let
me
breathe
easily.

I'm running
Trying to catch peace that never arrives
Hiding between shadows
So I don't have to remember

I'm running
Erasing footsteps in exhaustion
Convincing myself
That distance will make the pain smaller
But the farther I go
The more real it becomes

No one is chasing
Except the truth keeps waiting
That it wasn't you I left behind
It was me.

Then I stop
Let the heart hurt
Let the pain speak
I won't run anymore

The heaviest weight
A heart can bear.

Or perhaps,
A path God carves
For kindness to step in.

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I used to be whole, then fell apart
Blended with feelings that weren’t mine.
But look! I’ve turned softer now
Warmer with every touch.

What if, that day
You had told me what you wanted us to be?
What if you had spoken your truth
Let me in on your thoughts about us?
Maybe then,
I wouldn’t have walked away in anger.
Maybe then,
This silence wouldn’t feel so heavy.

I don't wish
to be wiser
only to be
gentler
kinder
warmer
humbler
calmer
and quieter