There is this weird balance of me needing it
because i get to share my work but at the same time its a need for attention
the views my work spreading
like I've wanted it to for so long
people actually understanding me
the praise god i love the praise
I yearn for the love and connection I gain
i cant get over it
it draws me in both ways
then i get stressed out
im not as good as i once thought.
Consider giving it all up,
but i know it's one of the only ways i feel better
better about things i cant get help with
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 10:04 PM UTC
There is this weird balance of me needing it
because i get to share my work but at the same time its a need for attention
the views my work spreading
like I've wanted it to for so long
people actually understanding me
the praise god i love the praise
I yearn for the love and connection I gain
i cant get over it
it draws me in both ways
then i get stressed out
im not as good as i once thought.
Consider giving it all up,
but i know it's one of the only ways i feel better
better about things i cant get help with
I'm stuck at a in-between I love this place but it's addicting but my only true place to be seen