it's about the time of year
that i get sad again
it's about the time of year
that i found out you were dying,
i didn't know if you'd be here at christmas
it's about the time of year
where you started slurring words
and forgetting things too,
but you bought me those boots for christmas
and told me about them a month early
you were so happy about them
it's about the time of year
where i can't breathe
i don't know if it's because of asthma
or if i'm imagining
how it felt to breathe like that
it's about the time of year
where i'd imagine i was on a boat
in the middle of a faraway lake in the UP
i'm a child again and she's much younger too
she's not sick, she's not dying
it's about the time of year
where cancer took my nonni's brain
and made her forget who she was
and how to do things
it's about the time of year
where i cried myself to sleep every night
and prayed to God,
that he'd take anyone but her, take me instead
Oct 4, 2018
Oct 4, 2018 at 7:00 PM UTC
it's about the time of year
that i get sad again
it's about the time of year
that i found out you were dying,
i didn't know if you'd be here at christmas
it's about the time of year
where you started slurring words
and forgetting things too,
but you bought me those boots for christmas
and told me about them a month early
you were so happy about them
it's about the time of year
where i can't breathe
i don't know if it's because of asthma
or if i'm imagining
how it felt to breathe like that
it's about the time of year
where i'd imagine i was on a boat
in the middle of a faraway lake in the UP
i'm a child again and she's much younger too
she's not sick, she's not dying
it's about the time of year
where cancer took my nonni's brain
and made her forget who she was
and how to do things
it's about the time of year
where i cried myself to sleep every night
and prayed to God,
that he'd take anyone but her, take me instead
it's almost been 5 years and i'm still so angry
