I would like to separate myself
The division of my body
Scoop it all out of the shell
Deep clean my insides
Expel my chyme
I move through air better
Empty.
I loose
pieces of me
On purpose.
An unsolvable puzzle,
Is a lighter one.
But I am still hungry
Like an animal;
Like a stray dog.
Hunting.
Growling.
Like stray dog
Begging for a man's food.
I am also the man
Who denies him.
They say
I am no longer allowed
To not allow myself.
BUT
I will never have the luxury
Of being thankful for permission,
And now I have lost the luxury of occluding myself.
I JUST
WANT TO GET IT OUT
I WANT TO WRING THE SALIVA OUT OF MY TONGUE
BEFORE THEY WEIGH ME
I WANT TO GORE CHUNKS OUT OF MYSELF
LIKE PIECES OF BIRTHDAY CAKE
I WANT TO SHAVE OFF MY EDGES
TILL MY HEART IS ALL THAT REMAINS
I NEED TO SHATTER
Into one million shards of myself
So I am nothing but a fraction of what I once was.
BECAUSE IF I WAS IN PEICES
My shards would be smaller.
They would be lighter
And that is how I would prefer to be.
May 16
May 16, 2026 at 2:07 PM UTC
I would like to separate myself
The division of my body
Scoop it all out of the shell
Deep clean my insides
Expel my chyme
I move through air better
Empty.
I loose
pieces of me
On purpose.
An unsolvable puzzle,
Is a lighter one.
But I am still hungry
Like an animal;
Like a stray dog.
Hunting.
Growling.
Like stray dog
Begging for a man's food.
I am also the man
Who denies him.
They say
I am no longer allowed
To not allow myself.
BUT
I will never have the luxury
Of being thankful for permission,
And now I have lost the luxury of occluding myself.
I JUST
WANT TO GET IT OUT
I WANT TO WRING THE SALIVA OUT OF MY TONGUE
BEFORE THEY WEIGH ME
I WANT TO GORE CHUNKS OUT OF MYSELF
LIKE PIECES OF BIRTHDAY CAKE
I WANT TO SHAVE OFF MY EDGES
TILL MY HEART IS ALL THAT REMAINS
I NEED TO SHATTER
Into one million shards of myself
So I am nothing but a fraction of what I once was.
BECAUSE IF I WAS IN PEICES
My shards would be smaller.
They would be lighter
And that is how I would prefer to be.