "I just broke up with him,

It's too soon, just doesn't feel right."

He said "That guy doesn't want you anymore

But don't do this out of spite.

Do it 'cause you want to, Baby,

I'll give you the time of your life!

I just wanna make you happy

Even if it's temporary.

It's those cryptic blues

That keep me so I can't stop starring!."

And he said "That guy never loved you.

Deep down inside you know I'm right.

Give me one real chance, Babe.

Let me be the one to tuck you in a night!"

When it came down to it

You were just another guy

My eyes are dry now

Not a tear, not a cry

You've already been replaced ***

In only a month I'm over you

That month was three years ago

The month after you became true

I would laugh in your face

When you'd say you loved me

I'm a heartless *****, remember

I never felt a thing

When you left I was torn

And then I felt so mad

Now I realize what that was

It was my ego you hurt bad

Don't you see I never cared

It was only my bed, with you, that I ever shared

So go on with your new life

I hope you feel real happy and free

Something I haven't felt in three years

Because you took that from me

Even heaven is hell without you here

Every minute is an hour 'til you draw near

I can feel you getting closer as my eyes come together

Everything's okay again, you say this time's forever

We hug, we kiss, we wrestle and cuddle

You lay down the towel to soak my teary puddle

You bought your tuxedo and I found my white dress

We are so happy again, our love is endless

Right when I think things couldn't possibly be better

I wake to the only thing I have left of you

your old torn sweater

He's got this GQ swagger

And I can't complain

I just wanna hit his sheets

And hear him say my name

But it aint just that

Let me be on tha real

Imma lay down my pride

And let ya know how I feel

He's got this way with words

They call him the Extrodinaire

His flow and his style

Don't even try ta compare

I got him on my mind

And I'm actin a fool

I'm losin tha grind

All a sudden I aint too cool

I've known him for so long

And neva really knew him at all

And what's crazy **** cool

Is he might be tha one ta finally make me fall

I've neva been in love

Not in it's truest form

I neva even wanted it

But this fool has me trippin and torn

He's not really my type

But I can't name what he lacks

I feel like a high school girl

He just took me ten years back

He's mysterious and funny

He's **** and sweet

I know that he wants me

But he's too cool on tha street

He knows tha homie wants it

So he's gonna gimme up easy

He didn't count on losin me

Would make his **** queezy

He's already hooked and he don't know why

Now he's got that gangsta lean

And some buttaflies