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All hipbones and collarbones, Size 1 and 0, long flowing hair and gauges, thigh gap and flat stomach, you are beautiful. All dry skin and yellow teeth, Size 12 and 13, short, plain hair, touching thighs and rounded stomach, I am "beautiful" to everyone but myself. I will be strong. I will be stronger. I will exercise more, I will eat less, I will be thinner. Once I've lost 40 pounds, then I might get the help everyone says I so desperately need, diet healthily and work with somebody. Until then, I will suffer through... ...because that shows strength, and eating shows weakness, weakness in myself. Calories should be a foreign substance, not an old friend, chewing and swallowing sometimes hurts worse than a **** lemon-juice papercut. 800 calories over my budget every **** day when my budget is already too high? That shows no strength. 500 calories under? THAT shows strength. Shows willpower. Shows endurance. That is what will make me thinner. I'm setting my budget to 500 instead of 1000, because hey, less is more, right?
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Dec 11, 2014
Dec 11, 2014 at 1:24 PM UTC
12:20 p.m.
All hipbones and collarbones, Size 1 and 0, long flowing hair and gauges, thigh gap and flat stomach, you are beautiful. All dry skin and yellow teeth, Size 12 and 13, short, plain hair, touching thighs and rounded stomach, I am "beautiful" to everyone but myself. I will be strong. I will be stronger. I will exercise more, I will eat less, I will be thinner. Once I've lost 40 pounds, then I might get the help everyone says I so desperately need, diet healthily and work with somebody. Until then, I will suffer through... ...because that shows strength, and eating shows weakness, weakness in myself. Calories should be a foreign substance, not an old friend, chewing and swallowing sometimes hurts worse than a **** lemon-juice papercut. 800 calories over my budget every **** day when my budget is already too high? That shows no strength. 500 calories under? THAT shows strength. Shows willpower. Shows endurance. That is what will make me thinner. I'm setting my budget to 500 instead of 1000, because hey, less is more, right?
I was just writing to write at this point. The first part I wrote the other day, about my best friend. The "I will be stronger" portion, I wrote now.
#anorexia#bulimia#maybe#ed#alsomaybeidk
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Dec 11, 2014
Dec 11, 2014 at 1:24 PM UTC
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