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I sit here bowl of cherries in front of my face they haunt me "you're so fat you really think you should eat that?" "you need to go on a diet, like not eat at all..." I'm sobbing I'm starving they look so magical I miss food as much as I hate to say it so here I sit eating these cherries sobbing I feel sick it dosent sit quite right but im scared scared I'll never be able to eat them again if I don't eat them now I finish the bowl bite by bite I feel disgusting like really disgusting I rush to the water I never am good at drinking water unless this occurs I drink a glass maybe 2 maybe 3 then I rush into the bathroom I lock the door press my ear against the wall hoping nobody's here so here I am home alone alone in the bathroom alone with my thoughts I shove my fingers in my throat and ***** and ***** and keep on vommiting once I'm done I stop I sob on the floor against the toilet why did I eat that? why did I throw up? its so painful and heartbreaking doing it every time the thoughts rush in after a meal I should've just texted my friend shouldve just told myself "its fine" but I don't know anymore should I get help or just keep vomiting?
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Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 6:34 PM UTC
throwing up (tw mia)
I sit here bowl of cherries in front of my face they haunt me "you're so fat you really think you should eat that?" "you need to go on a diet, like not eat at all..." I'm sobbing I'm starving they look so magical I miss food as much as I hate to say it so here I sit eating these cherries sobbing I feel sick it dosent sit quite right but im scared scared I'll never be able to eat them again if I don't eat them now I finish the bowl bite by bite I feel disgusting like really disgusting I rush to the water I never am good at drinking water unless this occurs I drink a glass maybe 2 maybe 3 then I rush into the bathroom I lock the door press my ear against the wall hoping nobody's here so here I am home alone alone in the bathroom alone with my thoughts I shove my fingers in my throat and ***** and ***** and keep on vommiting once I'm done I stop I sob on the floor against the toilet why did I eat that? why did I throw up? its so painful and heartbreaking doing it every time the thoughts rush in after a meal I should've just texted my friend shouldve just told myself "its fine" but I don't know anymore should I get help or just keep vomiting?
sorry guys if that was unexpected lwk js purged haha love my life 3
#bulimia#depression#throwup#vommit
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Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 6:34 PM UTC
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