She broke my heart
So I cried in my car
so desperate for help
But I would not ask
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
Days went by
My wrist scabbed over
I pretended to be happy
so my friends wouldn't see
I'd go to bars
but go home before too many
I didn't want my guard down
For them to see me vulnerable
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
One night I lay awake
bathing in tears
She was the only one
I had talked to
What if she told people
I'm not the man I seemed
And she told people
of my own fragility
How I felt alone
and like I wasn't good enough
How I hated myself
and the emotions that controlled
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I have tattoos
and drink Whiskey
I fight sometimes
And stand up to ***
Well it was boiling over
I wanted it to end
life is not worth it
I didn't want to go on
I thought of my mother
she'd never be the same
I thought about my father
losing his oldest son
I thought of my brothers
without a role model
I thought of my friends
and the loneliness they'd feel
I picked up the phone
and I called my best friend
He answered the phone
And I just broke down
I'm an Alpha Male
Yes that is me
I get overwhelmed sometimes
and can feel quite lonely
I need help my dearest friends
I'm much more fragile than what you see
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 4:23 PM UTC
You see
I didn't love her
Because she made me
happy
I loved her because she made me
Irate
Annoyed
Elated
Adventurous
Exhilarated
Impassioned
And everything in between
I loved her because she made me
REAL
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 6:37 PM UTC
I love the way she sleeps
And I can tell when she dreams
I wonder what she dreams about
Does she dream of Paris and Rose?
Does she dream of movie nights in her favorite hoodie?
Does she ever dream of me?
Or
Does she dream of other things?
Does she dream of other guys?
Does she dream of better than me?
Does she dream of freedom?
Because she feels tied down to me?
Does she dream I'm not good enough for her?
As I've long suspected to be true
Does she dream of leaving me?
Does she dream of cheap hookups and thrills?
She told me I was crazy, she didn't dream of
abandoning me
But she did.
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 11:17 AM UTC
You were right
She broke my heart
and now I'm broken
But you're wrong
I don't wish I never met her
Because those moments
looking in her hazel eyes
make this pain
worth
every
single
second
Nov 23, 2018
Nov 23, 2018 at 12:11 AM UTC
When I quit smoking
I always wanted a cig
I would crave one
with every bone in my body
And then one day
I just didn't anymore
I hope I have as much luck getting over you
Nov 19, 2018
Nov 19, 2018 at 12:44 PM UTC
I love my bed
Nobody can hurt me here
I'll bundle in blankets
and watch movies of love
that I'll never have
and I don't have to put up walls
because they're already around me
and I might not feel good
but at least I don't feel bad
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 1:26 PM UTC
I'm fine without you
I leave bed a little bit less
I'm always tired
and my room is a mess
but
I'm fine without you
Sometimes I cry for no reason
and I'll blame it on mood swings
or the change of season
but
I'm fine without you
although I think of you all day
wondering why you left and
hoping you're okay
but
I'm fine without you
My friends have concern
they say I've lost it
and I'm letting my life burn
but
I'm fine without you
the rare occasions I'm in my car
I don't wear a seatbelt
and I'm headed to the bar
but
I'm fine without you
I really swear that it's true
I guess I'm spiraling out of control
but it's not because of you...
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 11:14 AM UTC
I try so hard
to make others proud of me
because I think
that's the only way
I can be proud of myself
Sep 25, 2018
Sep 25, 2018 at 1:17 PM UTC
Maybe I try so hard
So you can see the worth in me
I don't see in myself
Sep 20, 2018
Sep 20, 2018 at 1:09 PM UTC