******* hell, I'm not even sad anymore, and at this point it's just numb. I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm just trying to survive, but even that seems hard sometimes because they look at me like my pain is some show. Like my suffering is worth less than theirs. And all my friends say **** like "get over it," but how am I supposed to get over something like this, the first real thing I've had. I thought it was real, I thought they loved me, but then again, maybe the reason things keep ending like this is my fault because I know I'm a lot and a ***** and just too much. But I thought that maybe, maybe this time would be different, but I guess I'm just as stupid as I've always been.
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 8:38 PM UTC
******* hell, I'm not even sad anymore, and at this point it's just numb. I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm just trying to survive, but even that seems hard sometimes because they look at me like my pain is some show. Like my suffering is worth less than theirs. And all my friends say **** like "get over it," but how am I supposed to get over something like this, the first real thing I've had. I thought it was real, I thought they loved me, but then again, maybe the reason things keep ending like this is my fault because I know I'm a lot and a ***** and just too much. But I thought that maybe, maybe this time would be different, but I guess I'm just as stupid as I've always been.
I know this is a part of healing, but I liked the sadness more than the numb because sad I know this I don't ( the they isn't them but their friends)
