The pain they feel is worse for me
than the pain of living with her
because her i'm used to
her I can handle
but hurnting them
making them worry about me
is something I never want to do
something I never want them to fear
we're both so young
they dont need this
they should be able to have
their biggest worry be about grades or friends
no if I'm going to make it through the night
they want to take all the pain away
take me away from her
and id let them in a heartbeat
but I know reality
i know they can't
May 7
May 7, 2026 at 8:49 AM UTC
Silence
something that speaks louder
than any words can
because the silences of a victim
can say so many more words
than the screaming of the accused
July 28, 1917,
black lifes matter
january 10 1917
to June 4, 1919
womens rights
All these Silence protest
that lead to change
change in the way we see people
change in the way we feel
change in the way we hear silence
May 5
May 5, 2026 at 1:11 PM UTC
Something old
the scars on her once flawless skin
done by the groom
something new
the plastic surgery on her nose
because he had broken it so badly
something borrowed
the smile she always wore on her face
That was never quite right anymore
something blue
the bruises on her body
that covered her almost from head to toe
May 5
May 5, 2026 at 9:45 AM UTC
I look at you and wonder
wonder
why
why you're like this
why you resort to violence
Why don't you look at me
like you love me anymore
why I have to beg
for the little attention you give
May 4
May 4, 2026 at 3:26 AM UTC
the funny thing about love is
that no matter how much it hurts
how much you lose
people yearn for it
for the want
for the need of another
and i to am a fool
for the sick twisted thing
that is love
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 11:02 PM UTC
I've always wondered
wonder why people love
knowing it's going to end in pain
for at least one of the two
whether in death due us part
or the cheating of one
Why would people choose to
love knowing
knowing nothing forever
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I hear my friends say **** like
"I wish I could go back to when I believed in true love."
But I never did
not truly
If anything, I'm closer to knowing what
"true love"
is then ever before in my life
But I guess that's what happens
When, instead of bedtime stories
It was gunshots and the sound of
My dad beating my mom in the next room
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When I fell in love with the first, and no, I don't mean dating for the first time, I mean really, truly feeling the feels or romantic love for the first time, and not having it be a lie or have him be a cheater or a beater, and god, it feels magical, mystical, even like I'm in heaven but insted of dating a angle im dating a god himself
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Love is like a storm so wild and freeing,
So my love, being with you is like running in a flowery field
of warmth, love, and happiness
And God does it feel lovely
And like a drug, I keep coming back
for more and more and more
At this point in addicted to the sweet sugary nectar
That is you
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 11:34 AM UTC
the sky full
of oranges and yellows
the colors of the sunrise
Yet it was after noon
The river full and clear
like always
Yet the burning sky
can not go unnoticed
So I yell and yell
Yet no words come out
I yell
and yell
and yell
Yet I don't move at all
standing on that bridge
yelling for someone
to notice the burning sky
Yet people just continue
to walk down the creaky bridge
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 12:53 AM UTC
******* hell, I'm not even sad anymore, and at this point it's just numb. I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm just trying to survive, but even that seems hard sometimes because they look at me like my pain is some show. Like my suffering is worth less than theirs. And all my friends say **** like "get over it," but how am I supposed to get over something like this, the first real thing I've had. I thought it was real, I thought they loved me, but then again, maybe the reason things keep ending like this is my fault because I know I'm a lot and a ***** and just too much. But I thought that maybe, maybe this time would be different, but I guess I'm just as stupid as I've always been.
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 9:22 AM UTC
This is not one of those poems
meant to bring emotions or to bring awareness,
This is a declaration
of the wars that go on in my head
where no one else can see
a mix of the good
the bad
the ugly
the pretty
of everything that I do not dare speak out about
in fear of being judged
hated
crusified
for the emotions in my own head
and not even God,
for he does not exsite
can save me
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 8:36 PM UTC
You're flying too close to the sun
they say
But you need to fly past the sun
to get to the stars
And you, my love,
are a star
so bright and beautiful
yet also so out of reach
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 11:21 PM UTC