She broke my heart
So I cried in my car
so desperate for help
But I would not ask
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
Days went by
My wrist scabbed over
I pretended to be happy
so my friends wouldn't see
I'd go to bars
but go home before too many
I didn't want my guard down
For them to see me vulnerable
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
One night I lay awake
bathing in tears
She was the only one
I had talked to
What if she told people
I'm not the man I seemed
And she told people
of my own fragility
How I felt alone
and like I wasn't good enough
How I hated myself
and the emotions that controlled
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
Well it was boiling over
I wanted it to end
life is not worth it
I didn't want to go on
I thought of my mother
she'd never be the same
I thought about my father
losing his oldest son
I thought of my brothers
without a role model
I thought of my friends
and the loneliness they'd feel
I picked up the phone
and I called my best friend
He answered the phone
And I just broke down
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I get overwhelmed sometimes
and can feel quite lonely
I need help my dearest friends
I'm much more fragile than what you see
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 4:23 PM UTC
She broke my heart
So I cried in my car
so desperate for help
But I would not ask
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
Days went by
My wrist scabbed over
I pretended to be happy
so my friends wouldn't see
I'd go to bars
but go home before too many
I didn't want my guard down
For them to see me vulnerable
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
One night I lay awake
bathing in tears
She was the only one
I had talked to
What if she told people
I'm not the man I seemed
And she told people
of my own fragility
How I felt alone
and like I wasn't good enough
How I hated myself
and the emotions that controlled
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
Well it was boiling over
I wanted it to end
life is not worth it
I didn't want to go on
I thought of my mother
she'd never be the same
I thought about my father
losing his oldest son
I thought of my brothers
without a role model
I thought of my friends
and the loneliness they'd feel
I picked up the phone
and I called my best friend
He answered the phone
And I just broke down
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I get overwhelmed sometimes
and can feel quite lonely
I need help my dearest friends
I'm much more fragile than what you see
Was going through a hard time, and I'm a pretty stoic guy. Hardest thing in the world was to talk about what I was feeling, I wasn't raised that way. Sometimes I still have trouble, but I'm trying to communicate my emotions more.
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