So now I wanted to drink iced americano,
in the sun thinking of the man who loved me.
who really turned out to want to use my body.
But it's not like we didn't agree,
that that was all it was.
Even though I fell in love,
I truly thought, I'd... change your mind.
Now it's your birthday and I'm here at home,
I found someone new, so I can heal the hole .
It's crazy how much can happen in a year,
If everything didn't happen, would I be here?
I kept swinging back and forth,
on all these thoughts.
Even couples on the TV,
talked like us.
But they're not realistic,
They're only just fiction.
I know I should let go,
it's time to close the door.
I'm finally standing still,
observing it all.
I just fell in love so fast,
should I pay crimes for that?
I know I should let it go,
but I cried to my favourite songs,
Thinking I'd shut them off completely,
But now I'm obsessed with the bands.
I thought I'd cry forever,
about us not being together.
But I know, I've changed my mind.
It wasn't love this time...
Feb 19
Feb 19, 2026 at 6:50 PM UTC
So now I wanted to drink iced americano,
in the sun thinking of the man who loved me.
who really turned out to want to use my body.
But it's not like we didn't agree,
that that was all it was.
Even though I fell in love,
I truly thought, I'd... change your mind.
Now it's your birthday and I'm here at home,
I found someone new, so I can heal the hole .
It's crazy how much can happen in a year,
If everything didn't happen, would I be here?
I kept swinging back and forth,
on all these thoughts.
Even couples on the TV,
talked like us.
But they're not realistic,
They're only just fiction.
I know I should let go,
it's time to close the door.
I'm finally standing still,
observing it all.
I just fell in love so fast,
should I pay crimes for that?
I know I should let it go,
but I cried to my favourite songs,
Thinking I'd shut them off completely,
But now I'm obsessed with the bands.
I thought I'd cry forever,
about us not being together.
But I know, I've changed my mind.
It wasn't love this time...
I did write this last year, I just forgot to post it up.
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