I thought I was going to find love wrapped in a woman's arms
holding hands down every street
falling asleep with her head between my shoulder blades and
her arm across my stomach
pecking kisses every single chance we got
watching my every move with a stupid grin,
but for me that wasn't enough
I thought I was going to find love keeping a woman above water
serving the purpose of serving her
receiving kisses only when she is in the mood
holding hands down every hall
faking a smile when she won't even try,
but love has two sides and I matter too
I thought I wasn't going to find love
nobody could fill my expectations of love
so many contradictions that a solution wasn't clear
there were things from both I still wanted,
but I didn't know what to expect when I stopped expecting
anything
I thought love was just one thing for everyone
that how I felt was the same way everyone in love felt
that love was more about physical contact than emotional
connection
that every love I would ever have would look the same,
but it wasn't true
Because I found that love is so much more than that
it is different for everyone and varies between partners
it is complicated and intoxicating in ways I never could've
imagined
it is important to be able to talk with who you love and touch
them often enough to never forget
it is the most unnaturally natural thing about being human
And I found it in you.
Aug 18, 2019
Aug 18, 2019 at 4:59 PM UTC
I thought I was going to find love wrapped in a woman's arms
holding hands down every street
falling asleep with her head between my shoulder blades and
her arm across my stomach
pecking kisses every single chance we got
watching my every move with a stupid grin,
but for me that wasn't enough
I thought I was going to find love keeping a woman above water
serving the purpose of serving her
receiving kisses only when she is in the mood
holding hands down every hall
faking a smile when she won't even try,
but love has two sides and I matter too
I thought I wasn't going to find love
nobody could fill my expectations of love
so many contradictions that a solution wasn't clear
there were things from both I still wanted,
but I didn't know what to expect when I stopped expecting
anything
I thought love was just one thing for everyone
that how I felt was the same way everyone in love felt
that love was more about physical contact than emotional
connection
that every love I would ever have would look the same,
but it wasn't true
Because I found that love is so much more than that
it is different for everyone and varies between partners
it is complicated and intoxicating in ways I never could've
imagined
it is important to be able to talk with who you love and touch
them often enough to never forget
it is the most unnaturally natural thing about being human
And I found it in you.
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