I miss it
not the place
but the temperature of being held.
Once, home was a body around me
warm water I did not have to cross
I did not swim
I floated.
They carried me without knowing
they were carrying
Now I return
and nothing has moved.
The streets remain
exactly where I left them.
Walls still breathe the same dust.
Chairs remember the shape of my childhood.
It is I who has shifted
a continent drifting quietly away.
Pompeii.
Statue city.
The music plays somewhere
but the dancers are ash.
They smile the same smiles.
They speak the same words.
Do they know?
Can they hear my voice?
Everything is preserved
except the illusion.
It hurts
how growth is a kind of betrayal
How love can stay still
while you grow wings.
Hold on to me and lie
Say nothing has changed
Say I am still small enough
to fit inside your arms.
Place your hand on your heart
I will place mine on memory
Between us
an ocean that was once a room.
Blood in birth.
Blood in departure.
The cord that fed me
I had to cut.
Butterfly,
Fly.
The garden
no longer knows your name.
Our hearts still beat
in the womb of that house.
And when I close my eyes,
the statues breathe
just for a moment.
Feb 28
Feb 28, 2026 at 4:22 PM UTC
I miss it
not the place
but the temperature of being held.
Once, home was a body around me
warm water I did not have to cross
I did not swim
I floated.
They carried me without knowing
they were carrying
Now I return
and nothing has moved.
The streets remain
exactly where I left them.
Walls still breathe the same dust.
Chairs remember the shape of my childhood.
It is I who has shifted
a continent drifting quietly away.
Pompeii.
Statue city.
The music plays somewhere
but the dancers are ash.
They smile the same smiles.
They speak the same words.
Do they know?
Can they hear my voice?
Everything is preserved
except the illusion.
It hurts
how growth is a kind of betrayal
How love can stay still
while you grow wings.
Hold on to me and lie
Say nothing has changed
Say I am still small enough
to fit inside your arms.
Place your hand on your heart
I will place mine on memory
Between us
an ocean that was once a room.
Blood in birth.
Blood in departure.
The cord that fed me
I had to cut.
Butterfly,
Fly.
The garden
no longer knows your name.
Our hearts still beat
in the womb of that house.
And when I close my eyes,
the statues breathe
just for a moment.