sometimes, I get angry
and
sometimes, I don't know why
it's a pain that's
inherited
and
passed down
the bloodlines.
I think around 6,
I became lonely
but
I think at 8,
I became alone.
When I first learned
that telling
those around me,
would not
fix
the problem
and would
only
make
the heartache
more
unbearable.
So, I started to perfect the art of performance:
good daughter
protective sister
independent
&
worthy
loving friend
sacrificing lover
and
instead of expressing my pain
I took on that of others,
because
that pain
I could
control
or at least
I could try.
-
The veil between
performance
and me
became as
thin
as my frame did,
until one day
it vanished
and I didn't even
notice.
Apr 1, 2021
Apr 1, 2021 at 5:34 PM UTC
sometimes, I get angry
and
sometimes, I don't know why
it's a pain that's
inherited
and
passed down
the bloodlines.
I think around 6,
I became lonely
but
I think at 8,
I became alone.
When I first learned
that telling
those around me,
would not
fix
the problem
and would
only
make
the heartache
more
unbearable.
So, I started to perfect the art of performance:
good daughter
protective sister
independent
&
worthy
loving friend
sacrificing lover
and
instead of expressing my pain
I took on that of others,
because
that pain
I could
control
or at least
I could try.
-
The veil between
performance
and me
became as
thin
as my frame did,
until one day
it vanished
and I didn't even
notice.