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Coffee and cigarettes I tell myself I have Coffee and cigarettes "You don't need food tonight." Drink coffee. Smoke cigarettes. Ignore the rumbling. "You don't need to eat." Just one more meal, I tell myself Is it a lie? Is it the truth? It doesn't matter I shovel bite after bite into my mouth Chew. Swallow. Choke. Keep it in. "Just one more bite." It's therapeutic My stomach is rumbling No, I tell myself "You just ate." I feel nauseous "You don't need to eat." My body is tingling "You're still full." [Let's do something about it, then.] I eat and I eat and I eat and I eat and I... I puke. I watch my body expel all that I ingested. My forehead is wet And so is my nape My body is shaking Make it stop My body doesn't listen I puke I heave I retch I gasp There, you're not full anymore. I tell myself it's the cigarettes I watch my food go down the drain Too much smoke in my lungs Too much nicotine in my veins [Too many lies in your head.] "Ignore it." I wipe away the tears I escape My stomach rumbles I need food So I eat Coffee Cigarettes They make me hungry I'm always hungry My stomach is constantly rumbling Never satisfied Never pleased "I'm full." [Let's do something about it.] "Please don't." [Too late.] I eat and I eat and I eat and I eat and I... I cry.
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Apr 21, 2018
Apr 21, 2018 at 2:00 AM UTC
Eat
Coffee and cigarettes I tell myself I have Coffee and cigarettes "You don't need food tonight." Drink coffee. Smoke cigarettes. Ignore the rumbling. "You don't need to eat." Just one more meal, I tell myself Is it a lie? Is it the truth? It doesn't matter I shovel bite after bite into my mouth Chew. Swallow. Choke. Keep it in. "Just one more bite." It's therapeutic My stomach is rumbling No, I tell myself "You just ate." I feel nauseous "You don't need to eat." My body is tingling "You're still full." [Let's do something about it, then.] I eat and I eat and I eat and I eat and I... I puke. I watch my body expel all that I ingested. My forehead is wet And so is my nape My body is shaking Make it stop My body doesn't listen I puke I heave I retch I gasp There, you're not full anymore. I tell myself it's the cigarettes I watch my food go down the drain Too much smoke in my lungs Too much nicotine in my veins [Too many lies in your head.] "Ignore it." I wipe away the tears I escape My stomach rumbles I need food So I eat Coffee Cigarettes They make me hungry I'm always hungry My stomach is constantly rumbling Never satisfied Never pleased "I'm full." [Let's do something about it.] "Please don't." [Too late.] I eat and I eat and I eat and I eat and I... I cry.
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#trigger#warning#bulimia#mia#experience#eat
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Apr 21, 2018
Apr 21, 2018 at 2:00 AM UTC
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