a part of me doesn't want to go
a part of me don't want to leave
I don't want to let go...
to let go of you.
I don't want to meet the love of my life on rooftop parties,
because a part of me wants it to be you,
but it can never be you...
last wednesday I saw you,
I looked, and then I looked away
I breathed, and I try to let go
for it can never be you...
Jan 1
Jan 1, 2026 at 12:04 PM UTC
I saw my mother
four times and then she was gone,
by dusk, we walked home
Dec 9, 2025
Dec 9, 2025 at 12:27 PM UTC
I think of him,
someone I can't have.
I think of a time,
where it would never be.
I think to myself,
if I were to have all the
lifetimes possible...
It'd be with him everyday.
I'd choose that everyday.
I choose him everyday.
But I know it'll never be,
so I just think... maybe I'll just
think and then I stop.
Nov 13, 2025
Nov 13, 2025 at 11:06 AM UTC
There is nothing left to do but do
I'm tired of hate and silence
I can never not talk
To suffer will be the end of this,
But I already suffer
Suffering is bearable
But to suffer with hatred is death while living
I can smile
I choose to smile even after everything
I live
And someday, I will be gone
I lived, I suffered, I loved, and it was all alright
Apr 14, 2024
Apr 14, 2024 at 11:30 AM UTC
NO, you did not
because if you did then I wouldn't be writing this.
Yes, you did
because if you did not then I wouldn't be writing this
I want to say I don't care anymore
but if I didn't then I wouldn't writing about it
BUT I care,
and so I will write till I don't.
AND now,
you'll become nothing but words.
YOUR sweet face will fade into a sound everyone will read.
EVERYTHING you did will remain in pages for eternity.
SO I will write,
so you and what you did will never die.
Aug 28, 2021
Aug 28, 2021 at 2:09 AM UTC
I am drowning.
But I won't let any one know.
There's no need to let it show.
I can hide it behind my smile.
Or I can bury it deep where no one can see.
"It's okay."
I say to myself.
I'll draw a smile to remind me that it's okay.
To be alone in this sadness is a familiar scene.
It has happened many times before.
So there's nothing new about this now.
I've been sad before.
I've been sad a million times before.
And I've managed to stay afloat.
Paddling in the water for as long I can remember.
Keeping my chin above the water.
Gazing up at the stars in the night sky.
"Stay above the water."
I reminded myself.
But now my arm has gone numb.
The cold water pulls me deeper.
Darkness embraces me.
I am tired.
And the stars in the sky are saying goodbye.
"I am drowning."
"And no one will ever know."
Because when the sun comes up tomorrow.
I'll put on a smile and I'll lie to myself that I am fine.
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 12:41 PM UTC
The world's sadness
is taking its toll on me.
But I am not the only one.
Jan 26, 2020
Jan 26, 2020 at 10:23 PM UTC
Almost.
Almost means it will happen.
Like,
Almost cried
Almost forgot
Almost ready
Almost here
Almost done
Almost.
Almost can also mean it never happened.
Like,
Almost in love
Almost
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 10:24 AM UTC
I realize now
as I read your words dancing with the light of the screen,
I don't love you.
I wanted to be in love.
People seemed happy
when they are in love.
I wanted to be happy.
And being in love seemed
to take all the loneliness away.
It was then I remembered
the feeling buried with
forgotten memories.
I liked you.
And then I wanted to love you,
to love every inch
and every detail about you.
"I love you."
But I wasn't happy.
I wanted to be happy.
I thought if I loved you I would be happy.
"I loved you."
I wasn't happy.
I didn't love you.
I was merely caught up with the
idea of being in love,
of being in love with you.
Oct 11, 2019
Oct 11, 2019 at 12:03 PM UTC