I am drowning.
But I won't let any one know.
There's no need to let it show.
I can hide it behind my smile.
Or I can bury it deep where no one can see.
"It's okay."
I say to myself.
I'll draw a smile to remind me that it's okay.
To be alone in this sadness is a familiar scene.
It has happened many times before.
So there's nothing new about this now.
I've been sad before.
I've been sad a million times before.
And I've managed to stay afloat.
Paddling in the water for as long I can remember.
Keeping my chin above the water.
Gazing up at the stars in the night sky.
"Stay above the water."
I reminded myself.
But now my arm has gone numb.
The cold water pulls me deeper.
Darkness embraces me.
I am tired.
And the stars in the sky are saying goodbye.
"I am drowning."
"And no one will ever know."
Because when the sun comes up tomorrow.
I'll put on a smile and I'll lie to myself that I am fine.
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 12:41 PM UTC
I am drowning.
But I won't let any one know.
There's no need to let it show.
I can hide it behind my smile.
Or I can bury it deep where no one can see.
"It's okay."
I say to myself.
I'll draw a smile to remind me that it's okay.
To be alone in this sadness is a familiar scene.
It has happened many times before.
So there's nothing new about this now.
I've been sad before.
I've been sad a million times before.
And I've managed to stay afloat.
Paddling in the water for as long I can remember.
Keeping my chin above the water.
Gazing up at the stars in the night sky.
"Stay above the water."
I reminded myself.
But now my arm has gone numb.
The cold water pulls me deeper.
Darkness embraces me.
I am tired.
And the stars in the sky are saying goodbye.
"I am drowning."
"And no one will ever know."
Because when the sun comes up tomorrow.
I'll put on a smile and I'll lie to myself that I am fine.
haha i don't-
no
