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This whole night, it was almost as if alarm bells were ringing in my head non-stop Trigger after trigger after trigger I tried everything I could to keep myself composed. Deep ocean breathing. Box breathing. Subject changes. Nothing worked. I was at war with myself the whole time. A battle between my mind and its triggers, and the voice inside my head yelling at me for being so selfish, and making this night about me and my triggers I felt like I was clawing at my brain trying to escape the thoughts. Praying I could just be like everyone else for one night. Nothing stopped it. Trigger, they just talked about an event and didn't invite me. Trigger I'm not good enough Trigger nobody is talking to me Trigger why am I like this Trigger get me out of my head Trigger they noticed I'm quiet Trigger the tears roll down my cheek Trigger nobody would have noticed if I wasnt here tonight Trigger I dont wanna be here tonight Trigger I dont wanna be here at all. Trigger Trigger Trigger I tried to shut the alarms off but they rang all night and I'm exhausted. Trigger. C.m.
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Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 12:37 AM UTC
Trigger
This whole night, it was almost as if alarm bells were ringing in my head non-stop Trigger after trigger after trigger I tried everything I could to keep myself composed. Deep ocean breathing. Box breathing. Subject changes. Nothing worked. I was at war with myself the whole time. A battle between my mind and its triggers, and the voice inside my head yelling at me for being so selfish, and making this night about me and my triggers I felt like I was clawing at my brain trying to escape the thoughts. Praying I could just be like everyone else for one night. Nothing stopped it. Trigger, they just talked about an event and didn't invite me. Trigger I'm not good enough Trigger nobody is talking to me Trigger why am I like this Trigger get me out of my head Trigger they noticed I'm quiet Trigger the tears roll down my cheek Trigger nobody would have noticed if I wasnt here tonight Trigger I dont wanna be here tonight Trigger I dont wanna be here at all. Trigger Trigger Trigger I tried to shut the alarms off but they rang all night and I'm exhausted. Trigger. C.m.
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Thingsillneversay
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Thingsillneversay
27/F/Ontario, Canada
Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 12:37 AM UTC
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