you were just a teen
but i was less than that
i was so confused on how to act
i looked at you and your long blonde hair
and somehow found myself in there.
your confusion left me feeling sure
your hand in mine, i felt secure
and I know it must’ve hurt that
all people wanted was
more more more
and-
i know you never needed anyone
after you lost your drug
but when a relationship dies, death still can’t conquer love
and love was all around you
but you purposely sought out hate
inhaled it down, held it in,
and for once, i couldn’t relate
i watched you plan your fate
through your destruction and watched you spiral
and when i went to pull you out
you let out this sickly smile
as if begging me to let you be
convincing yourself this was your destiny
as if pain in these doses was keeping you alive
who was this person i saw inside?
and all those times you attacked me with your eyes
and all those times you had me stuck in your lines
you were just ******* with our minds
cuz you enjoyed this maniacal ride
i still
would
reach for your hand
to bring you back,
it was always my plan
but with walls so thick and made of stone
to save you, i learned, i had to leave you alone.
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 4, 2014 at 2:26 PM UTC
you were just a teen
but i was less than that
i was so confused on how to act
i looked at you and your long blonde hair
and somehow found myself in there.
your confusion left me feeling sure
your hand in mine, i felt secure
and I know it must’ve hurt that
all people wanted was
more more more
and-
i know you never needed anyone
after you lost your drug
but when a relationship dies, death still can’t conquer love
and love was all around you
but you purposely sought out hate
inhaled it down, held it in,
and for once, i couldn’t relate
i watched you plan your fate
through your destruction and watched you spiral
and when i went to pull you out
you let out this sickly smile
as if begging me to let you be
convincing yourself this was your destiny
as if pain in these doses was keeping you alive
who was this person i saw inside?
and all those times you attacked me with your eyes
and all those times you had me stuck in your lines
you were just ******* with our minds
cuz you enjoyed this maniacal ride
i still
would
reach for your hand
to bring you back,
it was always my plan
but with walls so thick and made of stone
to save you, i learned, i had to leave you alone.
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