can they?

happyhalle Poems

i did it, i finally got what i wanted (or, what i told myself time and time again that i wanted needed, deserved, — because you're right i was afraid). i've never been able to write anything beautiful about you. not when i was happy with you at least. i'm not sure why. i don't have a clue, but maybe it was the universe giving me a sign. you're wonderful -- a sweetheart, really and truly. i never knew someone's eyes could shine so effervescently blue, and deep too. but you weren't the one. you couldn't have been. i wish i didn't mistake someone who liked me and would put up with me singing out loud in the car and sleeping all day with the one. you won't come back. i know it this time. you blocked me from your memory completely and wholly got rid of me. (it was my idea; i have to remind myself) i'll send your things and you'll send mine. this wasn't supposed to be a love story for all time. just another failed relationship like the last one, and the one before that. i was too much, you not enough, complications arose, and we fell flat. you already have someone. he's wonderful too. i lose them all, push them away. i wish i didn't, nut i do. can we go back to the snowy night where the world changed? you don't sound like you want to well — things can't stay the same can they?