The weatherman said it was going to rain but he didn’t mention
when it would let up. It’s been raining for years.
I keep telling myself I’m not allowed to be this downpour,
this unhappy
all the time. It doesn’t help.
I don’t want to be brave today. I don’t
want to do the work today. I don’t want to do the work today. I don’t want
to do the work today. I don't want to.
The only thing worth living for is the sunset. I’m letting things
pile up instead of taking care of them. I want to see
how high I can get.
This is the terrible precipice I’ve been peering over.
Everyone/ no one is worried for me.
If I fall on them,
I will be so heavy. And what is it if it isn’t
everyone you take with you on the way down?
I thought I would fall right into the sunshine. I thought I’d be
covered in it.
Oh my god I can’t die yet,
my room isn’t clean.
Look, I brushed my hair.
I got dressed.
See, I'm better now. See?
Sep 23, 2019
Sep 23, 2019 at 4:51 AM UTC
The weatherman said it was going to rain but he didn’t mention
when it would let up. It’s been raining for years.
I keep telling myself I’m not allowed to be this downpour,
this unhappy
all the time. It doesn’t help.
I don’t want to be brave today. I don’t
want to do the work today. I don’t want to do the work today. I don’t want
to do the work today. I don't want to.
The only thing worth living for is the sunset. I’m letting things
pile up instead of taking care of them. I want to see
how high I can get.
This is the terrible precipice I’ve been peering over.
Everyone/ no one is worried for me.
If I fall on them,
I will be so heavy. And what is it if it isn’t
everyone you take with you on the way down?
I thought I would fall right into the sunshine. I thought I’d be
covered in it.
Oh my god I can’t die yet,
my room isn’t clean.
Look, I brushed my hair.
I got dressed.
See, I'm better now. See?
