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perhaps there's a relapse in order because i remember that a few years back everything made me sad or bored or upset or pessimistic and i'm not antagonistic but the depressed me couldn't think of anything happy and ten times i tried i tried to **** myself the eleventh time i tried was last year so it's been awhile but not long enough and now i'm feeling negative sad desolate again and i don't want there to be a twelfth time but i'm scared i'll relapse into destruction and won't come out this time twelve has always always been my lucky number so if i try again i'll "get lucky" and die but i don't really want to die
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Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 4:20 PM UTC
relapse
perhaps there's a relapse in order because i remember that a few years back everything made me sad or bored or upset or pessimistic and i'm not antagonistic but the depressed me couldn't think of anything happy and ten times i tried i tried to **** myself the eleventh time i tried was last year so it's been awhile but not long enough and now i'm feeling negative sad desolate again and i don't want there to be a twelfth time but i'm scared i'll relapse into destruction and won't come out this time twelve has always always been my lucky number so if i try again i'll "get lucky" and die but i don't really want to die
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Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 4:20 PM UTC
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