#missing
She’s running out of time and out of breath,
and the memories are starting to leave her.
She says that these things were all she had left,
and she doesn’t want to see people prematurely start to grieve her.
Just give me one more day,
I won’t wish it away.
Every night I’ll pray
that she’ll find the will to stay.
If you’ve never loved you’ve never lost,
those angels from above; they come with a cost.
She’s got all types of artificial life running through her veins,
and yet with all that help she’s still feeling pain.
Just give me one more day,
I won’t wish it away.
When one side starts to sway,
I won’t beg her to stay.
Well now nearing the end of the race,
there’s some decisions one has to face.
I’ll take any comfort to keep heart warm
even if it’s just signing a form,
to give her one last choice,
I hear confirmation in her voice.
And within merely hours,
the tears pour out like showers.
Wasting away, and still I want to say
“please just stay.”
“It’s only May.”
“I’m sorry I couldn’t keep this feeling at bay.”
“Please just stay.”
4h ago
Jun 3, 2026 at 1:26 PM UTC
My sun rose in your eyes the stars and moon they aligned My heart only beat because of you I confess that I still miss your soft, tenderness even after all you put me through I try to find different ways that I could've convinced you to stay I go to all the places we used to Why couldn't you have stayed? Is this another game where I pay? You know that I only love you Tell me ,why didn't you stay? I never loved anyone this way I will do anything you want me to
22h ago
Jun 2, 2026 at 7:50 PM UTC
I ache for the weight of his hands,
his gentle conquest, my weary surrender.
The clasp undone, a silent unlocking,
and I, frail as dusk, lean into him,
his chest a steadfast haven of warmth.
Fingers trace the curve of my shoulders,
slipping straps cascade like autumn leaves,
an ending, a beginning, all at once.
His palms cradle me as if I am fragile,
a vessel brimming with quiet holiness.
Each slow circle of his thumbs awakens,
the soft rise, the quiet swell,
and I sigh, drawn beyond fatigue,
into the calm of his knowing touch.
His breath spills against my cheek,
words melting into my hair, unheard
but understood in the trembling silence:
"You are mine; I'll not let go."
The hush deepens; the world recedes.
Our bodies thread with unseen bonds.
I live only in the space of this,
the boundless gift of being undone.
1d ago
Jun 2, 2026 at 12:58 AM UTC
I miss you like
flames in my chest
I'm trying my best
but I need to see your face
and it seems I cannot wait
I breathe and catch
your scent on the breeze;
see your face in
people on the street
I need you
so I close my eyes
and once again I can see
that soft face in front of me
I hear your voice
in my mind
all of the time
So don't you know?
I miss you
3d ago
May 31, 2026 at 10:44 AM UTC
I miss you in everything I haven't felt before.
In every touch, every song, every taste,
In every vibration that reaches
Just a bit deeper than before.
I already miss you when the wind
Shakes the whole meadow in front of me.
I'm looking for your hand when
I'm boiling in rage.
I miss you in every stranger,
Oh..if you would know, you Stranger.
I miss you in every raindrop,
In every sip of coffee.
Every ripped paper,
And in every drop of blood from my veins.
In everything that's pulsing,
My emotions mounting.
Starnger, do you hear me? Do you see me?
Can't you reach me?
I'm running through the Universe,
Catching the wind and talking to stars,
I'm reaching for your hand.
I'm missing you in every person,
Every fade and every ache.
I'm searching your taste, your like, your scent,
Like a drag path you'd left.
2026.04.
3d ago
May 31, 2026 at 10:19 AM UTC
Because i don't see you very often,
I bottle up our time together,
like grapes in sunny weather,
made into delicious wine.
So when the feeling
hits me,
reaching for the metaphysical corkscrew,
taste that memory,
with every detail,
even the what seemed
Insignificant.
We're sat in the car,
you got raw milk in a jar,
but the dates gone too far,
throw it into the bin!
but that would be a sin,
maybe all's not lost,
especially at the ****** cost,
maybe the cream will be okay? Mmmmm it is,
my senses say,
satisfied we drive away.
7d ago
May 27, 2026 at 5:33 PM UTC
Five thousand, nine hundred,
And ninety point five miles;
The distance today which
Brought me tears upon smiles
I listened intently,
Held the phone to my cheek,
The tears left my eyes
As I willed you to speak
Your voice lights such a
Special place in my heart,
Never want you to stop
Yet to hear you is hard
My rock, my paternal
Connection to the world,
Bells chime in my heart,
Your voice soothes my soul
The words that you speak
Full of wisdom and glee,
You pull on my heart strings
I miss you immensely
My father, my world,
The one I adore,
I long for the day
I'll see you once more
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 7:42 PM UTC
To my dear friends I’ve never met,
Who dared to break my solitary gate,
To those still here, and those long gone—
Bleeding ink connected us, not phones.
I am caught between longing and despair,
As though I suffocate while breathing air.
Within the furnace, I mend and hide
My weary face, my grief inside.
For I know nothing of tomorrow,
Yet nostalgia softens all my sorrow.
Though I dwell in darkness and the void,
I wait once more for your voices—
To pull me from the endless ocean
And guide me home again.
JobitaNYC @5232026
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 1:09 AM UTC
I pray for your moment of weakness
When it becomes too much for you
When the anxiety gets too loud
And your heart is screaming at you
And your phone is eerily quiet
And your mind keeps begging
And the loneliness is overwhelming
I pray for your moment of weakness
When you finally snap
And text me "Hi"
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 1:45 PM UTC
Sometimes I think of you when I wake up,
but not always.
Sometimes I think of you when the sun is bright,
but not always.
Sometimes I think of you when mornings are foggy,
but not always.
Sometimes I think of you when there’s a chill in the air,
but not always.
Sometimes I see the light strokes of pen on page and think of your skin,
but not always.
Sometimes I see the shiny red of your hair painted throughout the sunsets,
but not always.
Sometimes I hear laughter and wonder if that’s what you would sound like,
but not always.
Sometimes I think of you,
maybe always.
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 2:06 AM UTC
Hey Aunt Nina
How have you been?
I heard heaven was like paradise
I can't believe it's been one year since you've been home
Oh how it feels so long since you've been gone
I wouldn't bring you back for a second knowing you're where you belong
Hey Aunt Nina I believe it won't be long until we are standing at those gates
Hey Aunt Nina I believe this earth is about to be made new
Aunt Nina I miss you and love you but it won't be long before we all are home
May 18
May 18, 2026 at 7:46 PM UTC
You have a hold on me
One I do not understand
You understand me without ever having to touch me
My body craves you near me
It craves the bond we shared
The memories in the cafe
The laughter in day
The way you make the heart skip a beat
I wish we could start over
I wish to be in your embrace
I wish to be yours again
You understood me from the moment we met
I remember it all as if it were yesterday
You in blue with your curls neatly done came up to me
Thought were running through my mind
He is cute but he is too young
Only to find you are older than me
With one of the most beautiful smiles and souls I had ever seen
I was captivated from that day
You truly amaze me with all it is you do
You make me want to be better
You push me
I wish we kissed after coming from dinner
I crave to know what you taste
May 7
May 7, 2026 at 9:29 PM UTC
you will go across the gloom //
without a torch
and the horrors of the night //
will be scattered
before your bare feet
for they have taken from you
your clothes, your smile,
and your shoes
just as they have taken from you //
the dread
those who did not believe
will fear the wrath and flee
and their caves will be sealed
and the forests will come back
to life
you will sing
and your smile will return
the sun will rise
and there will be no more gloom
May 15
May 15, 2026 at 5:18 AM UTC
”Eat your veggies you need to eat them to be strong !,
Is what i’ve heard from my mother all my childhood.
Young, i could not understand,
I would not understand.
This disgusting green and bland food would make me strong ?
Why did she insists this badly,
I could hit the gym like these grown up do,
But she wouldn’t drop it.
However, today, i got it.
It was never about the vegetables and their vitamins,
But about maturing and being independent.
Now..- I still hear her voice sometimes,
Telling me, begging me to eat my plate,
And I don’t want this to stop,
Because i fear that she was right and that i should have listened to her,
I am not strong enough to eat my veggies without her.
I am forgetting her face,
her smile,
her eyes,
but never her advice,
and God how I miss her.”
May 8
May 8, 2026 at 11:44 AM UTC
Every so often
I traced the crevice
That lies within me
The rough edges
The old indentation
Like a bad habit
A shameful secret
I am scratched and jagged
But once again whole
Yet every so often
My fingers will still
Feel around for the piece
That once belonged to you
May 8
May 8, 2026 at 11:39 AM UTC
My head is hurting
From how much my heart
Keeps asking for you
May 5
May 5, 2026 at 10:53 AM UTC
Huda my love
losing you was a new kind of pain
but missing you every day
has become something worse
it sits with me
in the quiet
in the mornings
In lonely nights
in all the little things
that still feel like they should be ours
I still carry you with me
in every memory
every day
every part of me doesn’t want to move on
and what hurts the most
is feeling it more every day
that I may never get to call you
my wife again
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 11:37 PM UTC
Do you think of me
I think of you a lot
Before I go to bed
I think of you smiling
The way you always did
Everytime we held hands
Everytime our eyes touched
Everytime we laughed at a joke together
Your smile would shine so bright
I would build dreams about you
Just to pretend you were still here
In my dreams I was home again
Not home like a house
But in an empty wasteland
With only you by my side
You and your smile
I would be fine dying right then and there
Because when they would find my body
I too would be smiling
And they would know its because I was with you
One last time..
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 11:06 PM UTC
In you I heard an echo of a voice i thought was lost to me
A voice that only runs through dreams
It anchors my drifting mind
A balm to every wound
This voice
It bends my ear to its sweet alluring tone,
Softer than prayer
This voice
Lifts my face to the sun
This voice
Nearer than memory
One I hoped to hear again when comes my time
But that voice can only belong to one, so who is this that I hear in you?
Dec 10, 2025
Dec 10, 2025 at 2:44 AM UTC
Begging for one more night back in your arms,
After then I can run
I can get away from your ticking time bomb of a gun
Stuck into my neck
Ready to blow me up at any moment
Having me run back to you, again.
“safe” you could call it -
Home if it was built on piles of your words
Living on every deception you’ve built from, this lie of a life I call mine.
But only then the warmth would smell like ash;
As it catches fire through the place entirely.
But only then you would blame it on me, explain how I let it burn.
Maybe burning was the only way to escape the coldness of your distance I could not outrun.
Maybe now the debris can erase every memory of you.
Every picture perfect, every signature scent, every piling piece, of you.
Only until the gun goes off, and once again
I’m begging for one more night back in your arms.
When will this end.
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 7:16 PM UTC
I should have been at the airport
Eating over priced pastries
Listening to your “hey baby”’s on the phone
My heart should have been so full
Of love and things that feel like a drug
The rush of your hand on my thigh
As the road passes by
Where we sang Bon Jovi the last time
Instead I know you'll tell me it's time to let go
That you don't miss me anymore
you're finally starting to feel free
So I cry in the shower
I look at the token of our memories
And hope one day I feel as detached
as you do from me
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 6:04 AM UTC
i could tell
i wasn’t first
just somewhere after
whatever didn’t work out
and i stayed
longer than i should have
waiting to be chosen
without hesitation
i am loved,
i think
but love shouldn’t feel
like being next in line
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 3:16 AM UTC
Towers stretching to the sky, made of steel,
Sewer smoke and worn rubber in the air,
Hot dogs and exhaust and trash under heel,
Sirens wailing endlessly in despair,
In the restless streets, horns honk and tires screech;
As a garbage truck backs into the road,
On the sidewalk, a small dog yanks at its leash,
A smoggy sky where stars forget to load.
My eyes and ears and nose all start to bleed,
As I am overwhelmed by its absence;
To see my home city is what I need-
I seethe and sigh and smell the suburbs' scents.
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 3:11 PM UTC
I used to hate school breaks
Even the weekends were unbearable
Because I missed you so badly
I'd crawl to that Monday
And smile wide when I saw you show
Cheerful for "Oh, no reason!"
During Christmas
Or the first full week of spring
I'd think of you
Maybe every ten minutes or so
Just waiting for that moment
Where I could stare into your back
Wishing you might one day stare, too
I like the breaks now
I hardly ever think of you
The world around me is able to glow
Finally without your presence
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 1:55 PM UTC
I heard a voice
Just like yours
I know it's not you
I know it's not possible
It wasn't the same
It wasn't as beautiful
But for that moment
A fraction of a second
My heart felt like
It exploded in hope
It thought of only you
I know it's not you
I know it's not possible
But for that second
Just that moment
I wished it was
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 1:44 PM UTC