_i always get the same gift,_
_just wrapped in different paper._
_i pause, i listen,_
_respond, honestly._
_i pause, reach out,_
_remember, i love you._
_i pause, awake early,_
_you rise, feast on my labor._
_i pause, i pay,_
_open wallet, for our memories._
_i pause, remember you,_
_a simple gift, out of love._
_i pause, i pause, i pause._
_i pause to give,_
_give all of what i have,_
_to love you, care for you,_
_to bring a smile to your face._
_my pauses become longer,_
_my body becomes weaker,_
_my heart becomes depleted,_
_my mind becomes scattered,_
_& im exhausted._
_so tired that my eyebags have eyebags,_
_my tears like a dried up lake,_
_my heart shriveled & empty._
_i gave all of me, all i had._
_every pause belonged to you._
_but none belonged to me._
_you look confused,_
_upset, hurt._
_you scoff, angry,_
_that i have become empty._
_you think i am neglecting you,_
_i try to pause for me._
_you accuse me of selfishness,_
_accuse me of manipulation._
_you say my pauses were calculations,_
_that i am only there when i need something._
_but i never needed anything,_
_just for you to..._
_pause._
_the gift i get, is all the same_
_just wrapped in different papers._
_leeches, vampires, vacuums,_
_anything to **** my heart dry._
_yet told that i should be grateful,_
_for receiving a gift at all._
_but all my pauses are gifts,_
_gifts of all i have to offer._
_to give a smile,_
_is sometimes all i have in me._
_but i will give it freely anyway._
_but no one pauses for me,_
_they just keep on walking._
_taking with them,_
_fragments of me._
Sep 13, 2019
Sep 13, 2019 at 11:39 PM UTC
_i always get the same gift,_
_just wrapped in different paper._
_i pause, i listen,_
_respond, honestly._
_i pause, reach out,_
_remember, i love you._
_i pause, awake early,_
_you rise, feast on my labor._
_i pause, i pay,_
_open wallet, for our memories._
_i pause, remember you,_
_a simple gift, out of love._
_i pause, i pause, i pause._
_i pause to give,_
_give all of what i have,_
_to love you, care for you,_
_to bring a smile to your face._
_my pauses become longer,_
_my body becomes weaker,_
_my heart becomes depleted,_
_my mind becomes scattered,_
_& im exhausted._
_so tired that my eyebags have eyebags,_
_my tears like a dried up lake,_
_my heart shriveled & empty._
_i gave all of me, all i had._
_every pause belonged to you._
_but none belonged to me._
_you look confused,_
_upset, hurt._
_you scoff, angry,_
_that i have become empty._
_you think i am neglecting you,_
_i try to pause for me._
_you accuse me of selfishness,_
_accuse me of manipulation._
_you say my pauses were calculations,_
_that i am only there when i need something._
_but i never needed anything,_
_just for you to..._
_pause._
_the gift i get, is all the same_
_just wrapped in different papers._
_leeches, vampires, vacuums,_
_anything to **** my heart dry._
_yet told that i should be grateful,_
_for receiving a gift at all._
_but all my pauses are gifts,_
_gifts of all i have to offer._
_to give a smile,_
_is sometimes all i have in me._
_but i will give it freely anyway._
_but no one pauses for me,_
_they just keep on walking._
_taking with them,_
_fragments of me._
